To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/03/09 19:41
Subject: Re: [K-list] relationships
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 1999/03/09 19:41, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 01:00 PM 3/6/99 , molecularbreeze wrote:
>Dear Angelique,
>
>Well your posting certainly cleared up a lot confusion. I still have a
>nagging voice trying to tell me not to let go of him, that he can change
>(oh, right).
It will be as Goddess wills.. ya know the expression.. "If you love
something, set it free, if it comes back, it's yours.." That needs to be
your mantra right now..
Some people would call this a test of faith. The idea that unconditional
love needs to test us like we are schoolchildren who must be judged ABCD or
F doesn't resonate with me.. I think of it, more that you are being
presented with some decisions, to have faith or to wallow.
>
>Mostly, what you have written I find as Truth for me and I feel much
>stronger.
Good! I'm glad.. Wallowing can be fine drama, it's the stuff that poetry
and country music are made of.. but it does get a bit much after a while..
kinda boring.. ya know? Gets to be time to pick up and move on.. start
having some fun, again.. :)
> Having gone through the process of...death of ego yourself, what
>suggestions might you have for how I might assist my Self. Actually, you
>have cleared up so many things, I feel like throwing all the self-help out
>the window and just getting out and living life and putting the whole thing
>behind me.
That's an act of faith.. "Goddess has it handled". I've read all the self
help books, I was addicted to them for years.. they form a language the
Spirit draws on when I channel guidance like I do... and I keep the library
I've collected to lend to friends as guidance suggests, but I don't use
them anymore, myself.
It is simpler, just to understand yourself, and learn from yourself..
you already know everything, learning is just remembering, re-filing info
in a different part of your brain.
I like the Jungian model..
ego <separate, individual sense of identity>
unconscious
collective -> cosmic consciousness. (I call it Goddess, or Spirit)
So, your ego is limited, but thru your unconscious you are All that
Is. Previously, you were finding unity with spirit thru interaction with
other.. now it is time to do it within: interaction with unconscious male
self.. Goddess' representative within you can love you better than any
human can.
All you have to do, is connect with Him.. and it is more of a matter of
recognizing, than finding. He has always been within you, taking different
thought-forms and projecting himself on others..
When you were a little girl, likely you spent time dreaming about what
your true love would be like, when you grew up.. the White Knight Prince in
Shining Armor to your Cinderella stories. That's Him! The only place he
exists is within you.. so spend time thinking about him, daydreaming and
imagining him, until he become real enough in your mind for you to have a
conversation with.
Here's where the surrender comes in.. don't argue with him, coz he has
been your slave all your life, like a Mother is slave to her children. Your
ego's Free Will is his law. He won't argue, he'll shut up and let you have
your way.. and since you are the stupider of the two.. ego is not
infinite..this is not a good thing.
You've been there, done that.. if you have a hard time surrendering,
then put your body into the pose of a praying Muslim.. forehead to the
floor, .. or a surrendering wolf.. on your back, belly and throat exposed,
head back.. If your body language says surrender, your ego will follow
along naturally.
You must use your free will, to choose to give up your free will to the
higher wisdom of Spirit speaking thru the inner manifestation of the Divine
Beloved.
Using the Jungian conceptualization, this can mean surrendering the
decisions that must be made, and all of the fears, grief and worrying, to
the will of the Infinite part of you, instead of the limited concept of
ego-self that is Connie. Goddess will always manifest something better than
your ego could ever possibly dream up.. and will, if you allow it by
surrendering what you think is best for yourself, to a bigger idea.
The old cliche I used at the beginning of this post, thus has a higher
meaning.. everything that is surrendered to higher consciousness comes
back better, if it is meant to Be.
Things do not need to be surrendered physically, only the emotional
attachment to them.. you know that you can love your children better, if
you avoid thoughts of ownership of them. So it is, with everything, even
the thoughts in your mind. You are the transmitter of thoughts, the origin
of them is in the unconscious.
Ownership of anything is illusion.. Goddess is All that Is.
Anything that you think is "yours", <not Goddess> is part of the ego. Get
rid of it by giving it away, as a gift, to Higher wisdom to do with, as It
pleases. Thank it, too.
I dunno when your ego death will come, or how.. everyone is different.. I
simply recognised the metaphor and interpreted the vision. Those decisions
are not up to me, eh? I am not your Guru.. Your Guru awaits your surrender,
within. Go to Him.
Blessings..
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