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Recieved: 1999/05/21 13:47
Subject: [K-list] maybe of interest to synchronicities...personal dilemm
From: Kimberly Burlison
On 1999/05/21 13:47, Kimberly Burlison posted thus to the K-list:
I guess I need to vent, or else I wouldn't be here. The last couple of weeks has been rough on this old jag (yes, I feel eons older than my driver's license says). I have a moral dilemma for you (and yes, it's one of those already decided and done ones, but that's not the important thing).
Between 6 weeks and 3 months before your spouse, sig other, etc is supposed to die, a guide comes to you with a choice. You cannot get away from making this choice. He has never lied and never been even slightly innacurate. Your choice is whether or not to prevent his/her death. To choose to prolong his life, you pay a price, suffering some nasty otherworldly side effects and maybe some general deterioration of an already present health problem. Nothing life threatening, but enough to make you think about it seriously. You cannot talk to the person about it, no reason, other than your vocal cords are frozen everytime you try to talk about it until you change what you wanted to say. If you choose not to, the person dies and you go on with your life. You know the person wants to continue living, the death is not choice but chance. What do you do?
In the middle of February, I made the choice to prevent his death. I have been paying for it lately, with my joint problems getting worse and some really crazy energetic responses, but overall I'm fine considering he's still alive. :) I didn't know exactly when it was supposed to happen, but I made my choice and stuck to it. This past Sunday my husband was cooking supper when Thunder came to me and told me to fix my food separate, and don't eat the chicken...find something else, anything else. So I did and my husband continued fixing his food. The next morning he was sick as a dog and didn't go to work. While he was vomiting he kept having the recurring visions of his death in a wreck that day. I didn't know this until last night, when I was finally allowed to talk about the choice to him. He's happy I made that choice, but I wonder what it must be like for him...all of his guides except one has left him because he was supposed to die. Him dying was why the man in black left me the robe...so I could protect myself without Dean around (he's the psych-war person...I'm good, but he's so much better I usually send him out or take him with me). His three other guys have told him it's their time to leave. The only one left is a man in white who has now shown her true form as a blonde-headed woman in a long white robe. He tries to come in and talk to her, but she says its not time yet. Any ideas?
Kimberly
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