To: K-list
Recieved: 2002/11/08 19:11
Subject: RE: [K-list] Re: Who To serve...
From: Rich
On 2002/11/08 19:11, Rich posted thus to the K-list:
David David David!
> Why not at least be honest with yourself.
Well this is what I mean... Got back in myself follow inner guide and
then bumph I get taken right to her.
But my involvment with her continues to bring chaos into my relatively
unchaotic life.
Goddess put us together for a reason. That I don't know yet. But it's
pushed me too my limits in terms of surrender. Heavy deep stuff to do
with loss and attachments from past relationships. It's one hell of a
roller-coaster.
If I told you where the connection was between us it would be below the
root chakra. A soul connection? I don't know, but it's deep and not in
the space of my physical body.> > Why should something wonderful come into my life to then have to
> > loose it again after more than 2 months of waiting.
No, it's a feeling of something being right from within myself, but
there is a lot of push-pull. I guess I'm also trigger karma in her as
her past attachments only seem to have grown stronger but she does not
let go readily and instead it creates a barrier between us in one
region.
> I'm tempted to go into this energy of temptation
> right now. It seems to be attached to something,
> or someone or someOne...
Divinity is also temptation to me.
> It's not like you caused it
> why would you think
> you could maintain it?
I didn't cause it put my insecurity has got me more routed in the
relationship than I would be if I stayed solid in my self. This is part
of what I have let go of.> Could have been a test...
Yes... A test of my loyalty? A test in other ways.....
> > It's as if we were meant to be together.
>
> For how long?
Until the game unwinds for both of us and maybe longer.
> > But why does she hold on to her past so much.
>
> Why do we hold onto anything?
For fun ;)> > Why does she not trust me
> > more.
>
> Why do we want to quantify something like trust?
I know... I was riveting before... Letting off steam... Was quite
shocking to re-read this later and realise what I'd said. The desire is
clearly my ego.Best 2 ya!
Rich
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