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Recieved: 2001/12/22 05:29
Subject: Re: [K-list]
From: siska


On 2001/12/22 05:29, siska posted thus to the K-list:

Kate Boylan wrote:

> I have been watching the list for a while now, and seeing all of the
> different way people experience K energy.
> Finally I have mustered enough courage to ask about an experience I had 15
> years ago now.

Good for you!

..... the house had become
> oppressive. Where asbefore it had been full of light, in every possible
> way.
>
> Note that my life was going fairly well till this
> occurred..................
>
> I ending up selling that house which had been the dearest place in the
> world to me. There was no peace there anymore.
> The last 15 years I have been drifting more or less, functioning but not
> grounded, not accomplishing any of my goals until this summer

SNIP

 I just wanted to ask if this could possibly be a
> Kundalini experience?

I relate to a lot of what you say in the broad sense of a very long period
ie in my case 15-20 years of unhappiness and great upheaval following K
awakening. Also my K awakening when I was 16 had ominous overtones in that
while it was very ecstatic, the flip side was the start of a series of
depressive breakdowns, plus much paranoia, neuroticism etc in the first
years. It was love that triggered it - and the guy's phone number was - I
kid you not - 666. This has always rather spooked me!

K seems to be often viewed as all light and ecstasy, bliss etc but for many
long periods this was not my experience at all - but having now come out of
that time I can look back and see that amidst great unhappiness A LOT of
healing work was being done.....

While I didn't experience long term drifting, a friend of mine has - and she
incidentally is the one person I actually know outside this list who has
recently K 'awakened' and recognises it as such. And I feel she's finally
dealing with issues that have not been looked at too closely before, and
seems to be getting a grip at last in terms of focus and direction....

So ..... it sounds like things could be looking up for you? I do hope so
cos these very long periods of misery are tough tough work but they don't go
on forever unless one decides to stay put.

Lots of love and all the best
siska.

>

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