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Recieved: 2003/06/20 09:19
Subject: RE: [K-list] Kundalini problem
From: Tom
On 2003/06/20 09:19, Tom posted thus to the K-list:
Hi Hety/Rick
I had something very similair to this too but with words it seems. This was
when I was in a bad way with kundalini only a few weeks ago (something was
just beginning and I didn't know much at all about it or what to do). I
would ask frantic questions about wether i'd die or not, I was very afraid.
And I would get my answers by random words popping in my head, which I would
then count how many letters the word had. Even numbers = yes, odd numbers =
no. This went on and on, and a huge obsession in poetry and all sorts of
words. Looks similair, obviously with words instead of numbers though.
It's gone now, lasted for a week or so. I saw how stupid it all was
eventually. Just watching myself more and more is what helped. I still
have a big passion for poetry but I don't think that's such a bad thing.
All the best,
Tom
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Subject: Re: [K-list] Kundalini problem
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Dear Rick,
It's totally weird that you mention this. I was just going to write to the
List that I so appreciate ALL the experiences of everyone in their "process"
thru and into their journeys and here you write about the clock. I'm having
a problem with both the clock and counting.
I have a counting problem. I count for no reason. Mid-count I realize I'm
counting and have to stop myself. For example, I count how many times I
wind a cord around a window blind. Then I catch myself and say, 'stop
counting!' Every time I look at the clock it's on a triple number -- 1:11,
2:22, 4:44...I even hit 11:11. Totally weird. Re the counting: when I was
younger I used to touch each finger to my thumbs and back again, counting.
Now I know about mudras. One of my favorite mantras is the SA TA NA MA with
mudras...again, very strange.
Worrying about the future is a body problem, an ego problem. Your soul has
no problem with the future at all. You are fine -- you just don't know it?
What's the worst possible thing that can happen to you? And will it?
Probably not. <I> think it may be a good idea to move yourself away from
your body self and find out what your Big Self thinks. Very hard to do,
easy to say, but it can bring peace to you.
Love,
Hety
I've had an embarassing and strange mental problem, although it's more like
a wound that i've been carrying and I can't let go of it. It's hard to
describe it because I feel a little embarassed.
I feel so unsure about the future sometimes that I have this silly habit of
continually looking at the clock, and if the clock has certain numbers on
it, then my question is answered. I may say to myself, will this happen,
look at the clock and if a certain numbers comes up, then my answer has been
answered. I don't really understand quite how this started, only that i've
been doing it for far too long and it's driving me nuts. I read about this
many years ago, but can't find reference to it or the condition I have or
how to solve it.
I suppose many people have these things when the Kundalini becomes active?
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