1998/07/24 13:39
kundalini-l-d Digest V98 #532
kundalini-l-d Digest Volume 98 : Issue 532
Today's Topics:
AutoPost from Kundalini Resource Cen [ Linda Young <principiisATnospamaol.com> ]
AutoPost from Kundalini Resource Cen [ Linda Young <principiisATnospamaol.com> ]
AutoPost from Kundalini Resource Cen [ Linda Young <principiisATnospamaol.com> ]
Re: letting go [ "Jose Arroyo" <jm_arroyoATnospamhotmail.co ]
The Seeds of Self-Delight [ Harsha1MTMATnospamaol.com ]
Re: Planting a Seed [ "Wonderer" <mrtn74aATnospamprodigy.com> ]
Kundalini Awakening [ cosmic energy <sciATnospamnde.vsnl.net.in> ]
Re: Planting a Seed [ nancy <nancyATnospamwtp.net> ]
Speechless [ "Wonderer" <mrtn74aATnospamprodigy.com> ]
Re: The Seeds of Self-Delight [ AfperryATnospamaol.com ]
Re: The Seeds of Self-Delight [ Harsha1MTMATnospamaol.com ]
Re: AutoPost from Kundalini Resource [ "Dan Margolis" <dmargolisATnospamabm.com> ]
As Promised [ "Kat" <KCliffordATnospamodyssey.on.ca> ]
Re: Something that maybe of interest [ "janpa tsomo" <j_tsomoATnospamhotmail.com> ]
re hi [ "janpa tsomo" <j_tsomoATnospamhotmail.com> ]
Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1998 02:24:37 -1000 (HST)
From: Linda Young <principiisATnospamaol.com>
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: AutoPost from Kundalini Resource Center
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I believe thru concentrated meditation and prayer, my kundaline has risen. Firey back, followed by back pain and headaches. I am receiving voices which are giving me information and "views", microphone feedback, etc.. Not sure of the credibility or if just contacting subconscious. Receiving from Master Teachers, Indian Guides, Spirit Guides and Exterterestrials. Getting a little concerned.
Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1998 02:27:02 -1000 (HST)
From: Linda Young <principiisATnospamaol.com>
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: AutoPost from Kundalini Resource Center
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I believe thru concentrated meditation and prayer, my kundaline has risen. Firey back, followed by back pain and headaches. I am receiving voices which are giving me information and "views", microphone feedback, etc.. Not sure of the credibility or if just contacting subconscious. Receiving from Master Teachers, Indian Guides, Spirit Guides and Exterterestrials. Getting a little concerned.
Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1998 02:27:36 -1000 (HST)
From: Linda Young <principiisATnospamaol.com>
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: AutoPost from Kundalini Resource Center
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I believe thru concentrated meditation and prayer, my kundaline has risen. Firey back, followed by back pain and headaches. I am receiving voices which are giving me information and "views", microphone feedback, etc.. Not sure of the credibility or if just contacting subconscious. Receiving from Master Teachers, Indian Guides, Spirit Guides and Exterterestrials. Getting a little concerned.
Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1998 05:55:26 PDT
From: "Jose Arroyo" <jm_arroyoATnospamhotmail.com>
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: letting go
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>Hello.
>
>For any of you who have not visited my website, there was an accident
>some 11 years ago, when I was about 12 years old. I lost the two
>closest friends I ever had when the makeshift arrow left my bow and
>pierced his eye. I've been in termoil eversince.
>
You might be living that moment of 12 years ago constantly now.
It does not let you go. Better said, you don't let go...
Live the moment now for there is nothing one can do of something of the
past...
>It has been coming to light recently that I am in great emotional
>pain. It's funny how you can be inside something and not realise it.
Unconsciously maybe ...
Sometimes there is no way of understandiong a situation unless when
changing ones own level of consciousness. (Being full conscious of ones
own life...)
>With the help of a few people I have realised that it was just plain
>bad luck. I had no motive to injure anybody it was just harmless fun
Did you intentionally do what you did? Was it planned in advance?
How many times we hurt others without the intention to hurt?
The constant feeling of guilt does not let you advance. You can not undo
what is done but you can choose (now) to step out of whatever negative
feeling or way of life you may be experiencing.
<snip>
>I hope you can forgive me for talking about myself again. <newborn
>smile>
Paul I think it is so much easier to talk about oneself then about
others. :-) How can you talk about others if you do not know them (as
good as yourself). Sometimes when we are in pain (for whatever reason)
we need an ear to talk to. (Mine was just listening to you :-) )
Some people may have the patience to listen while others may have not.
The impatience of some is not your problem dear Paul but theirs...
Forgive yourself (if there is something to forgive in the first place)
Love yourself. Truely Love yourself for you'll Love others.
>
>--
>Paul.
>
>IRC: #amiga, Dalnet: #blitz
>WWW: http://www.stationone.demon.co.uk
>E-M: paulATnospamstationone.demon.co.uk
>
>
Love and Joy,
Jose
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Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1998 09:00:34 EDT
From: Harsha1MTMATnospamaol.com
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: The Seeds of Self-Delight
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Harsha: Three Gems from the classics (from the Collected works of Ramana
Maharshi).
Atma Bodha (Verse 34): I am free from qualities and actionless, eternal,
undifferentiated, untainted, unchanging, formless, ever free and pure.
>From Vivekachudamani: "My beloved disciple, this Self can neither be held or
given up. It is beyond perception and utterance. It is immeasurable without
beginning or end."
>From Drik Drisya Viveka: By these (the six type of Samadhis), the attachment
to the body ends and the mind that perpetually abides in the Supreme Self
wherever it may wander is spontaneously in Samadhi.
Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1998 09:58:10 -0400
From: "Wonderer" <mrtn74aATnospamprodigy.com>
To: "Mystress Angelique Serpent" <serpentATnospamdomin8rex.com>
Cc: "kundalini-1" <kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com>
Subject: Re: Planting a Seed
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Dear Mystress,
Thank you for being there and understanding where I am at. I feel
less alone seeing that someone actually knows what I am talking
about.
You wrote:
> Dissecting frogs again, eh, Darlin?
This is how I feel when "listening" to the entity/higher self who
teaches me cause and effect, like I'm in some sort of class and I'm
not so good a student. I don't know what he is talking about. He is
ready to give another lesson on probability. He appears like the
face of a black man with a short pointed beard. Have you seen him?
It seems like different entities, all my higher self, speak to me -
when I am fortunate enough to make this type of contact. They handle
different aspects, or needs I may have.
>
> Magick, yes, exactly so. Yogis tend not to mess with
probability as much. I thought one of the other witches on the list
would come forth to explain it..
Thank you for this, and all the other information you gave me.
Lately, I have been doing something similar, using a ruby ring as a
mental focal point, or pipeline to God, and I find it works on all
minor requests, but the big ones don't happen. You have just
explained why. I usually add, "if it be thy will", but I will amend
that to be more careful. Thank you! We will see if I get a "mood
ring" soon, now that I have tried your suggestion. My ring/prayer
cleared up the rain toot sweet when we drove to the Yankee game a few
nights ago. I don't think I have ever seen such a beautiful evening
sky; it was my favorite color blue/aqua.
>
> So Cathy, did you tell your Mother in Law 666 stories coz you
wanted to intimidate? Scare or impress her? What seeds do you sow, in
spreading fear of a number?
> Blessings, Mystress.
>
I don't really know. I was much younger, and I have rooted out much
of my mischievous instincts over time. They still surface,
occasionally. She was real mad at the cashier for making me buy
something else, and demanded an explanation. I was ticked at her for
giving her son the 666 name, because it unnerved me when I had to
consider marrying yet another 666! The last 666 was a drunk and put
me though hell. So, it came out. She reacted in a way I did not
expect, because I thought Jewish people could care less about
Christian myths. She is a nice mother-in-law, and I didn't want to
hurt her.
One question, do you know what 666 means in pagan circles? I get the
feeling it is equated with something positive.
Thanks again for taking your time to set me straight.
Cathy
Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1998 19:05:40 +0500
From: cosmic energy <sciATnospamnde.vsnl.net.in>
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Kundalini Awakening
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Resected Mr. Richard:
I have just gone through your "archive retrieval:info. I have subscribed
to several web-sites, but did not find such fine letter. Is the fine
language - a miracle of Kundalini awakening? Your aura is an uniform 5
inches with a balanced amygdala, right from the age of 16 .Will it be
right for me to seek possible information about you !
If it is right,my views, as given below, may please be circulated among the
listed friends.
With profound regards,
Gyani
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Friends:
I am new to this very interesting site where friends are discussing their
experiences, perhaps after Kundalni Jagran(awakening). I respectfully
submit the following for your correction/reaction :
If a person deeply involved in worldly relations and materialistic
enjoyment, attempts to get his/her Kundalni awakened by artificial methods
like "Shaktipath", before cleansing the physical body, to shed the negative
energy & increase the AURA (which can be sensed or seen), one suffers in
different ways and later seeks solution to his problems which erupt in the
form of pains, diseases etc. Kundalni awakening is a bliss which empowers
one with amazing quality, if done at a right time or else it can create a
havoc in our lives - as sensed from the letters being exchanged through
the wonderful pages of this site.
II. Meanwhile also please let me know your reaction to the following .
Is it possible !!??
- ----------------------------
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[A COMPLETE AND EXCLUSIVELY DISTANCE METHOD OF HEALING]
(This is merely an information, not an advertisement)
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II. Available medical diagnostic details.
III. Visual symptoms as seen/felt by the patient (in which development may
be seen during the therapy sessions).
IV. (a). For our prompt action, use - E-mail or bring the photograph
personally.
(b). Letter through post/courier must be accompanied by a
self-addressed stamped envelope.
2. ON RECEIVING THE PHOTOGRAPH -
We scan the aura and to be fully sure, use dowsing/pendulum method to find
out:
I. Can we heal the patient?
II. Does he deserve healing?
III. Will he be ready to change the lifestyle, which caused the disease?
IV. On prior intimation of the date and time, we send the Cosmic Energy
Beam for THREE DAYS at 9 PM (Indian Standard Time), so that he may feel the
effect in his body, consciously.
V. Based on the effect of the Energy for THREE DAYS, if the patient
requests us to continue healing, then again with the help of 'DOWSING
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we continue healing.
VI. The amount, or its equivalent in kind or service is payable to us or
any of our suggested philanthropist/ institution, 'IN ADVANCE' .
VII. If one intends to make payment during or at the end of therapy, he is
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payee cheque.
VIII.If one declares that he has no movable /immovable property, no job, no
one to support, then we heal the person free of any charge but in such
case ,he must be prepared to serve the cause, at his place/country itself,
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is not able to pay in cash.
3. Duration of this therapy depends upon the age, multiplicity of the
problems and 'MENTAL ATTITUDE' of the patient - however normally three
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4. Cosmic Energy Beam reaches the patient within a fraction of second, '
time and space' being immaterial. The principle being -'Energy follows
thought'.
5. Pain and suffering are consequences of our past & present Karma. As
such we do not convince / persuade a patient to come to us, DESTINY SHOWS
THE PATH.
6. Since all dis- eases manifest as an imbalance of positive and negative
energy, our experience suggests that almost all dis-eases have an answer in
Cosmic Beam. Researchers are welcome to study the CHRONIC / ACUTE &
INCURABLE diseases, healed by the Beam.
7. Before contacting us, intellectuals may prefer to read about aura,
chakra, clairvoyance, Kirlian camera, energy blocks, vibration, negativity,
power of thought, karma, universal consciousness and many such basic
things, now known world-wide.
8. Wider application of Cosmic Beam, as being experimented by the 'SADHAK'
,will be updated regularly, on our web page.
9. Cosmic Beam therapy is different from Reiki & the likes. Reiki is an
attunement process of few minutes, whereas in Cosmic Beam - one is expected
to minimize the worldly activities, so as to develop a minimum of 6" aura,
to learn the techniques of handling Cosmic Beam. For this, one will have to
be with the SADHAK (the practitioner) for 4 years.
10. Since the healing waves are in accordance with the healer's thought,
ANY WRONG SIGNAL received by him may undo the healing. So the principle of
one-mind-one-thought (think, say & do the same thing) has to be adhered to.
Society for Creative Intelligence
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Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1998 08:14:47 -0600
From: nancy <nancyATnospamwtp.net>
To: Mystress Angelique Serpent <serpentATnospamdomin8rex.com>,
kundalini-1 <kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com>
Subject: Re: Planting a Seed
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Mystress Angelique Serpent wrote:
> So creative visualization, prayer, spell casting, is asking Goddess to
> pull probability in your favor, to draw the things you want into your life.
I know this is true. I've done this my entire life. Everything I have ever held
in my mind has been made manifest on the physical plane.
But here's the thing...I keep on drawing things, people and events in my life
that result in discontent. I have the sense that I can change this in an instant
because of something that happened last night.
I had a ganglion, which is a bump resulting from fluid trapped underneath a
tendon. It was rather hard and large--about 1/4 inch. It had shrunk to half that
size. A nurse I know had told me to whack it with a book and it would go away. I
told her I was afraid it would hurt. She assured me it wouldn't.
I left the bump alone for three days. Then last night I snacked it--twice with a
book. The bump was gone. Healed in an instant.
I am ready to do that with the other bumps in my life, yet I'm not sure how I
whack those to get that trapped fluid out.
> You cannot forsee all of the ripples that will spread out in the
> hologram from your act. You would not want your manifestation spell to
> come from another's loss, or for it to turn out to be a "Trojan gift
> horse". But, Goddess can see the big picture. So can your Angels.
Sometimes I feel like my angels are just amused at the whole process. "Here she
goes again, asking for this when she should have been asking for that. Won't she
ever learn? Oh well!"
> So it is very important to add what I have lately been thinking of as a
> "Free Will disclaimer", on these acts of applied free will.
> The element of surrender to the higher good. None of that in the last
> lifetime, eh? Your higher self said "bad idea", you said "do it anyways".
I don't think I have been saying "do it anyways." I think I have been saying,
"No, this is not a good idea." But the desire still remains.
In one case, I know that my desire will be fulfilled. I have no doubt. Yet, I
don't like waiting for things to unfold. I want it now. But I know having it now
will produce pain for all involved. So I fight to keep myself in check. The
longing doesn't go away, it just gets transmuted into anger, lashing out, etc.
> ALWAYS add: "or something even better, for the good of all and harm to
> none, as Goddess wills." onto the end of any prayer, spell, visualization
> or request that you do.
> Thus, you are giving consent to have your vision altered and improved as
> Goddess sees fit. So, you don't haveta worry about that "be careful what
> you pray for" stuff. Goddess has it handled. She will switch the bad seeds,
> (like you planted last lifetime without the disclaimer) for good ones that
> will not bear the fruits of Regret.
> If you ask Her to, and make it always a part of your intent.
That's fine to say, but I've found difficult to do. Even if I say those words, my
emotion rests in my desire.
I believe that's another part. It's not just what's on your mind, it's what you
feel. We can say that we want to remain in a relationship with someone. Yet if
our feelings show that we have doubts and feel unhappy, we are sending mixed
messages. I think that's what I do all the time. I want what I want but know that
maybe I should temper my selfish desires with others' needs and wants. Yet the
feeling remains. Mixed messages results in discontent.
Anyone have something to whack this bump with?
Nancy
Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1998 10:48:58 -0400
From: "Wonderer" <mrtn74aATnospamprodigy.com>
To: "Paul West" <paulATnospamstationone.demon.co.uk>
Cc: "kundalini-1" <kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com>
Subject: Speechless
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Hi Paul,
I was very moved by your post; I did not know the painful story of
your youth. Mystress is right, I see the entire event as one which
was agreed to by all participants on the inner plane. Perhaps a
higher view is to realize wholeheartedly that this life is just a
dream; it is all nothing and nothing to feel such sorrow for. In The
Prophet, Kahlil Gibran describes joy and sorrow: "The deeper that
sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain"..."Only
when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced." On talking,
I give you with these words from the Prophet: "You talk when you
cease to be at peace with your thoughts; And when you can no longer
dwell in the solitude of your heart you live in your lips, and sound
is a diversion and a pastime. And in much of your talking, thinking
is half murdered. For thought is a bird of space, that in a cage of
words may indeed unfold its wings but cannot fly."
I visited you on the inner plane last night Paul, to comfort you, and
personally deliver my compassion. I am glad you are healing.
Love,
Cathy
Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1998 11:21:01 EDT
From: AfperryATnospamaol.com
To: Harsha1MTMATnospamaol.com
Cc: Kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: The Seeds of Self-Delight
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Dear Harsha,
Yes, three classics indeed. Last night, I was reading to my group from the
Avadhuta Gita and your quotes each reminded me strongly of that.
But not everyone responds to such focused non-dualism. Sri Ramakrishna used to
say that the 'nitya' and the 'lila' are both real because they are both God.
There is only God, so what else can they be? Brahman and Shakti are one, like
fire and its power to burn or milk and its whiteness. For me this is the best
approach while everyday awareness of duality remains. I believe that even
Shankaracharya came to accept this, hence his authorship of 'Saundarya Lahari'
and other devotional works which extol the Divine Mother and the pragmatic
dualism of bhakti yoga.
God bless,
Alan
Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1998 12:09:18 EDT
From: Harsha1MTMATnospamaol.com
To: AfperryATnospamaol.com
Cc: Kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: The Seeds of Self-Delight
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In a message dated 7/24/1998 8:21:01 AM Pacific Daylight Time, Afperry writes:
<< Dear Harsha,
Yes, three classics indeed. Last night, I was reading to my group from the
Avadhuta Gita and your quotes each reminded me strongly of that.
But not everyone responds to such focused non-dualism. Sri Ramakrishna used
to say that the 'nitya' and the 'lila' are both real because they are both
God. There is only God, so what else can they be? Brahman and Shakti are one,
like fire and its power to burn or milk and its whiteness.
Harsha: Yes. Beautiful. See verse 13 of the classic work "Devikalottara",
"The consciousness associated with the aspect "AM" is called Shakti....." (The
Collected works of Ramana Maharshi, page 187.)
Alan: For me this is the best approach while everyday awareness of duality
remains. I believe that even Shankaracharya came to accept this, hence his
authorship of 'Saundarya Lahari' and other devotional works which extol the
Divine Mother and the pragmatic dualism of bhakti yoga.
God bless,
Alan >>
Harsh: Thanks Alan. Agreed. A Knower of the Self is by nature also a true
devotee. There is no contradiction between Loving God and Being Love. In the
great Shakti scripture, "Tripura Rahasya" when the Mother Divine (Supreme
Goddess) makes her appearance (Chapter 20), She states (verses 100-101), "All
spiritual practices have only one goal, and that is to attain Me. One who
with a pure heart and mind devotes himself to Me crosses all
boundaries..........She continues and states (verse 113), "There is no siddhi
superior to Self-Realization. By this siddhi alone man transcends all sorrows
and attains perennial bliss.
God bless everyone - Harsha
Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1998 10:48:29 -0700
From: "Dan Margolis" <dmargolisATnospamabm.com>
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: AutoPost from Kundalini Resource Center
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Dan MargolisATnospamABM
07/24/98 10:48 AM
Linda Young wrote:
> I believe thru concentrated meditation and prayer, my kundaline has
risen. Firey back,
> followed by back pain and headaches.
The back pain and headaches may be caused by tension and/or blockages. You
may want to try seeing a massage therapist, or do whatever stress release
exercises you do(yoga, stretching etc...).
>I am receiving voices which are giving me
> information and "views", microphone feedback, etc.. Not sure of the
credibility or if
> just contacting subconscious. Receiving from Master Teachers, Indian
Guides, Spirit
> Guides and Exterterestrials. Getting a little concerned.
I wouldn't worry too much about the voices in your head... An old saying:
"A voice whispered in the night, there is no such thing as voices
whispering in the night."
A good chance is that you are just receiving information from your 'inner'
voice, but since you aren't familiar with it yet, it is trying to speak to
you in forms that you would listen too. If available I would suggest
talking to your spiritual teacher.
Dan M.
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Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1998 16:09:44 -0400
From: "Kat" <KCliffordATnospamodyssey.on.ca>
To: <kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com>
Subject: As Promised
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Hi All,
As promised this will be the message about what I think is my Kundalini
experience.
Over a year ago I was admitted into a hospital over night because of a
headache & a burning feeling that was unbearable. They of course could
find no reason for it and drugged me up for the night. The next day I felt
tired but I was okay and they let me go.
It was shortly after this that I returned to the arts. I had drawn most of
my life but had never done anything serious about it. Soon after I started
to paint, my thrist for knowledge on religion began to become very strong.
I began meditation and learning about crystals. It was around this time
that I started to have a great deal of headaches and the doctor had two
different cat scans done on me. In both cases I had very strong reactions
to the dye that they use. I was told the first time that this rarely
happens but that if they needed to do it again that they would use the more
expensive stuff. I was told no one reacts to this expensive stuff. Wrong!
I did. and it was an awful experience. My body has never worked well
with anything that is not natural. Anyways....I learnt about the Internet
and began to do further research into Religions and so on. It was through
this research that I became increasing unhappy with life. Nothing seemed
real to me any more. Everything I had been taught was turning out to be
lies. It was then that I found a group of people that helped me spiritially
quite a bit. So far so good.......then I made the mistake of playing with
me root chakra incorrectly. Over the next many months all hell broke
loose. I began to hear the spirit world. Pressure feelings started to make
me very uncomfortable where the third eye is suppose to be. Past lives
started to be remembered. I began to also have waking visions of things that
would come to pass. At the same time I lost interest in my marriage.....22
yrs! and I left my husband and moved to CA to be with someone I thought was
my Soulmate.
It was while I was staying in his home that things really went strange.
Suddenly I was loosing track of time and could not remember what I did
within that time. I began to feel cold a lot of the time. He saw me in
very strange positions in my sleep and my dreams were starting to go very
strange as well. He also told me that I send out vibrations that make it
impossible for him to sleep. I started to loose sleep for fear of what my
dreams would tell me. I should mention that I have always had an ability to
see into the future to some degree through a dream but usually it is not
good news that I am getting and I cannot stop what ever it is that is going
to be happening and that annoys me. Why be given a gift like this and not
be able to help people avoid bad things? My ability for hearing spirits
voices was thought to be a form of MPD. For very good reason I might add.
These personilities will work through me sometimes and cause a lot of havic.
It is not all bad however as there seems to be some personilities that are
very knowledgeable in the way of enlightenment. The problem is the ones
that cause the havic never ask for permission to enter me. The Enlightened
ones will. Unfortuntly this role playing caused the breakup of me and my
mate. He could take it no longer as he was loosing a lot of sleep and felt
he had to spend to much time with me.
I should mention that I have continuous back aches and my stomach is always
upset no matter what I am eatting. My emotions have gone haywire and
somewhat out of control. I use to be what I would consider a very patient
person. Nope not anymore! Anger seems to rise in me very easily now and it
is only a walk in nature that will bring peace to my tortured mind. I have
thoughts racing through my mind continously. Questions that make no sense
and answers that make even less sense! Past issues that I thought were
taken care of are rising their ugly heads and asking for attention. Things
that do not normally move ....move! just for a blink of a second but I see
them move! When I am really angry or really excited things will jump out
of the cupboards or fall from selves. Lights will dim or completely shut
off if I am walking at night time. I hear noise's that most people cannot
but animals can. So now that I have expressed myself about my nutty life
what do you think? Is this the Kundalini rising? or should I give in to
what other people have told me and sign myself in for help? I saw a Physic
recently he tells me there is a lot of purple in my aura......What does
purple mean? He also saw the depression that is around me and has given me
some keys to work with that are helping.
In L&L & Understanding.
Katharine
Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1998 13:17:40 PDT
From: "janpa tsomo" <j_tsomoATnospamhotmail.com>
To: kundalini-lATnospamlists.execpc.com
Subject: Re: Something that maybe of interest
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who am i?
sun
bounces
on ocean waves.
that wipe footprints from
oceanshores
the sun shines at noon
and the turtle swims up
from the bottom of the ocean
to rest
in
a
sandlewood log.
--janpa
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Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1998 13:25:41 PDT
From: "janpa tsomo" <j_tsomoATnospamhotmail.com>
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hi k list.
moonmoth on temple
door
at dawn....
(but i was up so many hours before dawn!)
is asleep.
With maitri,
--jhampa
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