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Recieved: 1999/05/21 03:30
Subject: Re: [K-list] Re: Shamanism and ego-death part 1
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 1999/05/21 03:30, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
Kimberly wrote:
>This was my response that I had sent to Mystress last night. And I'm
scanning >the staff as soon as I'm done with this. :)
I popped it onto the K-list site..
http://www.List-Server.net/kundalini/img/my staff.gif
Made me giggle.. are those not pointy kitty cat ears and kitty cat eyes
and sharp claws and big white teeth all the better for devouring steak
with.. and a furry belly full of red meat.. is that not your buddy Jaguar
on your staff? Who else would it be? :)
Interesting.. Thunder has a solar disk on his head, representing the sky
energies of Spirit, and the Jaguar has a human smile and a round belly..
the earthy appetites of body-instinct. Very kewl.
At 11:53 AM 5/18/99 , Kimberly McDaniel wrote:
>Hehehe...in this town there are plenty of people who are close or who ARE
>but are still fighting it...highly religious town and I'm satan incarnate
>(whew, I'm an Archangel now?!?).
Depends on the Paradigms.. I would say, yes.. perhaps our dear Rabbi
would, as well.. he wrote: An angel of course is an internal Principle.>
So, next time someone calls you Satan, you can tell them that you are a
manifestation of an internal principle, and see what they do.. "Demon"
comes from the latin word Daemon, which means "inner self".
> People who get close to me end up coming
>to me about it (and therefore I'm sending them to Satan). People who've
>never spoken to me or heard about me before talk to me and they tell me they
>don't know why, but they knew I'd understand.
Their unconscious knows what you are, and draws them to what they need.
>Very suicidal because they were both hardcore Christian and didn't
>understand and I was the only one they felt they could talk to.
That's odd because according to Christians suicide is a mortal sin that
would land them in Hell, anyhow. I suspect you can relate to the sense of
humor in me that finds that very funny..
> I didn't
>truly understand then either, but I was gifted with the words and the
>knowledge of what was going on in their hearts to help them.
LOL!! Story of my life..
> One has
>surrendered and is going head-first after Wicca, telling me that Goddess is
>calling her (and told me she "got it" from me)...
Shaktipat Master..:) When you use empathy to tune into their needs,
you unify with them.. so there is only One, and it's both of you.. poof,
wake up little Serpents.. especially if they come to you, asking for help..
receptive to you...
>the other, I don't
>know...he's frightened of it...saw me read thoughts of his and stuff a
>little too often. Couldn't help it...it was so loud I thought he was
>speaking. He's still afraid of going mad if the hearing thoughts gets worse.
Yeh, fear of madness.. it has never been too bad for me, probably coz I
got into self-hypnosis so young.. age 12.. so ..
>After this and a spiritual fight with a Wiccan pissed because I refused to
>room with her, no one else really wants to hang around me.
I don't hang around Wiccans so much anymore.. it seems a lot of folks
are drawn to Wicca seeking personal power.. ego-power. They want to learn
some magic so they can get their own way more often.. and a path that
abandons free will in favor of devotion and obedience is incomprehensible
to them... and the energy of the ego is insignificant compared to Spirit
manifest. So, jealousy tells them I must be cheating, or something.. When
they feel my Shakti charged aura picking at their Karma they resist it and
start to make stories of scary badwitch psychic vampire Angelique.. I got
tired of folks bitching about me, and quietly abandoned the Pagan
community.. looked for silver linings and decided to focus my energies on
my own Tribe.. but now those who were not bitching are offering to fight
for my presence and asking for my return, and I am going "OK, Goddess, now
what??"
> (And
>that particular person is telling people I have multiple personalities, but
>somehow that's funny to me.)
The truth makes you laugh...:)
>To heal, I got a bumper sticker that read "God, save me from your
>followers!!!" and it was done.
ROTFLMAO!! Actually, I have learned to send up a pink love bubble with
"Jesus loves you" written on it, and the negative Christian projections all
follow it up... :)
> And my hair...there's a part
>where I have three or four silver strands...and the rest is chunking black
>and auburn...rather strange and no longer changes under my control.
My first thought was Oroborus serpents are usually drawn striped black
and red.. that made me laugh.. my second thought was after I saw the colors
of the beings on your staff. Are you sure the Jaguar is black?? Or is it
cougar-colored..?
>> I wonder if you are hearing the thoughts of their unconscious.. ?
>I'm starting to wonder, but I really don't know. All I know is that if I
>look in their eyes I hear them, very clear but very quiet. And some people
>I'm close to, I just hear when they're within a mile of me.
Well, I suspect that's it.. a way to test, is that the unconscious is
the opposite gender of the body, so think at them "Hello, Brother, I love
you", for women, and the opposite, "Hello Lady, I see your beauty".. to
men.. watch the reaction. Be careful tho coz when their unconscious sees
that you see it, sometimes it makes the ego of the person fall in love with
you immediately.
>Around here, a lot of people come up to me and swear that they know me from
>somewhere.
:) Goddess takes a form we can love.. since you are "not", you become
what they need to see. A reflection of who they are. It happens anyways,
but most folks project their own ego-individuality strongly enough not to
be mistaken... when that's gone.. all people see is reflections of their
own memories.
>Lately I've been finding a lot of things funny...but I don't think they are.
>(Ripley, Alien Resurrection, but I relate).
Oh, yes.. been there.. the Portal Guardian's sense of humor is, uh,
dark, to say the least. Addams Family stuff.. Laughter is the nature of
Spirit, and spirit doesn't judge between laughing at creation, or
destruction. I used to watch the last 10 minutes of "Dukes of Hazzard", and
"The A-Team" just to watch the explosions.. they blow stuff up, real good..
Wheee!
> I just
>am going through a period where spirit will not let me have a job. They
>tell me the right one is coming, so for now, sit down and listen, and that's
>what I'm doing.
I've often wondered if there is money to be made, as a professional
ghost buster.. ;)
> Lately I'll tell my husband I need a
>specific food and he'll ask why, cause I don't like it, but I know there's a
>vitamin I need in there (even though I don't know the particular vitamin).
Yes, I teach that to my students, to hold a food to their belly and see
if it likes the vibe, or not. Reclaiming lost instincts.
>I asked Thunder the other day if I was going to end up so desperate for
>school money that I sell his ideas on a spiritual inspiration calendar. He
>said, Why not? :)
Sure, why not? Wiccans and some witches make a big issue of trading
money for spiritual teachings, but Shamen don't.. a Shaman is an artist who
lives by her talent. Psychic abilities are usually sold as "entertainment",
anyhow, to be legal... I do my taxes as a actor and performance artist.
> People on other lists
>think that this "pantherKitten" entity knows so much, when all she really
>does is let the people who can help help and put her name at the bottom.
Hey, sister, welcome to the Game.. :) That's all this one trick pony
show has been doing, for years, now.. folks think I'm so wise.. I know
nothing, I'm just willing to be scribe for other folks guidance.. tell them
what they need to hear, to surrender their fear... just for the pleasure of
watching the flowers growing.
I used to have a sig file that said the script was courtesy of the
infinity of monkeys who wrote Hamlet, and I'd thank them when I accept my
Oscar.. an obscure joke about infinite probabilities, and chaos.. the
monkeys wrote "All the world's a stage and we are players.."
These days, I've even stopped putting my name on the bottom.. I just
leave it at the top, like Hotel stationery..
Blessings...
continued in part 2
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