To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/03/11 17:30
Subject: [K-list] Llewellyn apology to Cathy and list
From: Llewellyn
On 1999/03/11 17:30, Llewellyn posted thus to the K-list:
Dear Cathy and Nancy and list;
Wow,--- i was starting to post a better apology for my remarks - when
another post came in about this, so I will try now to respond to all of
this. Hopefully, this can close out this chapter. If anyone wants further
clarification from me, on these issues, I will be happy to off-list address
anyone's comments or concerns.
Firstly, Cathy, I am sorry that I responded the way that I did to the post.
I was out of line and my responses can not be justified. Please accept my
apology and let this matter rest. I will be more respectful in the future.
I believe that I am usually respectful, not sure what got into me that time.
Sometimes I am hypersensitive, but, that does not give me an excuse to
respond the way that I did; again I apologize and am sorry.
Nancy, what can I say - hmm - well, using your words, "Everything is
perfect as it is." We all can differ and hear what we hear, that will
always be the case, or so I believe.
Now, I will try to respond to some specific issues that have been raised.
> > Is that because he needed to diss it so bad? Is it because it
threatened
> > his ego? Or perhaps disagreed with some practice of his?
I was annoyed at the post and did not know how to respond - I was probably
reacting to some emotional garbage left over from my past - I had mixed
feelings all the way from - who cares, to this bothers me. I can be
hypersensitive about some of these issues, I usually handle that better than
I did this time. I wouldn't say that the post threatened my ego and it was
not that it disagreed with any practice of mine. I am quite practice free,
and free of practice. I suppose what bothered me about it, was something
that I thought I detected in the tone, plus some references to
"forgiveness". This seems to be something that I am hypersensitive to. If
someone says, the way I look at that is xyz, I smile, if I hear anything
like, this is the way it is - then I frown - Maybe the talk about
"forgiveness" is especially sensitive for me in regards to me not being able
to forgive my family - I do not know. I over-reacted and I am sorry for
that over-reaction. I am sure it was not the intent of Cathy to do anything
other than provide her opinion. I misheard and over-reacted, sometimes my
filter causes distortions and I misinterpret the message.
>
> Who knows? Didn't feel like any of those to me. Felt more like he had been
> attacked by people expressing similar views in the past. Let's ask him.
> Llewellyn, why did you comment on Cathy's post?
My comment stemmed from what I stated above, but I will amplify on the
possible cause of my hypersensitivity in this area. Actually, in many
regards it amazes me that I seem to be so, almost hostile, to anything
smacking of Christian type beliefs. I suppose it is because I was raised in
a strict Christian home and went to church and was baptized and at one time
professed to, and was somewhat indoctrinated in that set of beliefs - that
now I tend to reject them, with the most vehemence. Plus, some of these
issues probably reminds me of family stuff. I am somewhat following the
pathless path - and incorporate different aspects from many traditional
paths into my soul.
>
> > It's one thing to disagree, and its another to intentionally put down.
I agree with you Cathy, I had no reason to respond the way that I did. - In
the future I will bite my tongue, and if I can not be polite and respond
with respect for everybody and with thought of being helpful, then I will
shut up.
respectively,
Llewellyn
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