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Recieved: 2004/10/03 14:56
Subject: Re: [K-list] Waking up screaming
From: Terril Starks
On 2004/10/03 14:56, Terril Starks posted thus to the K-list:
----- Original Message -----
From: "Gustaf Grefberg" <gustaf.grefbergATstarbreeze.com>
To: <k-listATKundalini-Gateway.org>
Sent: Sunday, October 03, 2004 4:50 AM
Subject: [K-list] Waking up screaming
>
> Hello list!
>
> I have written mails before about the 2-4 am experiences, but this one is
> different, recurring and I haven't read about it anywhere else.
>
> Basically what happens is that I go through a very deep, symbolic dream,
> often more like visions. They are rarely frightening when I experience
> them,
> most of the time I am just in a witness state, calmly observing them take
> place.. And I usually am aware of that I am sleeping.. But when they fade,
> and I know I am waking up, the really bizarre thing happens. When I wake
> up,
> I scream.. Sometimes moan, but last night I screamed, on top of my lungs..
> Startled my wife witless in the process. Even more strange is that I
> usually have no problems falling asleep again.. I maybe lie awake for
> another half an hour or so and then drift back asleep.
>
> Why would I wake up -screaming- when there's nothing to scream about?
> There's no big demon monster, nobody chasing me.. It's as if I scream,
> simply because I am "coming back" or waking up? It keeps me completely
> baffled.
>
> The particular experience last night was quite interesting, so I will
> share
> it while I am at it. =)
> I was informed by some sort of inner guidance, that I was about to "pop
> the
> membrane" and "move through the veil".. and that inside this membrane is
> darkness, all my demons and fears and dark memories. First, I dipped my
> foot into some sort of greyish.. goo.. And then I suddenly found myself
> swimming in it, completely submerged.. While I did this, symbols flashed
> before my eyes in an extremely rapid succession.. Can't remember all of
> them, but it was pictures of desert, pyramids, flowers, eyes, all sorts of
> stuff.. At this point I can't really remember any more, except that then
> everything was black, and then I knew I was waking up.. First I heard
> myself
> scream in a moaning tone, that kept going stronger and stronger until it
> was
> a full blown scream! The first sensation upon waking up was as always..
> "Why on earth do I scream so loudly?" Especially when I am not in fear..
>
> Somehow, I know that these experiences are temporary, but I am still very
> interested in any reflections or insight someone might have with this.
>
> In love
> Gustaf
Hello Gustaf,
Your night time expereinces are very interesting to say the least.
The veil of thick darkness is a frightening expereinces to pass through.
As you said you could not recall all that you expereinced in this dark muck.
Maby it is what you do not recall while awake that has you screeming.
If it is too much for your waking mind to accept, you may not recall all of
your dream/vission as a form of protection from your Higher Self.
If these dreams continue to repeat themeslves make sure that you write them
down.
Usually dreams repeat until we understand their meaning!
Remember that no matter what you recall there is no need for forgivness as
the One Life never condems and of course 'all you need fear is fear its
self'.
Love, Light & Peace
Terril
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