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Recieved: 1999/02/08 03:16
Subject: [K-list] [dream] ...more old stuff <typical long rant/vent/intr
From: Kathy Bates
On 1999/02/08 03:16, Kathy Bates posted thus to the K-list:
There is more cleansing and movement of old stuff and new energy taking place this week...last
night I dreamt that I was in a tacky motel with my best friend and her husband and a person
(whom I am not fond of at all) from work...
...We were getting ready to check out and I needed to use the toilet. I went in the bathroom and
suddenly the walls and floors started oozing brown foul-smelling sewage...I got out of the
bathroom and alerted the others that we needed to pick up our stuff and get it out of there as
soon as possible, because it would be fouled if we didn't hurry. We packed (I found I didn't
have enough room in my suitcases for all the things I'd brought with me)...and my best friend
(who in waking life is my new artistic endeavor partner) was watching me...I picked up some
socks and underwear that had fallen on the floor and got soiled, wanted my friend to give me a
plastic bag to put the soiled stuff in, and she told me just to leave it, let it alone, there
was no reason to try and save the old things.
The sewage was now oozing out of more of the walls around us, and getting near the beds...I
found it was also on the floors in the main rooms, when I knelt down to get something and it got
on my knees...
The person from work who I don't particularly like was running around like his usual
bull-in-a-chinashop way and getting nothing done fast...making it harder and muckier...and he
finally just disappeared.
I looked at the door and the room and shook my head and wondered why we had thought of this
motel as a good temporary home, it was so nasty (and becoming nastier by the second)
We were still packing like crazy to leave the motel when this dream faded.
In waking life this weekend I have been cleaning out my house, literally, and have also been in
a volatile mood related to money. My husband and I love each other and have been together for
nearly 20 years, and of course there are things that bug us about each other. One of these
things is the money issue. We are not poor, but we have had some debts (tax debts etc) that have
stressed us and constrained what we had planned to do (like remodeling our house, etc.)...anyway...
My husband takes care of our personal checking account and does so at my request... (I ,
actually me and my best friend, take care of our own business checking)...but recently I have
been feeling an "attitude" from him, that he thinks I am not responsible and don't appreciate
his efforts in keeping bread on the table. This has been under the surface for a long long time,
I think. He has been overlooking the fact that I give him my paycheck ever two weeks and that I
am a responsible "breadwinner" myself...and when he gets cash for us to spend during the week,
he almost always gives me a mini-lecture about how I must spend it wisely. Well, yesterday he
did this again and told me that the money would have to last two weeks, "so think about it."
I got really angry at this and let him know it. I told him that I didn't appreciate his "doling
out" my money as though it was a child's allowance and that it wouldn't be any big deal if it
weren't for his attitude. He did not see what he was saying to me as having an attitude, and
told me that he felt I didn't appreciate his efforts.
I told him this was really ironic, since he had just told me in his words that he didn't think I
was responsible. The funny thing was that we have had this sort of mini-argument several times
before, but this time I just expressed my anger and told him that I wanted HIS respect like he
was asking for mine...and when I finished "letting him have it" I told HIM to "think about it"
and left the room. For once, I did not come back in a couple minutes apologizing...I actually
left the room and he called to me to come back and "don't leave it like this." I said if he
wanted to talk to me he could come to me, I didn't want to talk to him right then...he didn't,
so I got my stuff and went to the store as I had planned.
I noticed that when I drove to the store my stomach was warm, not upset, but warm...and my
throat chakra felt open...not knotted up as it is lots of times when I can't say what I feel...
When I got back, I felt unsettled and grumpy (I think this is the "old shit" from the dream
moving and coming out and making me uncomfortable...) and was pretty bitchy for the rest of the
evening...but I felt much better.
The dream then "brought out the shit" I guess...I had the characteristic K-fire night sweats and
more vivid dreams (but remember only the sewage one) and I'm not so unsettled this morning.
I can feel the heat in my spine and back today and the stomach "knot" is gone.
My best friend is, I think, beginning to have K-activity of her own...recently she had a left
knee problem for no physical reason, which went away...and has been having the night sweats as
well...I told her what I thought it might be, and she has also been down the checking for
physical problems road (no perimenopause, no blood sugar level problems or thyroid problems, no
tb, ALS, etc. etc.)...so it's happening...now that we are on the same wavelength and working
creatively on something we both love...
Just sharing---
Blessings--Kath
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