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Recieved: 2001/10/30 11:00
Subject: Re: [K-list] Kundalini descending...
From: Unit1021
On 2001/10/30 11:00, Unit1021 posted thus to the K-list:
Hello Rich,
Thanks for the reply, Just wanted to add some things, maybe make
things a little clearer...
>Meditation should help to calm the
> mind and allow you to act without thought. It may be that issues are
> resurfacing that need handling - things that you need to let go and
move
> on from?
This is what I need. Problem is I really can't. If I do start
calming down and meditating I get all sorts of distorted thoughts and
images. And I start to hear my body crying again for some help. Its
bad... I once read that you were not supposed to meditate if you were
not feeling like yourself, or you were in a bad state either mentaly
or physicaly. I'm in a very bad state in both.
>
> A friend suggested imagining that you are a flower and are able to
close
> the pettles up to isolate and protect yourself from the negative
> energies around.
>
I thought that was some type of control. Something your not supposed
to do... Can you do this? Someone also said I can bring these things
inside of me so I dont pick up on everything.. Is this stuff control
or survival? I dont want to mess with anything, but I dont want to
feel so bad all day either..
Some solid clearing work should
> help to bring this back. You may want to read about the Brahma knot.
>
This was why I wrote. I was doing clearing work and something
snapped in my head. I was feeling so good too.. I know why it
happened now. To much stress. But I thought it was all OK, I mean it
was all for Goddess... What I didnt know was that my top chakra was
closed off and all that energy was slamming into the top of my head
and not flowing out like it should. I mean there is all this Autumn
energy going on, I was thanking my unconcious all the time, I was
changing my beliefs all over the place. I was learning everything
new. I havent gotten any real sleep in over a year, my body is crying
all the time and needs to be healed right away, so I was doing a lot
of that. My syncronicity was going BOOM BOOM BOOM! I was getting more
info faster than I can absorb the last stuff I just got. All of these
things where happening to me... And to top that all off people where
still messing with the way I was thinking while I was doing all of
this twisting my thoughts while I'm clearing....... snap.....
So now I cant do anything really anymore... Every time I try things
rush to my head and I have to stop because it hurts. I dont know what
to do... I'f I could only calm down and get some sleep and de-stress
away from everyones disturbing thoughts.....
So I dont know what to do. I thought I was doing the right thing by
doing all of this. I wanted to learn all I can so I can stop the
hurting that is destroying me as soon as possible. Clear out all the
blocks so I could feel good again... But I seemed to have just made
things worse..
So now I'm lost... I need guidence, because I evidently dont know
how to do this. I just wanted to feel better for once....
So thats what I really wanted to know... Whats a good pace? I will
do this until I destroy myself otherwise I think...
Maybe I know? Maybe.. Thats what I'm working on....
Hello?
Thanks
Sean
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
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