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To: K-list
Recieved: 2004/02/15 01:12
Subject: [K-list] Humbled
From: Morgan Kochel


On 2004/02/15 01:12, Morgan Kochel posted thus to the K-list:





Dear List,

I was very tempted to get into a line-by-line confrontation about all
the ridiculous accusations your listowner makes of me and her varied
attempts to push my buttons with pretentious banter, but I'm working
hard to get through all that. All is Maya, we are all One. Such
attitudes of "I'm better than you" only crop up when we forget that
fact.

Just a suggestion: if you really want to know where I'm coming from in
this email, try the guided "Opening the Heart" meditation here before
reading further. I did it myself before typing this.

http://www.beliefnet.com/story/32/story_3248_1.html

Up until now, I really enjoyed this list. The majority of the folks
here have been incredibly helpful and understanding, and I've been
thanked more than once for the humble advice I've given from time to
time. Before now, I saw no indication that my posts here were somehow
unbalanced.

I'm not into personality cults. I don't worship any other human being,
and I don't worship anyone calling themselves "Mystress", although I
offer her love and admiration for the work she does. I was here to
share and to learn, but I had no idea that there were powers that be
that cannot be questioned. I am in no way a submissive to anything
other than spiritual truths and Divinity.

I am not angry at anyone here. In fact, I'm making a concerted effort
to use this as a test to keep my newly-opened heart chakra healthy and
spinning. :-) In this way, the listowner has given me an invaluable
test, and I'm working hard to pass it. (I sincerely hope with all my
heart that she learns to see it that way -- we're all in this huge
cosmic game, folks! We're playing against ourselves!! Relax, and
let's correct each other with Love and Compassion, not hurtful words
and power plays.)

Last, a comment on one part of her post to me where she states:

> Ya know, Morgan... diagnosing people's karmic issues and
> reflecting them back so they can see and have an option to change, is
> my gift... how I earn my daily bread. I'm really, really good at it.
> Sometimes people find it scary that they are so transparent to me.

By this I can see that I am expected to believe whatever she says about
my spiritual growth hook, line, and sinker. Sorry, but while I am a
student, I'm not a follower. My strength is not centered in ego, but
in the recognition of my own Divinity and in the Divinity of others.
None of us here are less Divine than anyone else. Know that, and we
Awaken.

To the rest of you, don't ever let anyone tell you that someone knows
your level of spiritual growth better than you do, except maybe a fully
enlightened master. If this person actually knew what "karmic issues"
I was dealing with, she would have handled this entire conversation
MUCH differently. If I *had* been dealing with "ego" or "anger"
issues, her use of patronizing phrases would have made me fire up even
more. I was coming from the heart, expecting to be met from the heart.
  Instead, the communication went from my heart to one of her lower
chakras. I don't really know whether I didn't communicate clearly or
if she just wasn't ready to hear what I sad on a higher level.

Not all of you will see what happened for what it is, and that's fine.
For those of you who do, please feel free to continue to write to me
offlist if you wish, and I will be now going in search of a place to
learn further. Maybe the "shakti field" showed me just what I needed
to see here -- that it's time to move on.

I wish you all Great Love & Light, and a Happy Valentines Day!

Love & Peace
        to You, Friends,
Morgan



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