To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/05/17 14:16
Subject: [K-list] More Repressed Memory Coming Up
From: Leteegee
On 1999/05/17 14:16, Leteegee posted thus to the K-list:
In a message dated 5/17/99 4:30:03 PM Eastern Daylight Time,
luckyguyATnospammindspring.com writes:
> I had some more memories come up. I was very young and I remember having
> wax being dripped on me by my father. I know some people are into sadism,
but I don't really understand it. I have been hurling like crazy. I don't
feel like eating at all. The K is really doing its thing.
Hi Dave...
I've mentioned this before on the list, but I will say it again because it is
worth repeating.
During a K awakening, you can receive all kinds of memories... unfortunately,
some are of abuse as a child that you may have no recollection of, and the
memories that come up are vivid.... just like your dreams are now. There
is a possibility that you are bringing up past life memories -- not of this
life -- but it seems just as real, like it is this life. It is not true.
It is just more fears coming up. Do you want to give into the fears, or see
the truth?
You have invited Love into your life. And what is not of Love (all of your
fears) has to come up and out and regurgitated. We don't need to continue to
look at the puke. (unless you like that kinda thing). Just flush it. It
could be from this life, from another life, but most likely, it is an itty
bitty fear (that is not real) you might have had that has come up and out,
and has been blown out of proportion. It even could be something as simple
as you dropping wax onto yourself when you were younger, and projecting that
guilt now onto your father. Kundalini is marvelous for exaggerating the
littlest of things. (or is that us that does that?) LOL
Ask yourself some questions about what your father was like to you as a child
and growing up -- Do you recall any abuse of this nature (not including
these memories that you do not remember that showed up recently).
Please keep an open mind to this possibility. Do not take anything you
*see* and give it a grain of salt during this kundalini process. You can
also receive memories of being Jesus Christ Himself Reincarnated... or many
other possibilities. (there are many of us Jesus's out there!). With an
open mind, you WILL find the truth. If you close your mind to that
possibility and take what you *see* as real, well, you know.... it will be.
Even if it isn't.
Hang in there... just observe the memories coming up and let them flow on
by... If you grasp onto everything Kundalini sends your way as it cleans and
purifies, you will end up being a basket case for a while. Take some gentle
breaths, get out in nature, and surrender everything that comes up and out.
That's the purpose... to learn to surrender -- not to grasp.
Sending you lots of love.
Love,
xxxtg
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