1997/11/14 10:04
kundalini-l-d Digest V97 #750
kundalini-l-d Digest Volume 97 : Issue 750
Today's Topics:
Re: As long as I'm still on... [ anandajyoti <anandajyotiATnospamgeocities. ]
Re: As long as I'm still on... [ Tim Duna <tdunaATnospamlax.net> ]
Re: As long as I'm still on... [ Tim Duna <tdunaATnospamlax.net> ]
Pain....Pray for the people in their [ iri <iriATnospamivyrealty.com> ]
Re: shining trees and other things [ acarre <acarreATnospamconcentric.net> ]
Re: Introduction [ acarre <acarreATnospamconcentric.net> ]
Re: shining trees/sounds [ HeleniliusATnospamaol.com ]
desubscribe [ "Gordon J. Bakken" <bgb0163ATnospamrs19526 ]
Re: What's time got to do, got to do [ FIute <FIuteATnospamprodigy.net> ]
REIKI [ FIute <FIuteATnospamprodigy.net> ]
Re: As long as I'm still on... [ Tim Duna <tdunaATnospamlax.net> ]
Re: As long as I'm still on... [ hbarrettATnospamix.netcom.com (Holly N. Ba ]
Re: Working with Spirit [ amckeonATnospamhsmail.nfld.k12.mn.us ]
Re: What's time got to do, got to do [ BedawnedATnospamaol.com ]
Date: Thu, 13 Nov 1997 13:25:45 -0800
From: anandajyoti <anandajyotiATnospamgeocities.com>
To: "heartzenATnospamlistserv.servtech.com" <heartzenATnospamlistserv.servtech.com>,
"kundalini-lATnospamlists.execpc.com" <kundalini-lATnospamlists.execpc.com>
Subject: Re: As long as I'm still on...
Message-ID: <346B7051.62AE85FFATnospamgeocities.com>
Hello Tim!
You pain can be felt by many even through the computers. It's okay what you said
about God. God won't be angry at you for that. God also know where your pain is
coming from . Please ask yourself , would you believe that you as the
person, you as the personality, you as the ego, you as the conscious Ti, you as the
self exist. Then believe in them. That's also okay. Search for the source of your
pain through yourself. Reason, analyze, where it came from, ask yourself
what you need to get out of it, ask yourself, what you may need to do, to get out of
your pain. When you were born, you were given the same abilities, same intelligence,
same heart to feel and know, the good , the bad and the ugly.
They are all okay, there is nothing wrong in that. We all go through the turmoils of
roller coaster of our lives, whether we believe in God our ourselves or not.
No one is barred from the experience. Fear not , ask yourself how you can act
yourself through your own understanding and strength of your mind and soul, and feel
the better times in your life too, you have had. Try gain, again to get your answers,
and everybody on the list would be there to help , if you choose to listen ,
everybody would be there for you to give a push, and nudge, extend that hand of
help, if you need, all you need to do during such trials, have the faith in yourself,
work a method to get out of it. For you are also , as we all are.
You love yourself, don't you? Then that love for yourself will also show you the way
to be free of your turmoil. We also feel with you, cry with you and also laugh with
you, at all times , whenever you feel, laugh or cry.
Feel that within you and around you, and the light will guide you, inch by inch, step
by step. Have no fear, you are what you are, just think what you can do , what you
need, and how you get your desires fulfilled.
In Love, Life and Light,
Anandajyoti
E Jason wrote:
> Tim Duna wrote:
> >
> > You've guys have been writing really pretty poetry. Here's something from
> > reality.
>
> Timmy,
> Sweat Heart,
> Would you like to sell your soul to Satan - you may get a refund?
>
> > It is more poetry story, and I don't care if the punctuation is
> > right or not, it was written not too long ago in misery. And I don't need
> > 'help', I don't need any bullshit crappy two bit advice for me. I don't
> > need to 'center in the fuckin heart' and I don't need to align with divine
> > will. These things are bullshit and meaningless to me. When all of you
> > grow up and get high level tears in your aura coupled with K, let's see how
> > you fare.
>
> We will get very very angry and swear and stomp our little feet.
> and say:
>
> O God I hate you
> You are a pain
> Get off my back
> Leave me alone
>
>
> > I suffer on my cross that no-one sees. My pain breaks into a million parts,
> > yet no-one hears. Garbled torture seeps to those with talking
> > hearts---guilt and shame we all shall have! I speak from my endless well, a
> > well for the damned.
> > For no-one *knows* my pain
>
> Nobody is interested in your pain - least of all you.
>
>
> > I wish I could cry, but crying equates more suffering. I could tear myself
> > from my stakes, yet I won't die. Mercy is not my fate, only cascading
> > pushing, And like the heroin addict, just enough to get me by.
>
> Yeah right on!
> God - who needs Her.
> Give me a woman any day . . .
>
>
> > You will rarely hear my voice, for it cannot speak. For it knows it won't
> > bring an end to it's own fury. Only "God" has that choice, and He's a
> > fuckin' asshole, so I will drink alone, forever by myself with noone to help...
> >
> > Thanks be to God.
>
> Amen
>
> Most Unkind Disrespect
> Lobster (miserable useless bastard)
Date: Thu, 13 Nov 1997 15:58:17 -0600
From: Tim Duna <tdunaATnospamlax.net>
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: As long as I'm still on...
Message-Id: <1.5.4.32.19971113215817.0067c9fcATnospammail.execpc.com>
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>tim -
> self-medication for severe depression is a common theme in creative
>persons with *mood swings*.
> objectively, i must point out that, either due to alcohol (or
>whatever) or due to your self-imposed cage of loneliness,
>you seem to consider yourself, & your pain as *different* or removed
>from 'the human condition'. it is not. your pain is no different from
>any one else's pain; just experienced by you, so you are having
>difficulty relating more objectively.
> you won't find anyone who can convince you of anything, either online
>or *meat time* when you have already condemned everyone in general as
>*ignorant* & *unfeeling* & god is an asshole. god is not an asshole.
> this is all illusion coming from your pain stricken libido. i don't
>have a clue of your relative position to 'kundalini-awakening'.
> do you have any spiritual life? meditation? stretching or yoga?
>sounds like taking up *running* might give your pain a kick in the butt!
>run & run & run until everything makes sense, okay?
>v
>ps (when in doubt, take a whole lot of very deep breaths...)
>--
>valerie cooper
>http://www.geocities.com/SoHo/7982/index.html
>
The problem that I run into is that people are ignorant of my
situation and I have yet to find true help. The poem was written in a state
of mind, a state I have been in for the past two years. Only recently in
these past few months has it changed, but it doesn't change my situation.
This is what the poem is about, it still continues, this is why God's an
asshole.
I don't drink, do drugs, or use tobacco. I would, but alcohol opens
up my navel and I'm already too open there, plus it robs my body of it's
vitamins. Tobacco has too many toxins which come out later as hives in my
skin. Drugs are too intense, plus they tend to make me go out of body.
That expression to alcohol was an emotional expression, not a litereal.
And I do believe that the biggest and worst pain is our own, because
we experience it. But in all due respect, my own is worst (if we could
trade pains), I say this out of what I feel is truth. I don't believe
others deal with the shit that I have dealt with. No, they haven't. (just
thinking back to some times) The worst thing for me is that nobody tells me
why, there's no purpose to it. I have been expected to travel blindly
throughout all of this, I haven't had knowing communication with my guides,
no sense of wisdom. Just a lot of trust that what I do is intuitive, as
I've been told that I am very intuitive. Only for me, I feel like I blindly
come across whatever it is that I need.
Tim
Date: Thu, 13 Nov 1997 15:58:25 -0600
From: Tim Duna <tdunaATnospamlax.net>
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: As long as I'm still on...
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At 12:58 PM 11/13/97 -0500, you wrote:
>At 09:27 AM 11/13/97 -0500, Harsh K. Luthar wrote:
>>I felt so sad having read this message. May God bless you and ease your
>>pain and suffering.
>>
>ditto, me too. I have heard of people who somehow volunteered to process
>pain and suffering, beyond their own personal pain, since this does sound
>like a lot for one
>man to bear. Perhaps there is a message in this pain, a call to reach out
>to others for support of some kind, any kind would be better than doing
>this alone,Tim.
The message was a speaking out and expression of crap. No longer
did I feel like I wanted to 'not put out the negative vibe', and be 'bad'
for once and just do it. Basically a spiritual 'fuck you'. I don't expect
things to change how I'd like them to. But oddly enough, overnight, my
mental capacities have increased, where before they felt dead and clouded.
A lot of frontal mental energy for me, which kind of makes me feel like Mr.
Spock.
If you guys would like to take on my energy to process yourselves,
be my guest. There's more than enough to go around. If history repeats
itself, this will only leave room for things to move faster and greater in
me (my healing), so I end up having little change (mindset/experience) from
before. And sometimes, I feel like I need to be heard, that what I have
happening to me needs recognition. And I don't care much if this is
childish, or whatever. Lately I'm in to the free, unhindered expression of
being, no matter how whacked it may be.
I am fine with support, but choosy. It has to be the right kind of
support, and I don't know what that is unless I feel it. Some people's
energy I resonate with really well, others I hate. And it has nothing to
do with divinity, as these are people that do healing work. And I'm sure my
lashing out at some has to do with unexpressed anger towards people close in
my life. What I've found though is those things are out of my reach to get
at, and only go when they're ready to go. A lot of my experience has been a
dis-empowering of 'me' on many levels, enforced by trauma and pain. Am I
fucked up? You bet. But not as whacked as before. Another thing about
other's energies is that they resonate in body to an extent that I begin to
take on their beliefs in my own way. 'I' hate this personally, so I try to
minimize my hook-ups to others. Usually the ones I hook up the deepest, I
have the most anger for, and it doesn't really make sense to 'me', yet I
must deal and identify with it to an extent. That's another thing. I don't
think people here need to hook into other's for energetic stability. This
sucks for 'me'. But I guess exchanging other's energy is part of my soul's
purpose, as I seem to be equipped to handle and filter and exchange mass
amounts of universal energy. It flows through doorways that act like gills.
The healing is about cleaning these doorway gills so that energy flows
through them properly. The distortions in energy the fear, anger, and
overwhelming amounts of sexual energy are these doorways being blocked, and
the energy moving the wrong way, i.e. in through the out door and vice
versa. These doorways are different from chakras. They are more like an
outline of a me on another level that is a living portal, either that, or
they are triangle ship ports. These are the images I have seen of them at
least. I don't know if they are translations or what.
The frustrating thing is when people read shit like this, they tell
me to get centered on me, my life, my issues. But this isn't what's here
(holding hand in front of my face) for me. So please spare me this. I have
learned that the stuff in my life is quite automatic, and I blindly happen
upon some issues or things when I need to.
So, that is enough for now,
Tim
>
>Tim Duna wrote:
>>>
>>> You've guys have been writing really pretty poetry. Here's something from
>>> reality. It is more poetry story, and I don't care if the punctuation is
>>> right or not, it was written not too long ago in misery. And I don't need
>>> 'help', I don't need any bullshit crappy two bit advice for me. I don't
>>> need to 'center in the fuckin heart' and I don't need to align with divine
>>> will. These things are bullshit and meaningless to me. When all of you
>>> grow up and get high level tears in your aura coupled with K, let's see how
>>> you fare.
>>>
>>> I suffer on my cross that no-one sees. My pain breaks into a million
>parts,
>>> yet no-one hears. Garbled torture seeps to those with talking
>>> hearts---guilt and shame we all shall have! I speak from my endless
>well, a
>>> well for the damned.
>>> For no-one *knows* my pain
>>>
>>> I wish I could cry, but crying equates more suffering. I could tear myself
>>> from my stakes, yet I won't die. Mercy is not my fate, only cascading
>>> pushing, And like the heroin addict, just enough to get me by.
>>>
>>> You will rarely hear my voice, for it cannot speak. For it knows it won't
>>> bring an end to it's own fury. Only "God" has that choice, and He's a
>>> fuckin' asshole, so I will drink alone, forever by myself with noone to
>help...
>>>
>>> Thanks be to God.
>>>
>>> Tim
>>
>>
>
>
Date: Thu, 13 Nov 1997 14:05:40 -0800
From: iri <iriATnospamivyrealty.com>
To: kundalini-lATnospamlists.execpc.com
Subject: Pain....Pray for the people in their hour of need, Please
Message-Id: <199711132204.OAA20938ATnospamwoohoo.erc.bc.ca>
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i received news last night that the father of Jeff, a friend of mine for
about 30 years, died on Monday. The funeral will be Saturday 1:30 P.M.
---------------------
i received the following from a newly acquainted friend.....the pain is self
evident.
Thank you Stan! My mind is still reeling from confusion and shock. My
family is having a hard time accepting the fact that anyone would want
to hurt him...;o( He was only 21yrs old. He was the model of the all
american kid. Football and wrestling hero, never drank..or did drugs.
He was my childrens hero. My life has been greatly altered...it will
never be the same. Ive been spending my days attending to my mom. She
has two little ones that need taking care of. She is not handling this
very well. My sister and i are afraid to leave her alone. Which makes
it hard for the both of us, cause she lives over an hour away. We are
trying to make arrangements to move her closer, hopefully within the
next month she will be in the same town as us. I lost one of my twins
almost five years ago. It was the hardest thing ive ever been
threw...but it doesnt compare to this. My daughter died the day she was
born...i didnt have the long history..all the memories. With Tate...ive
had 21yrs of memories..love. Each day does get a little better. Im so
physically and mentally exhausted that i can barely function. We were
finally able to lay him to rest yesterday afternoon. He had to be sent
up north for a special autopsy. Not sure if they found anything new
this time. I just want it to all be over with. I dont think i could
handle spending the next 6 months to a year dealing with this
investigation....;o( My family and i know who did it...but they are
having a hard time proving it. I just feel like locking myself and my
family in a huge closet, just so we dont have to deal with anyone for
awhile. We need our time to grieve and deal with whats happened. Im
not sure when i'll be back on mirc again. Sporadically over the next
week or so...then maybe more often after that. See ya soon....Love
Carrie
i ask the members of the list, please pray for Jeff and his family and
Please pray for Carrie and her family. Both families are in their hour of need
Stan
Date: Thu, 13 Nov 1997 18:27:20 -0500
From: acarre <acarreATnospamconcentric.net>
To: UweJohannATnospamaol.com
CC: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: shining trees and other things
Message-ID: <346B8CD7.B3318B50ATnospamconcentric.net>
Uwe,
> These symptoms are new for me, it is very pleasant, I enjoy it. I want
> to
> know, from your experienced point of view (Kundalini was some month
> ago a
> foreign word for me) if it is better now to pay attention to something
> or let
> things ride as they do.
You lucky one :-)
Enjoy the ride, sit back and relax, trust your inner self, surrender to
it. I can only bring you to more ecstatic places, full of bliss.
When focusing on chakras, listen to the harmony of the rise of "energy"
in all of you, it sings a song of love, which you are. No need to
control the flow of energy, just be it.
Love to you
Antoine
Date: Thu, 13 Nov 1997 18:36:26 -0500
From: acarre <acarreATnospamconcentric.net>
To: Lorianna Burkes <lady_enchantmentATnospamyahoo.com>
CC: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: Introduction
Message-ID: <346B8EF9.F94715E6ATnospamconcentric.net>
Lorianna,
Welcome to the list,
Just stick around for a while and you'll see you'll learn allot from K.
K is contagious, it as side effect when one does not surrender to its
rise on us. As I felt k already started in you, i thought, being here
would help you make the ride to ecstasy more enjoyable.
May grace be with you on each step of your path.
Love
Antoine
Lorianna Burkes wrote:
> It is a pleasure to be on this list. Thank you all for the patience
> in reading my ramblings. I promise to keep most of my posts as short
> as possible. I will keep everyone informed of my progress in learning
>
> Kundalini as events unfold in the future.
Here don't be shy to post about your problems and experiences. Some are
here to help you with problems that may occur, others needs and and
always fell blessed from reading love in another person.
>
>
> Love and Light to all
>
> Lorianna....AKA....Lady_Enchantment
>
> __
> Sent by Yahoo! Mail. Get your free e-mail at http://mail.yahoo.com
Date: Thu, 13 Nov 1997 18:58:14 -0500 (EST)
From: HeleniliusATnospamaol.com
To: glorybeATnospamintrepid.net, kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: shining trees/sounds
Message-ID: <971113185814_-625130855ATnospammrin42.mail.aol.com>
Shining trees, I get...the first time must have been in 1987...as far as
bells and slamming doors, my range of sounds never is limmited to
meditation....neither do I "meditate" in any traditional sense at all. I do
find that just as vision becomes rewired or enhanced, so does the
hearing...and all sorts of frequencies are suddenly perceptable, and that
these different frequencies or sounds are associated with different spiritual
states or feelings which can be blocked if unwanted or "negative." just my
experience so far. Frequently the "bell" sound has come as a positive saving
message to signal danger...such as to avoid a traffic collision...this has
happened since I was a teenager. Keep listening.
helen
Date: Thu, 13 Nov 1997 18:43:40 -0600
From: "Gordon J. Bakken" <bgb0163ATnospamrs195261.ks.boeing.com>
To: Tim Duna <tdunaATnospamlax.net>
Cc: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: desubscribe
Message-Id: <346B9EBC.446BATnospamsgmail.ks.boeing.com>
> Hello,
> I'd like to be removed from the list please.
> You guys should really get this thing fixed..
.Dear Tim:
I have been offering an unsubscribe service for some time, and as yet
have had no dissatisfied customers. Simply send $20.(cash please) to:
P. O. Box 21253
Wichita, KS 67208
Date: Thu, 13 Nov 1997 19:14:48 -0600
From: FIute <FIuteATnospamprodigy.net>
To: jh2owbmATnospammoa.net
CC: "kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com" <kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com>
Subject: Re: What's time got to do, got to do with it?
Message-ID: <346BA608.406BATnospamprodigy.net>
John Halonen wrote:
>
> Reading all these posts about watches, I didn't even realize, about
> a year ago I stopped wearing a watch. It stopped working on me a couple
> of times, but that's not why.
> I just didn't want to be burdened with the notion of time.
> Meditating on time is an interesting thing. Here to there, kind of
> takes away the meaning of now. It boggles the mind to think of all the
> things that could be done if there was enough time. But only one thing
> is really going to get done before the next, so meditate on that one
> thing and make it as perfect as you.
>
> Blessings to all!
> John Halonen
but TIME is not.. as is Space.. and they can't exist in the same arena..
chuckle.. anyone got the physics class on that one?? Its like the
hologram..
Love,
flute
Date: Thu, 13 Nov 1997 20:11:51 -0600
From: FIute <FIuteATnospamprodigy.net>
To: Debbie <qefj48aATnospamprodigy.com>
Subject: REIKI
Message-ID: <346BB367.CA1ATnospamprodigy.net>
http://www.create.org/healingarts/rnews.htm#charge
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Please Read this Article..From the latest book on Reiki Called
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Love,
Flute
Date: Thu, 13 Nov 1997 23:08:51 -0600
From: Tim Duna <tdunaATnospamlax.net>
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: As long as I'm still on...
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At 02:55 AM 11/13/97 -0600, you wrote:
I'd thought I'd give some cliff notes to depersonalize it this poem.
>"I suffer on my cross that no-one sees. My pain breaks into a million parts,
>yet no-one hears." Here the author is saying that he has gone through a
hellish suffering that nobody knows about. That it has no meaning.
"Garbled torture seeps to those with talking hearts---guilt and shame we all
shall have!" Here he is talking about those that are intuitive, which are
many in his neighborhood, and whenever he goes out, he seems to run into
someone that is. Since his healing broadcasts ten million channels at once,
everyone he meets gets a channel to make him feel like his life is out for
all to see, knowing that they are only receiving half-truths.
"I speak from my endless well, a well for the damned." Here he is
describing the energy that never ceases, paticuarly anger and fear, which
leads to the endless misery feelings. It also describes his experience,
like the never-ending story, it goes on and on.
"For no-one *knows* my pain" Here, the emphasis is on the word 'know'. He
is saying no-one knows his pain truly, knows his experience, knows his
trials and tribulations. No-one has worn his moccasins and then some.
"I wish I could cry, but crying equates more suffering." Here he is
describing the phenomenon he calls 'energy sickness'. It happens when he
cries or gets angry or releases energy in any sort of normal means. He is
saying that he can't cry, because this ends up physically hurting more than
what it's worth. That his body feels burnt out with energy afterwards, and
the only remedy is food and sleep.
"I could tear myself from my stakes, yet I won't die." Here, he is saying
that he can't die from the unbelievable amounts of energy that run through
him. This, plus he is being emotional through words, 'I could tear myself
from my stakes', wording to evoke the emotional image.
"Mercy is not my fate, only cascading pushing, And like the heroin addict,
just enough to get me by." This line indicates that an end, mercy, is not
his fate. That he only gains gentle divine love, so gentle that it feels
like he's not being loved at all, but rather is pulling himself together and
'being strong', this is the cascading pushing. And as he states, it is only
enough to just get by.
"You will rarely hear my voice, for it cannot speak. For it knows it won't
>bring an end to it's own fury." Here he is stating that speaking out is
useless, it doesn't end his situation.
"Only "God" has that choice, and He's a fuckin' asshole, so I will drink
alone, forever by myself with noone to help..." Here it is quite litereal
about God. The drinking however is an emotional expression of sadness.
"Thanks be to God." An ending sarcasm to his
earlier Catholic days and what he was taught.
I should note here that I am feeling much better at the moment. I
found out a little more about myself. Before I was afraid of seeking
sympathy, I have since found that it is fundamental to human life.
Sometimes we still seek the hug from mom that makes the bad stuff go away.
And this is what my soul provided, divine sympathy loving energy. So there
seems to have been a purpose to this lashing out. However, it doesn't
change my situation. I still feel bad, even when I'm loved. And I wouldn't
doubt it if I crash again in the future.
Tim
Date: Fri, 14 Nov 1997 06:56:20 -0600 (CST)
From: hbarrettATnospamix.netcom.com (Holly N. Barrett, Ph.D.)
To: Tim Duna <tdunaATnospamlax.net>
Cc: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: As long as I'm still on...
Message-Id: <199711141256.GAA18003ATnospamdfw-ix5.ix.netcom.com>
Keep posting, Tim, I think perhaps you are here to teach us something.
Sometimes I feel pain is not something to be understood, but rather to
be sanctified. Maybe as some of us wake up, we become sin-eaters.
There is a Jewish mystical teaching about the lamed-vov, the 34 Just
people who live on the earth at any given time. They are not saints,
though there is true goodness in them; rather, they experience
excruciating pain and if any one of them were to disappear the universe
would instantly collapse. They are not likely to be famous and
revered. Jews, not coincidentally, have a spiritual practice where
they go into the woods and scream at/for God. Your capacity for pain
must also reflect an equal potential for God-knowing. Love, Holly
Date: Fri, 14 Nov 1997 08:28:04 -0600
From: amckeonATnospamhsmail.nfld.k12.mn.us
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: Working with Spirit
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Nancy wrote:
>several people have
>responded that one can embrace spirit no matter what the
>situation...even working in an office setting.
>
>I've been having fun being the
>hero...doing the impossible, working more than anyone else, coming up
>with the creative idea, using my intuition to circumvent issues before
>they become problem.
>
I ALWAYS start a new job with this attitude, too. It is natural for me. I
enjoy this energy so much that if it wouldn't totally hose my resume and
retirement fund, I'd be switching jobs as often as possible. As it is, I
usually last a maximum of about 4 years and then quit when I feel ready to
explode. I am now in my third year at this job and can feel the change
coming already...
>Today I realized that I was falling back into the old pattern I had
>emerged from. Prior to this new job I had been hardly working. It was
>nice in a way because I became much more balanced. Now I find myself
>tired, not exercising, not doing yoga, meditation, reading,
>writing...all the things that help me become more centered.
>
Hello! I do this every summer! I take a class, catch up on my reading, go
for long walks, etc. Going back to work in the fall is so excruciating,
climbing back on the treadmill.
<snip>
>
>This wildly creative energy and intuition is a great asset at work but
>it also has its shadow side. It's hard to not fall in this trap again.
>
I can relate! I always start out gung ho and then the rules and regulations
and just plain mediocrity of everyone around me pound my spirit into the
dirt. My positive energy gets sucked up, and apathy, lethargy and jealousy
are piled upon me like stones at a pressing.
>Anyone else have this issue? What have you done to keep yourself
>balanced?
>
I haven't managed a good way to handle this yet. At this point I've
detached and my body shows up for work but I leave most of the rest of me
at home. I do try and sneek a peak at an inspirational book in odd moments
(like in the bathroom) just to keep myself sane. It is a compromise that I
feel sick about, but it feels necessary for my survival at this time. I so
envy Angelique who does work that aligns with her spirit.
>Frantic minds want to know.
Color me frantic as well, with a side order of fatalism. Looking forward to
what everyone else has to say...
sincerely,
amckeon
Date: Fri, 14 Nov 1997 10:51:44 -0500 (EST)
From: BedawnedATnospamaol.com
To: FIuteATnospamprodigy.net, jh2owbmATnospammoa.net
cc: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: What's time got to do, got to do with it?
Message-ID: <971114105142_-2008777374ATnospammrin52.mail.aol.com>
Dear Flute;
<< but TIME is not.. as is Space.. and they can't exist in the same arena..
chuckle.. anyone got the physics class on that one?? >>
I've had the physics class on this one... Let's see, when the electron has
location (space) it doesn't have velocity (out of time). When it has
velocity, it has no location.
<wink>
Melissa
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