To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/02/23 14:22
Subject: Re: [K-list] K fears
From: Gloria Greco
On 1999/02/23 14:22, Gloria Greco posted thus to the K-list:
Constance Ashworth wrote:
>
> Gloria wrote:
> This is why you bring the detachment into your
> daily life so that you can create that space and be able to witness
> yourself in whatever is coming down. In this you will be able to observe
> it and be able to pull out of situations instead of reacting.
>
> Dear Gloria and my other List Friends,
>
> This is a very useful concept to absorb...another tool to take care of
> myself, another affirmation that rings with truth for me, assisting in
> providing impetus for me to forge ahead with the "work" at hand. This is a
> difficult time for me, I feel quite vulnerable, as I am released from the
> attachment to this man, this relationship. So much of my functioning is
> screwed up, I feel as if each of my bodies are just kiltering in different
> directions at will,
>
> The List is invaluable in assisting me with focusing my thinking (my mental
> body), however. I am really using many things that I find as truth from
> this list to discipline my thinking. I also have a counseling appointment
> Friday. I really need some help in learning why I choose to bond with mates
> who have such a powerful need to utilize controlling behaviors and tactics.
Gloria:
You take a huge step when you recognize that you choose this type of
individual. Then you can begin to witness yourself so that you can see
what it is your attracted to. My daughter went through this and kept
being drawn to the abusive type, (high in testosterone) we had this talk
and all of that changed. She was attracted to the high energy passionate
type individual that really created that excitement, on the down side of
this type was the controlling and also violence when things didn't go
their way.
The individuals who are more balanced less agressive... don't create
those huge waves of up and down and are to the senses less dramatic,
less passionate and perhaps less exciting. But, looking for balance and
a developed heart/love she began to recognize the individuals character
and behavior. How he thought about women, showed respect, compassion and
how he acted out, loving and kind or agressive and angry. Does this ring
a bell for you?
The key is observing yourself so that you can see the attraction when
it comes in. And then looking at what is attractive, is it the sudden
lift from that energy? And the power behind it? The thrill of being
caught up in it which may seem like a huge adventure, if you can see
this, and you have been there just continue to stand back and observe
the cause and effect behavior of this energy. What goes up is going to
come down as well, while the individual with less hormones running will
not be nearly as dramatic, he will generally have less aggression, even
when he blows will normally see it and correct in a very short time. And
will have more ability to see and feel what he is doing and saying, due
to some growth along the way. Just something to reflect on.
The important thing is you are already aware of this coming in which
means you are in the growth mode to step out of the cycle, big step.
Gloria
>
> -----Original Message-----
> From: Gloria Greco <lodpressATnospamintercomm.com>
> To: Constance Ashworth <molecularbreezeATnospamsprynet.com>
> Cc: LeTeegeeATnospamaol.com <LeTeegeeATnospamaol.com>; frank.johnson3ATnospamworldnet.att.net
> <frank.johnson3ATnospamworldnet.att.net>; KundaliniATnospamList-Server.net
> <KundaliniATnospamList-Server.net>
> Date: Monday, February 22, 1999 11:08 PM
> Subject: Re: [K-list] K fears
>
> >Constance Ashworth wrote:
> >
> >Hi Constance,
> > I'm glad you were able to get some clarity with this. It is always
> >interesting to move through change. It brings up things that were
> >suppressed and others that are being set up for new areas of growth. As
> >you said, it seemed amazing that you didn't see the abuse while it was
> >coming down but sometimes the reactions are so strong that you can't
> >until you detach enough. This is why you bring the detachment into your
> >daily life so that you can create that space and be able to witness
> >yourself in whatever is coming down. In this you will be able to observe
> >it and be able to pull out of situations instead of reacting. Neat
> >realization! Gloria
> >>
> >> Dear Gloria,
> >>
> >> I have recently begun the process of starting anew, coming out of a
> 3-year
> >> relationship with someone who projected his many fears upon me. I can
> only
> >> now write about it in this manner now as this awareness was previously
> >> unavailable to me, which is why I stayed with it for so long. I was
> >> inclined to make many efforts limiting myself, to appease his unfounded
> >> jealously and his controlling behaviors of which translated into
> emotional
> >> and verbal abuse, though, again it now seems strange that I did not label
> >> things as such all along.
> >>
> >> I am applying myself towards NOT looking back and seek affirmations to
> use
> >> to focus myself, as this method, of using words, is very effective for
> me.
> >>
> >> You said,
> >> Surrender is a key.... surrender your thoughts, your feelings and
> >> perceptions
> >> >> about this process and your fears to God. Ask for reinterpretation,
> >> another
> >> >> way of looking at this, as you have interpreted them as fearful. What
> >> you
> >> >> don't give to God, goes to ego.
> >> AND
> >> ...that fear is the self-imposed block to the awareness of love's
> >> presence. When fear is released, love is revealed.
> >>
> >> I say:
> >>
> >> You words provided a clear glimpse of the simplicity of the situation I
> was
> >> in...his fears (of himself) rendered him incapable of (blinded him) to
> the
> >> intention which existed in me... my commitment and my acts of love which
> >> were there for him always. But enough of identifying with his drama. I
> >> don't want to look back.
> >>
> >> Recovery from this...surrender.
> >> Thanks for writing. See, Gloria, you never know how your sharing of your
> >> heart will serve another.
> >> Love,
> >> Connie
> >>
> >> -----Original Message-----
> >> From: Gloria Greco <lodpressATnospamintercomm.com>
> >> To: LeTeegeeATnospamaol.com <LeTeegeeATnospamaol.com>
> >> Cc: frank.johnson3ATnospamworldnet.att.net <frank.johnson3ATnospamworldnet.att.net>;
> >> KundaliniATnospamList-Server.net <KundaliniATnospamList-Server.net>
> >> Date: Sunday, February 21, 1999 3:04 PM
> >> Subject: Re: [K-list] K fears
> >>
> >> >LeTeegeeATnospamaol.com wrote:
> >> >>
> >> >> >
> >> >Gloria:
> >> >
> >> >This was sent to me today thought you might find some insight in it.
> >> >
> >> >
> >> > "The final lesson is about the true meaning of love. I have said
> >> >> before And yet the true
> >> >> experience of love is beyond anything you can now imagine. It is
> beyond
> >> >> the thought or the idea of love. It lies past all the images and
> >> >> symbols you have made to obscure love's call. And yet it is closer
> than
> >> >> you know, closer than your breath or even the silent whisper of love's
> >> >> longing for itself. And what is the secret that love has whispered
> into
> >> >> your half-closed ear, the distant echo that has haunted you so? Only
> >> >> this: You are the very essence of Love. This very monent, just as you
> >> >> are, in spite of all the preconceived ideas you have of yourself, love
> >> >> claims and accepts you.
> >> >>
> >> >> "You have forgotten who you are because in your fear of losing love
> >> >> you have witheld that which is your foundation. Love by its very
> nature
> >> >> is a gift that is freely given. And yet this gift is known only as it
> >> >> is given again. Only when love is breathed from one heart to another
> is
> >> >> it fully experienced. When love is witheld, it is forgotten, and
> >> >> because you and love were born together, you are forgotten with her.
> >> >> She lies hidden within you beside the still forgotten memory of your
> >> >> truest Self. Though asleep and dreaming, she awaits the dawn when her
> >> >> name is called and she is again brought back to life. And the
> awakening
> >> >> of love is your awakening as well, so intimately linked, all from
> giving
> >> >> freely that which you are: the full awareness of love's presence. But
> >> >> this awakening requires that you willingly give up all the ways you
> have
> >> >> tried to limit and contain her. You cannot guide love's path, but if
> >> >> you submit to love's truer vision she will guide you, showing you a
> new
> >> >> vision of yourself.
> >> >>
> >> >> "True, or unconditional, love is unaware of the strange demands you
> >> >> impose on your relationships. Love is the same for all. Your
> attempts
> >> >> to reserve love for specific relationships and then withold it from
> >> >> others is the very thing that has blocked your vision of love's
> >> >> presence. Give as love gives -- just as the sun who gives its light
> to
> >> >> all who ask, or the sparrow who sings not for the one who listens, but
> >> >> for the song itself. When you give love, love is your reward. When
> you
> >> >> judge some people as worthy of your giving and other people as
> >> >> undeserving, then it is you who is undeserving; not because you have
> >> >> been judged by love but because you have forgotten love's law.
> >> >>
> >> >> "You, in your essence, are the fountain of unconditional love. The
> >> >> water you give refreshes the whole universe, for you are not seperate
> >> >> from one part of the universe but intimately linked to all. Let your
> >> >> gift be free, then. Let it flow from you and wash over all those you
> >> >> see, all those who cross your path. Do not think that you cannot
> still
> >> >> have relationships that are more involved than others. Involvement
> has
> >> >> nothing to do with love. There will always be those in your life with
> >> >> whom you share the deeper pulse of your thoughts and those whom you do
> >> >> not. But the love you give is the same for each of them. It is but
> the
> >> >> recognition of the very same life of which you are continually reborn.
> >> >>
> >> >> "Love is a knowing; a pure understanding. It knows that all things
> >> >> are whole, regardless of their appearance of delusion, and it gives of
> >> >> itself wholly, without judgement, without recognizing the difference
> >> >> between this relationship and that. It understands that there is only
> >> >> one real relationship and it is the one we all share, the Self that is
> >> >> beyond the thought or the idea of Love, the holy encounter of life
> with
> >> >> life. The secret of unconditional love is that we are all the same,
> >> >> holy beyond imagination. This is what the release of fear reveals.
> >> >> This is what you are all looking for. And this is what you will find
> >> >> when you open your heart to every element of creation."
> >> >>
> >> >> We all sat there for a very long time without saying a word. The
> >> >> silence was overwhelming. I looked up at Teacher and thought I
> noticed
> >> >> a change. His face began to glow, I was sure of it. The Light
> radiated
> >> >> from him and all around him. Then it extended to include all of us.
> We
> >> >> were engulfed in the Light. I cannot describe what this was like
> >> >> because it was beyond anything the world can understand. Several of
> the
> >> >> women and attendants stood up from their chairs. One of them started
> >> >> jumping up in the air, and another began laughing out loud. Soon we
> >> >> were all laughing and dancing, moving with the energy and sharing the
> >> >> Light. I could no longer tell the difference between myself and the
> >> >> others. In that instant, I understood everything. I was Teacher. I
> >> >> was the Light. I swam in the ocean of sameness and knew I would never
> >> >> leave again.
> >> >>
> >
> >--
> >
> >Enter The Silence to Know God ... and... accept life as the teacher.
> >Gloria Joy Greco
> > e-mail me at : lodpressATnospamintercomm.com and visit our homepages at:
> >http://users.intercomm.com/larryn/
> >&
> >http://www.freeyellow.com/members/zg888/
> >Hope you enjoy them!
--
Enter The Silence to Know God ... and... accept life as the teacher.
Gloria Joy Greco
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