To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/02/23 19:12
Subject: Re: [K-list] K fears
From: Leteegee
On 1999/02/23 19:12, Leteegee posted thus to the K-list:
In a message dated 2/23/99 9:02:36 AM Eastern Standard Time,
molecularbreezeATnospamsprynet.com writes:
< I also have a counseling appointment Friday. I really need some help in
learning why I choose to bond with mates who have such a powerful need to
utilize controlling behaviors and tactics.
Because you gave them your number??
Kidding aside, and not poo-pooing your need to understand this... but trying
to understand the ego and its tricks will get you nowhere IMO. Hey, you did
the best you could do at the time for what you knew. That's it. You made a
mistake -- you are aware of it now, which is wonderful! Give your mistake(s)
to the Holy Spirit/ Higher Self to use for His purposes, not yours... and
watch them bloom into something beautiful. To try and defend yourself
against doing this again would put your self in a defensive state...
In truth, you are not one to choose controlling mates. As you begin focusing
more on Self and keeping centered on who you REALLY are, you will find your
true Self will just be there -- no need to defend or give in to another's
control, or do anything you don't want to do.
You get to begin again every moment. You will get another chance to be more
of who you truly are. And if you make a mistake, no big deal. You will get
another if you need it. I think what you will find is that you will begin
recognizing these type men quicker and quicker, eliminating them completely
from your world eventually as you come to know and trust yourSelf more and
more. As you become more
IN-dependent, your co-dependency will just fade.
Think of yourself and everyone you meet as two rough gems, rubbing together.
And as gems are rubbed against each other, they get smoother and smoother.
So even if you do meet another jerk, it's ok -- I have faith that you are MUCH
smoother now than you were before, and will get rid of his butt too... and
very quickly before any harm is done.
I think you are doing great! You have already taken many first steps in the
right direction.
Love,
xxxtg
* If someone told me I'd be me one day, I would have studied harder *
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