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Recieved: 2002/02/04 13:20
Subject: Re: [K-list] FW: The worst yet?
From: Druout


On 2002/02/04 13:20, Druout posted thus to the K-list:

In a message dated 2/4/2002 11:30:23 AM Pacific Standard Time,
rich4444ATnospamhotmail.com writes:

> - I fear that I'm going to loose control over my body
> - I feel as if I'm partially paralysed or in some sort of semi-coma
> state, sort of locked in (no disrespect to those that are in a real coma
> - I just can't think of a better way of describing this). Don't seem to
> be able to move my limbs without considerable effort. Can't feel my
> heart beat.

Dear Richard,

Luckily most of our bodily functions can operate quite happily without our
mental input! I feel catalepsy quite often, especially when the K energy is
strongest. It seems to me that you have built up a large store of sexual
energy and are simply feeling the results. For the head pain, you might try
putting your tongue against your palette to recirculate the head energy.
Krishnamurti and many others have felt this pressure-pain. Perhaps one of
it's purposes is to *prevent* us from *thinking!* :)) But I agree with
Paul, it's always best to get a check up just in case.

>
> . The more of a fight I put up the worse it gets.

Yeah! The energy is *forcing* you to surrender. Your fears keep you from
trusting what the energy is doing to you.

> Managed to force myself out of bed. Have lots of cold water to drink.
> Still just don't feel right. Like I'm just not here - I am emotionally
> flat and very detached.
>

I often have to pull myself out of bed. It no longer bothers me. It
generally passes after I do some Hatha Yoga. I think if we realize that the
catalepsy is *energetic* but that we can still function when we need to
*within* this catalepsy, the fear of it passes. It is just a way we mentally
"translate" the energy. It can be translated as Bliss, believe it or not!


> Later the next day I feel all shivery and fearful. I can't hold a proper
> conversation with anyone and am going from bursting out with laughter
> (don't ask me why, just feel good about something) to being depressed
> and scared. Also find it very hard to read or watch TV.

Emotional Kriyas, I'd say. Just as with physical kriyas, I think we just
have to let the energy have its way with us. We will just seem as though we
have "lost it" for a while. Hopefully friends and family will be
understanding.

>
> Later that day I do yoga and also more release work which seems to
> restore some of the feeling in my head and put me back in touch with my
> body a little. The next night I have the most erotic dream I've had for
> a long time.

Yeah! The energy has been super strong--but strangely different-- for many
people lately.

>
> I'm still not through with it yet and it is better but it has also been
> quite bad again last night and I just wondered if anyone has experienced
> similar or can relate to this?

Some of it--especially the catalepsy! Your post actually brought it on! :))
 It is a strange phenomena--one I've had pretty much since the beginning in
Sept 96. You might try to do some strong physical exercises or simply run.

Hope this helps. Sending love.

Hillary

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