2002/11/06 21:11-Rich-[K-list] Who To serve...

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Subject: [K-list] Who To serve...
From: Rich

On 2002/11/06 21:11, Rich posted thus to the K-list:

Carrying on the theme…

Well after getting tangled up with a girl… Albeit one that felt right at
the beginning and went very well for 3 months or so… I came to realise
that I was getting more disappointed than it was worth my while… Okay,
so have no expectation, of course…

But when I make a plan to go somewhere with someone and they don´t turn
up or bother to call it is hard to not get at least a little
disappointed.

More so when you had waited for more than 2 months to be with that
person.So… Although I heard the sign to let her go before I could not
understand this after the sign was get with her and let it happen at the
beginning…

Why should something wonderful come into my life to then have to loose
it again after more than 2 months of waiting. What is the learning to be
had. Lead us not into temptation? Why are we shown beauty to be led into
addiction but then not able to maintain it. Nothing is permanent… Hmmm..

So I gave her up… Yes! I did! I surrendered everything back to Goddess.
Got back in my self. Felt very happy and didn´t care for anything….

So I go about my business… Following the only voice worth listening to…
My inner guide… And decide to take a trip to a nearby market….

Okay… For those that are interested, this is not a normal market…
Probably the larget market in the World… I learnt from here it is 28
acres of market, with 8,000 vendors.
(http://www.pps.org/gps/one?public_place_id=179)

So… I get there… Where do I go… Okay… Follow inner guidance…. Dum de dum
de dum… This way.. That way… This way… Well where does Goddess take me…
Straight into the Girl I just finished with and surrendered…

Call it coincidence… This is really strange… So Goddess wants her back
with me…. What is it for… To be good to her?

Why I give her up and I get her back again… Then there was the
simultaneous déjà vu experiences before… Can anyone explain this… Yes…
It´s as if we were meant to be together…

But why does she hold on to her past so much… Why does she not trust me
more… Why does she say she wants to be with me from her heart but then
ask her ex-boyfriend to take care of her when she is ill (this was the
day before yesterday).

What to do… Is this yet another lesson… To care but not care…. Hmmm…
Goddess can teach hard sometimes…

What shall I do… Let things happen…

And now she wants to have a tattoo done from a monk because she thinks
it´s cool… Why do I get her ego all the time… Why can´t she be god in
herself… Because she doesn´t know this yet..Comments welcome…

Rich

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To: K-list Recieved: 2002/11/06 21:11 Subject: [K-list] Who To serve... From: Rich

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Recieved: 2002/11/06 21:11
Subject: [K-list] Who To serve...
From: Rich