To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/03/05 21:22
Subject: [K-list] response to Connie
From: caroline wilson
On 1999/03/05 21:22, caroline wilson posted thus to the K-list:
Dear Connie,
You wrote:
"This grieving process is so brutal. He and I were/are powerfully
spiritually connected. I have never been that close to another human
being and I don't think I ever will be again. I don't think it is
possible."
I too was in an abusive relationship, i am so glad you have left, no
matter if your connection to this man was so strong, it is not worth
being abused for, your spiritual experiences leading up to the violent
incident which finally made you leave are there to awaken you and to
protect you, messages from the soul.
I don't know how long you have been seperated from this man, but i found
i was going through enormous amounts of grief (crying before work and
after work i managed to keep myself mostly togeather at work), my family
was trying to suggest i go on antidepressants ( i didn't )for 4 months
solid after the break-up, i had PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Depression),
counselling helps quite a lot, as women a big part of our healing is
just to be able to talk about it and express our feelings, even with
other women who have gone through a similar experience. I missed my man
for a while too, not anymore, so used to being with him and yes i
understand you miss the intimacy and physicality of a relationship, this
will pass as you let go.
When i started feeling melancholy for him i would make myself remember
him screaming and intimaidating me how he wanted to smash my head in
that would give me a reality check,( and also he saw himself as a pretty
spiritually connected guy too).
I needed to go through all my grief and waterfalls of tears and torrents
of anger as part of letting go.
I found i needed help to get over it, and it came free of charge, the
universe provided support for me - i asked for help. I found talking to
my heart was comforting, as talking to the goddess, eventually they
start talking back to me.
I had some spiritual healing sessions that helped me enormously, and
since, my journey on my spiritual path has been quite rapid, burning off
karma and opening up to Divine love like a flower blooming in the
spring, i find that i get a lot more peace and loving from ordinary
people and events - quite extra-odinary, the spiritual side of my life
has become rich with love and wisdom, Goddess looking after me, she will
look after you too and your little ones.
My Kundalinin energy has really started to kick in, lots of movement and
sensations.
The pain in your heart is probably opening up your heart chakra and
letting go of your pain.
You will have close relationships again, when you are ready - this goes
for me too.
i have been seperated from my ex now for almost 7 months now and am
feeling terrific, i hope this brings some consolation.
New doors open as others close....(and they are sooooo much better!)
Peace be with you..
love and light to you
love Caroline
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