To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/01/28 12:35
Subject: Re: [K-list] Consideration And Tolerance Heals You
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 1999/01/28 12:35, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 02:47 PM 27/01/99 -0500, Cathy Berger wrote:
>>>>
I was waiting to see how long before poor Raymond got blasted. But don't
worry, at this rate we won't have much traffic left before long. Oh, and
why not criticize (ahem..) CORRECT Raymond privately rather than
embarrassing him before the entire list.
<<<<
O Cathy.. blaming the lack of traffic on the critical? If that were so,
the list would have died from Mr. Putz, as he intended.
I have corrected Raymond privately, many times. He is a very sweet guy,
and correcting people for not being considerate of list guidelines gets
boring, dull, repetitive.. I am very appreciative when another moves to
speak her mind in my place.
The quiet on the list is just the sine wave of the Fire Serpent. In Dec.
at this time the list was hyper driven by Solstice energies, and
overflowing it's banks with a torrent. Now we are sliding down the lee side
of that wave, the energy has gone internal, contemplative as folks absorb
and integrate what was brought up by the peaking wave. The result is an ebb
tide on the K-list.
By Valentine's day it will be back to "normal", whatever that is..;)
I approved of Raymond posting interesting URLs in the slack, he found
some good ones.. tho I agree they might have been sent more efficiently on
a single post.. however the virus warning, and the 25k forwarded message
from Glastonbury was over the top.. in my opinion.
I am using the quiet time to update my website, and after that, probably
more work on the K-list one..
I updated my links page last night.. added to it, now it is twice the
size.. some very interesting links.. but it is presently unordered, so the
SM links and the Spiritual links are all mixed up together.. Adults only,
please!
The new additions are below the "Bookmarks" heading.
I think you can probably tell from the titles, which is which.. enjoy! My
apologies if you end up where you don't wanna be.. but that is the nature
of web-surfing. Consider the experience a way to learn new levels of
compassion and tolerance. ;)
http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent/kink.htm
In other thoughts on consideration and tolerance.. ya know, enlightenment
can really interfere with professional bitchiness, and effective
listMistressing.
Sigh. I used to be so good at flaming people, makin' 'em behave.. and now
my heart's just not in it. I try to go there, find the edges where they
used to be, but I cannot sustain it.. I get pulled irresistibly back to
center.
I guess I'll put a consideration and tolerance divider here.. in service
to the expressed limitations of the intolerant. ;)
Below, I am expressing some thoughts on my personal life experiences
which may be offensive to some readers.. thus I offer an opportunity to use
the delete key before reading further..
Onwards..
The other day I was supposed to be roleplaying one of those mean cranky
spinster Governess'.. and it just wasn't working. I had to keep my client
face down so he couldn't see the huge grin that refused to leave my face.
The harder I tried to pretend to be angry, the more I wanted to ROTFLMAO. I
try to take on a role, and Laughing Kriya kicks it out again.. I used to be
a pretty talented actress.. but my K. ate it..
Uh oh now what? LOL!!!
Can't even worry, anymore..
Checking my links last night, and following some links from that.. I
visited a number of sites belonging to other Pro-Doms.. and their extreme
attitudes made me LOL with pleasure at how happy their slaves must be.. and
they gave me a lot of tips on how I could make my own site a more effective
advertisement in the mainstream fetish world.. which kriya ate as a silly
idea before I was even finished the links page.
It was pretty weird, looking at those other fem-dom websites.. if that is
what a Domina is supposed to be, then I guess I'm not one.. ya know? The
shoe doesn't fit anymore.
Labels. Sigh.
Some of My slave/students are asking me if I'm sure I'm still into SM,
coz I hardly ever scold or punish them, anymore.. coz I have become so
tolerant.. and they really miss it. Awwww.. sorry..
So, I am reminding myself to Be that, in compassion for their needs..
sometimes it is great fun, other times, it seems unreal.. the only time it
seems "real" is when I am mirroring their karmic issues.. and still there
is no thought involved, it just happens, and I return to balance quickly.
My sex drive is mostly changed to what I'd call "smoldering celibacy"..
that is, left to itself it is a fire down below that burns steadily,
sending all of it's heat up the channels in bliss of Divine Union.. the
sacred marriage within. Redirecting it outwards to physical expression with
"other" takes conscious effort. Yet, at the same time, those around me tell
me my energy feels so sexual it drives them bananas with lust.
I used to advertise myself as "Temptation Incarnate". The joke being,
that since my services are non-sexual, "Satisfaction" in the way the
Rolling Stones described it, would not be happening. At least, not with my
clients.. now, the title is even more apt. Huge sexual energy radiating
from a being that has become nearly celibate .. bizarro.
I seem to go back and forth between unbridled enthusiasm, for everything,
and detachment wondering what's the point of all these illusions.. I have
noticed this orbit in myself. Probably equal parts K-fire sine wave and ADD
cycle.
It is happening with my email stuff, too.. periods of silence.. and I
have seen it in myself enough times to know it's transient, and as normal
as normal gets... all things considered.
It seems to be good for me to occasionally stop, and give everything up
to Goddess, be still and giddy with laughing kriyas... and see what comes
back. Particularly when I am feeling like I am trying to do too many things
at once and getting nowhere... which is usually producing crankiness.
Trying wanting to do stuff and getting interruptions and distractions and
confusion.. dis-satisfaction with what Is.
Life is what happens when we are busy making other plans, eh? So I give
up all the plans and see what Life presents me with. Love it and let it go,
in my mind.. It re-sorts my priorities and clears my head.
Sometimes I get so distracted, I just need to stop everything, set at all
aside and ask myself again.. what is my bliss? Who am I, and what do I
want and where and I going and why and what for? Give all the answers up to
Goddess with laughing kriyas in order to come back to here and now
refreshed. Nothing to do, no where to go.. perfection.. Then I sleep.. and
awakening brings me back to center... more fully alive.
What usually seems to happen after the clearing, is I come back to new
enthusiasm with "dealing with what's in front of me".. in the moment here
and now.. what Is:
In Wicca there is a ritual called "drawing down the Moon".. in it, the
High Priest draws the Moon Goddess down into the High Priestess.. so She
may be the Goddess Manifest. That ritual echoes the essence of all the
Magic of SM Tantra that I do... and it is why I am here.. to be the Vessel.
That is my bliss.
Blessings..
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