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Recieved: 1999/06/16 12:39
Subject: [K-list] Please HELP!!! My Overwhelming Affects of Kundalini Aw
From: Stpaisley
On 1999/06/16 12:39, Stpaisley posted thus to the K-list:
Hello Everyone ...
First let me start off by saying that I just discovered yesterday I've had
what's called this Kundalini Awakening. I've been having the symptoms for
years, but it's only recently that they've gotten so bad that I had to pay
attention to them. There's time where I feel that I'm losing a grip on who I
am...that I'm slowly floating away and that's when I go into psychic attack
and start fighting the K, which I know I read somewhere you're not supposed
to do.
I have the automatic yoga positions, the extreme sex drive, visions, aching
muscles and throbbing areas where the chakras are, my third eye is only
constantly, I have no clue how to shut it out and it seems as if I'm
'battling with Fate'. I have the 'wonderful' ability to see too deeply into
to people anymore, I've become empathic, to such an uncomfortable degree that
it's hard for me to be in crowds sometimes, I have a tendency to just fall
into these little worlds that manifest themselves to me...(whether that's a
symptoms of the K, I don't know.) I can't sleep at night, every time I close
my eyes I'm staring in oblivion, and I feel like I'm losing the sense of
self, it's terribly hard for me to keep myself grounded on this physical
plane, I'm slipping in and out of the astral plane everyday, I have these
bizarre tendencies to become paranoid over the smallest thing, I have fears
of being locked up for this, because all these symptoms sound like someone
who is mentally ill. I'm extremely hungry all the time, my metabolism his
sky rocketed and even though I eat a normal amount of food I keep losing
weight. I've become so 'psychic' I can to a degree tap into people' minds,
just today I started seeing blockages in other people's chakra systems, and
at time I'm in such physical pain it feels as if my body is allergic to
itself. I can communicate with beings not on this plane. I've looked into the
'future' to a small degree. I've been seeing this liquid light over
everything for months, before I became concerned about anything, my mind
splits between this plane and the next...or how many others... I have
feelings of electricity and sensations running through my body all the time,
I just put my hand out into air, touching nothing, and I can feel shocks
coming in through it. I've seen visions..I think I mentioned that before? For
some uncanny reason I've been put into contact with past lives, Vivid past
lives, and I can experience them from where I am now...not even drifting into
a dream state... I've even begun seeing other's past lives through them, I
can 'sense' them. I have short term memory loss, with the K flares up badly,
it's hard for me to remember one thing to the next.
Right now I feel crazy, but there's moments where I've been partially
grounded that I know that I'm not going insane, this 'symptoms' are severe. I
didn't ask for this thing...but I'm also told you can't reverse the processes
either. So what am I to do?
I'm clueless. Does any of this ever work it self out?
I know that the Kundalini is somehow unblocking my chakra system for it to
flow through there unblocked, but I'm worried by the time that that happens,
there won't be any mind left in me for it to be of use to. I honestly could
see myself losing my mind from this, and I know it has happened.... So what
on Earth do I do?
Surrender...? Let Go....? Let the Kundalini take my soul?
.... Greta
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