To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/01/20 17:40
Subject: Re: [K-list] Possible abuse in my past - how do I deal with thi
From: Leteegee

In a message dated 1/20/99 10:55:14 AM Eastern Standard Time, ljonesATnospamzlink.net
writes:

<< Last week I found web sites about ritual abuse and mind programming and
 triggers (I have asked my higher self to lead me to what I need to resolve
 the unsettled issues in my mind)- actually I am afraid that this overall
 framework makes the most sense and allows me to fit the most pieces of the
 puzzle together - this is very scary to me - I have enough memories to
 know that I probably have disassociated in the past - I suppose I need to
 find a good therapist who deals with this sort of thing - unfortunately I
 can not afford that at this time.

Hi Llewellyn...

I read your letter with great interest. What I say may upset you, but please
hear me out. I am not poo-pooing your memory of abuse... but your Subject
Line: "Possible abuse in my past" keeps bringing me to write this. You say
'possible'. Apparently you have no 'real' memory of it... just bits and
pieces coming to you while your Kundalini is active (and quite active from
what you said).

This, too, occurred with me while my K was active -- these memories of
ritualistic abuse, incestual rape, etc. They blew my mind! The thing is, I
have *real* memories of prior to when I was two years old. My parents and
family have always been loving and supportive to me my whole life.

When I finally got a piece of sanity to *be willing* to really look at this
without the fear, I could see none of it was true. It was the ego playing
tricks on me, and I grasped on to it and ran with it.

And your case may be completely different... BUT I do encourage you to please
open your mind that your mind may be playing tricks with you too. I know it
seems real, but there is also a real possibility that none of it is.

I feel that when our K is quite active, many past lives come into view, and we
get them confused with this life. This is a possibility I do hope you will
open your mind to.

Focus on the love instead of fear, so that the Truth can come to you. While
you are in fear, and I assure you that you are in fear from what I read in
your post, you cannot believe a thing you are perceiving. Gloria's post to
you was exellent and gave you some great advice to follow. (unless of course
you want to stay in fear)

I do wish you well and send you much love. Please let us know if we can be of
any help to you.

Love,
xxxtg

* Worry is an abuse of God's gift of imagination *

DISCLAIMER!

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