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Recieved: 2002/04/14 10:10
Subject: [K-list] Quicky birthing poll
From: José H

> Did you have a difficult birth?

As far as I know - no. My mother was still walking in the corridor of the
clinic with nearly full dilation. Then when they checked, she was ready to
push and pushed me out in two pushes - no drugs or anything.

> Have you had an easy or difficult K awakening?

Well, awakening K didn't seem to difficult - it was what came after for the
next 10 years that was extremely difficult, going through hell many times,
mania, psychosis.

> How intense has it been?

Very.

> I am particularly interested in any correlation that may exist
> relative to the repression of a child's natural life-force flow
> during the birthing moment by the use of labour assisting drugs,
> pain killers etc. This includes Caesarian section births.

So no, nothing like that, however, it was pregnancy that was very difficult
for my mother emotionally: my father backing out, leaving her, threatening
her and forcing her to have an abortion. When she didn't want to, he
publicly told lies about her, proclaimed her to be a slut, a whore etc.
I felt all of this inside the womb - since I relived it many times during
psychotic episodes and finally well-guided and without psychosis during
hypnotherapy.

Recently, during labour and childbirth, I felt a manic episode coming up in
my head. When I asked myself what was underneath; a deeply felt loneliness
came up, missing my father at (my own) birth, when I was a baby. I cried and
the starting mania disappeared. Some more old trauma cleared.

I start to believe fathers are indispensable - they should be there, with
all of their heart, to guide their children into the world.

Love, Jose

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