To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/03/06 04:52
Subject: Re: [K-list] relationships
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 1999/03/06 04:52, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 07:29 PM 3/4/99 , molecularbreeze wrote: with him I HAD that oneness.
>
>Simultaneous with my relationship with him I experienced a tremendous
>increase in the incidence of spiritual knowings, vissions, and impressions.
>My journals, over the last three years, are chock full of them. When the
>abuse finally became physical and I ended the relationship, the connection
>is so deep and so powerful I calmly experienced a chilling train of
>thought, more than once, where I saw myself losing my life at his hand, and
>experiencing the visualization as correct, even sacred.
>
When two awakened people come together, the bonding is very powerful.
Thru their love they Shaktipat each other, and the spiritual growth of both
speeds up into a sometimes chaotic intensity. Goddess brings them together
for that purpose, and drives them apart when that work is done.
You experienced death at his hands as sacred, because the actor in your
mind was not your physical beloved.. it was your own Divine Beloved God
self using his form as an icon. Spirit takes any form that we can love.
As K. unfolds, thru insights and events the ego is dismantled and
eroded, the karma it represents is forgiven and cleared, till at last not
much is left of it, but the veil of separation that keeps you from
experiencing yourself as inseparable from Spirit.
That veil is torn away, by the death of the ego. The ego traverses the
underworld in some form, forgiving and releasing any remaining karma to
reach the tunnel of light.. and unify with All that Is.
Ego death can take many forms.. murder, mercy killing at the hands of
the Divine Beloved is not unusual, or visions of being ritually
sacrificed.. but sometimes the ego suicides. K. sometimes "helps" by
saving the best grief for last, so ego-suicide begins to seem like a
preferable alternative to living with great emotional pain.
It is not unusual to experience many real-life losses as the first part
of the process. It is Spirit forcibly deleting attachments that were too
cherished to be given up, on their own. You write that you are not attached
to your children, so don't fear losing them.
In a matter of months, I lost my home, my income, my freedom to travel,
my health, and a beloved who I had been working with to try to change the
short palm lines that foretold his impending death, died..
I re-experienced my own birth, and had a terrifying experience in the
void that left occasional cold shivers up the back of my neck, for months
afterwards. Life got better after that stuff was cleared, but it was
another 18 months of finding odd places to forgive myself, and releasing
fears and grief before I felt the ego-death/rebirth process was really
completed.
Your attachment to seeing the Divine beloved in a manifestation outside
of yourself must be released.. you have heard that you can only see in
another, what is reflected of your self?
Everything you loved about your man, was a reflection of the Divine
Beloved who is waiting patiently for you to notice him, within your own
self. Not outside.. inside.
The Divine beloved wants to murder your ego individuality as a sacred
wedding ritual, so you can join with him forever, in the light. Then you
will live happily ever after, spirit having a human experience, chop wood,
carry water, raise children.. etc.
Once the sacred Marriage is complete, you will see the beauty you saw in
your man, in every human you meet. In everything you see.. because the
Divine Beloved Is All that Is.. and so are you.. the veil is gone.. no
separation.
The destruction of your relationship may hurt, but the surgery is not
without purpose. You have noticed, when you release something, it often
returns to you as a gift of insight, more brilliant that you could have
ever imagined.. so it will be, with this.. set him free.. look for him
within you.
Blessings..
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