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Recieved: 2002/08/12 19:31
Subject: [K-list] ~looking for the light at the end of a tunnel~
From: ami301971


On 2002/08/12 19:31, ami301971 posted thus to the K-list:

Hi all :) I am posting this because I am quite frankly at a real low
point in some of the most important area's of my life. I know that
coming on here and begging for help perhaps does not make the best
impression. Until recently, in the last month, I have felt very good
about life and my spirituality. I had a miscarrage about a month or
so ago, and it seems I have just stopped. Everything spiritually. I
still know my truth, it just seems i am overcome with a sadness that
doen't leave me crying all day, it does something else altogether. It
is like a lingering ghost that haunts me. I can smile I can even
laugh, but it is the sadness that is underlying it all. I feel
unconnected. The baby was not planned or anything, and I really didnt
want anymore children, so one might think that I would be "relieved".
But I can not escape this sadness. I feel the presence of heat at my
base chakra constantly, its is like its on fire. when I feel this I
am sad and scared. Anyway if anyone has any idea's for help, i would
be so grateful. i know that things are the way they are because of my
higher self choosing these experiences for me, i choosed to
experience them. At least that is my truth. I am just trying to find
the otherside of this tall and great mountain. I am not looking for
sympathy really, I just wanna feel okay and be able to move forward
and live ...does that make sense? Anyway any thoughts would be
greatly appreciated.
looking for the light through a room full of shadows....
be bless in the wonder of all that is and is not
ami

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