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Recieved: 1999/01/06 23:16
Subject: Re: [K-list] Kundalini vs Homosexuality
From: Wim Borsboom
On 1999/01/06 23:16, Wim Borsboom posted thus to the K-list:
At 09:47 PM 1/6/99 EST, you wrote:
>I would like to know the vies, and belief of kundi's, and there vies on
>homosexuality and K. What is the view of Kundalini and Homosexuality?
Beliefs,
>contrast, effects, and so on, with K Vs Homosexuality.
>Kristin
>
Dear Kirstin
I went through quite strong homosexual tendencies and experiences with
mostly young adults, before Kundalini struck, so to speak. It developed
even to the point where I could have been a menace to young boys. Thank God
I was able to be totally respectful to that young purity, but the urges
were tremendous.
I was, and am married (30 years now) and have a son (21). We live together
in truthfulness, harmony and love and an absolute intention to be open and
frank with each other. My wife always knew about my homesexuality, she did
not think I was bisexual. The two of us had, and still have little need for
the mechanics of sex, but the essence of our sexual togetherness, the
unification of our masculinity and femininty, (Plato's twin souls?) has
never been purer.
Whatever, love deeply, intensively, loooongly...
What I write may not be pertinent to you or the people you are gathering
these views for, as in my case pedofile tendencies were also involved. I
was "molested" and "abused" when I was very young.
Good thing was, that when it occurred I would, as I know now, enter a
different state of reality, which was, as it appeared beneficial to the
perpetrators and.... beneficial to me...
I would not have known then how to react to the "assaults" otherwise, in
order to secure my survival.
In fact I now know that my creation of "lost time" was what procured my
survival. I had "lapses" and was always somewhat bewildered when I came
home after school or church, or visiting relatives.
Please, do not draw too strong conclusions from my experiences for your own
personal life, (if indeed this was a personal question) or others ppl.'s
lives.
However my experiences and my way of dealing with them, may at least
clarify some aspects of homosexuality and what to expect when, (if you want
to, because there is no obligation) you let Kundalini's cleaning, healing,
and reintegrating power unhindered flow through you.
I find nothing wrong with anything that involves love, whichever kind of
expression we may give it. Relationship in Love is Relationship in Love,
There are no positive or negative qualities to loving relationships.
Functionality is what counts.
The kundalini process for me, *it may not be so for others, if it is not
needed*, made me remember very early childhood molestations (before I was
four, even two repressed memories of incidents when I was six years old).
As I write this, more details pop into memory.
I have totally forgiven. I still call them "my perpetrators or tormentors,"
but there is no negative charge behind those words. Of course whatever
happened cannot be condoned, (in honesty, that last remark really make no
sense), whatever, through it I learned compassion and gratitude.
I know now (from my own experiences when I could have been the perpetrator
myself), that I was myself that pure young love that my perpetrators were
looking for. The same purity, that I was later trying to find, in adult
homosexual relationships as well as in being with young children. Trying to
find a connection again with my own lost purity, that puruty I saw
personified in young children and young adults.
Wow, was that too complex a sentence? Let me read it again. I added some
periods and commas. Should be better now.
Kundalini's regressive therapy allowed me to recover my memeories, face my
perpetrators, identify their agony of their lost purity once in *thei *
lives.
During the K. reintegration process, one of these ppl., a catholic pastor,
who was deemed to be almost a saint when he died, appeared when I was
relating freshly recovered and vivid memories to my wife and son. It wasn't
really very tasteful at times.
Oh good wife of mine, Emmy, what she had to endure when I went through all
these recoveries. At no point I even thought about whether she could handle
all my misery.
Oh good son of mine, Emanuel, who throughout this period was such a sponge
of acceptance and assurance of trust in myself and the K. process.
As I was relating, he (the pastor) was there, hovering, slightly up, in the
front right of me, a darkish quality about him, but... waiting to receive
light, waiting to be released by me. As I noticed him I gave him a final
hug and push almost so to speak, and he popped away, on towards his
enlightenment...I'm sure he is a saint now. He must have carried a terible
history of personal loss of purity as well, and his perpetrators...
The K. process let me fully recover, it still carries on I'm sure, this
writing being part of it .
Thanks for your question Kristin.
Now all the auto, homo and even hetero sexual tendencies have been cleaned
from their qualities. Anything is Love.
All the human functionality in its purity is there. There is a naive almost
readiness for everything, and no need for anything at all.
Wim
This will help?
Love.
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