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Recieved: 1999/06/29 04:53
Subject: [K-list] Jennell shares
From: Colette T
On 1999/06/29 04:53, Colette T posted thus to the K-list:
Hi List. Jennel sent this to me meaning to send it to the whole list, and has
asked me to pass it os ans she hasn't a copy ... :
Subject:
Re: warnings
Date:
Thu, 24 Jun 1999 07:29:10 -0500
From:
Jenell <anglfthrATnospamiamerica.net>
Organization:
I ain't organized!
To:
coletteATnospambb.com.au
Colette T wrote:
>
> Hi all. Hi Jennel. You are right.
>
> I had no idea my meditation I started when 18 had anything to do with
> purifying in such a devastating fashion. That said, it is a blessing to
> focus here on the joy rather than the dark nights.
(J) Absolutely, in your perspecitve of your own expereince. For some,
the 'dark nights' had better be balanced by focus on the joy if we are
to maintain any sanity! My k awakening was spontaeous, and very
powerful, and at the time, i'd never even heard of it, anything like
that. i had NO idea what was happening to me. fortunately, i DIDS find
excellent help, through a S.E.N. crisis hotline referal. I'm now myself
involved through that contact i found, and in personal contacts, in
helping as a support person and information/referal source for those
that are beginning to awaken, and also have no idea what it's about. I
can't even begin to get into some of the things i've epxereinced related
to it, or that i've now encountered in some others. We're not talking
'just a matter of perspective' here, we are talking TRAUMA, and that
would be TRAUMA to ANYONE. To touch on a currently active topic here,
for example, 'long distance sex'. People, especially women, suddenly
experiencing what without any context to put it in being 'made love to'
and forcably raped by invisible entities, ad other manifestations that
might be described in some contexts as poltergeist in nature. I
expereienced THAt, too, things, objects, around me MOVING, or
disappearing and then reappearing, thankfully, it was happening without
seeming violence or maelevolence, but rather ranging from 'mischevious',
I had the sense it was just trying to get me to 'notice' it, make me
'awake' of a 'presence', to a few times, when I was really walking
through the dark days, beleive it or not, comforting! Add them in
desperation trying to tell anyone, family, doctor, whoever, about it!
The trauma in things like that is NOT merely a matter of 'perspective'.
That hit me at the very FIRST of my full awakening, and lasted close to
two years! I've learned to 'black' most of that now, and know it for
what it is. It's realted to, at least in my case, to mental
telepathy/telempathy. Which I have, the latter especailly to a very
powerful degree. Again, in that, feeling constantly in my body so much
pain being 'soaked up' from so many people is at the best of times,
terrible, at worst, sometimes comes close to incapacatating me.
And like most people, I really didn't have much beleif in real
'mediums', not at ALL prepared for THAT, 'contacts' with deceased
people! Again, thankfully, they have been all rather pleasant
experiences, the few 'bad' experiences of that kind, I got through
pretty well, already had some understanding about what was going on by
then, but that's not true for everyone that expereiences this.
Also those that expereience the bizare and painful twisting of their
bodies, spines, thankfully so far I haven't had THAT! And then the
'voices', clairaudience some get, or clairvoyance of things they'd not
want to 'see', horrible events they 'expereience' without being able to
prevent it. None of these kind of things involve 'perspective' as to
'how' one percives them.Many such things ARE a part of healing, growth,
for that person, but still, they are not fun and bliss to expereience,
especially when one doesn't even know what it's all about. Or that have
only the 'bliss' stories as a basis for what they are expecting.
All of us that have k are in the same boat, so to speak. Those who's
expereiences have (at least this far) been only pleasant are, i'm sorry,
being arrogant, thoughtless, and unkind if they take the view that that
is because they handle it better, know more, and that the negative stuff
others expereience is something of their own faults for not knowing how
to handle it better. And we need to be aware that perhaps we just
haven't expereienced some of those things yet, but might in the future.
although I speak of my k awkening as 4 yrs ago, that was the full 'blow
open'. i now realize that I've been having epeisodes, periods of it,
throughout my life, and I'm 50 yrs old now. Some of the 'ESP', I had as
a very young child. Why, who knows. perhaps hedity, there is alot on one
side of my family that indicates that is possible, and/or for a NDE at
age 1 1/2. I fell into a lake, was under water in excess of 20 minutes,
a coma for 6 hours. Shouldn't have lived. family was sitting a death
watch when, after 6 hours, i simply woke up, as if nothing had happened,
no ill effects that could be seen. doctors said, of course, that
shouldn't have been possible.
I'm NOT trying to be negative, or critical of those that haven't had a
rough time of it, just trying to point out sincerely and realistically
that all need to understand, for themselves or others, it is NOT always
all fun and bliss.
Take care, Sister
Jenell
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