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Recieved: 2002/07/15 14:44
Subject: Re: [K-list] mental "illness": non-irritating approaches
From: Stormymouse :P


On 2002/07/15 14:44, Stormymouse :P posted thus to the K-list:


Hello Laura,
For me Depression has been caused by anger , I fought it since early childhood and the doctors told me it was chronic. Well I know now that they are wrong it was just my body telling me it had some major issues to release. Anyway I used medication to feel good up untill about 3 yrs ago then I tried to go off well I was on and off till about a year ago and then decided to quit masking the problem all it did was numb the feelings. Anyway it was this list that convinced me to go off medication I got an amazing response from someone that really opened my eyes that I wasnt getting to the root of the problem just hiding it with meds. So that is the last time I took them and I have had some really bad days in the beginning especially there was a couple of weeks where the panic attacks and depression was so severe I couldnt even function hubby had to take care of me. But that was about a year ago and after I got through that and released the initial fear and anger (K forced that up so to that Im thankful), I have been doing really well. Still have my bad days but nothing I cant handle if I think rational thoughts, When I find myself depressed or panicky I locate where the feeling is coming from usually my solar plexus or heart and I look inside it and visualize it as an animal or color (this is how I release alot of it) anger is a tiger or lion really vicious, anyway I just keep digging untill I have released it and move on. I have used so many different techniques but this is the one I have had the most luck with so far. Anyway guess I just face it head on and I have noticed a world of improvent. My life is changing it has become my mission to never deal with it again. And I havent had a panic attack since I started this either which is amazing to me cuz I had those every day I was at the point I couldnt hardly leave the house. I guess I just got kind of aggressive with myself I dont allow myself to hide from anything now if all possible I just keep going. LOL the only prob Ive noticed is Im wondering if there is an end to all my anger and fear I just keep digging and releasing and it just keeps coming up more and more. So maybe in a year I can tell you I am an always happy never fearful and angry person. I have always hid my feelings till recently so guess that is 26 yrs of crud to dig up not to mention anything else my spirit had before this life. I dont know alot about bi polar as far as how much it is different from reg depression but hope this helps some, I believe it can be done. :) Lately I have been purposely triggering my deepest fears trying to get them up but beware once you start they tend to immerge rapidly, but Im thinking Im ready to face them. The only thing I have noticed physically is an increase in hot flashes and aches in heart and solar plexus area but that is prob from the blocks dragging up I guess. I wont deny though that I sometimes wonder if I will regret what Im doing I think maybe Im going about it all wrong but guess that is the fearful one inside of my trying to chick
Love and Light
Kristy


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