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Recieved: 2001/09/30 11:28
Subject: [K-list] Dear Group...
From: L. J. Klinsky

On 2001/09/30 11:28, L. J. Klinsky posted thus to the K-list:

Dear Group:

In all your different ways, you have facilitated my rebirth, I believe. Kindness, understanding, and stark honesty have calmed my rabid snake! :) Writing what I was going through and being mirrored back cracked open some kind of doorway into my soul. It breathes now, where before it futilely cried out.

I woke today, for the first time in millenniums, without a fear of living, with a smile on my face, knowing that I've been given a blessed gift. I felt absolutely glowing.

So I let the blinding gold ball of light take me away while I did my yoga routine. I let my body disappear when I did pranyama. I let the orgasmic feelings take over my body, with the groans of ecstasy, in between poses. And I realized truly, that doing this will never hurt me.

I hope I've been put on this earth to help others feel like this--like they can matter, like they're good enough, like they have a right to exist. No matter what I've ever done, it never felt like it was good enough. Now, suddenly, I don't care. I just want to do stuff. I'm just going to try to live for a change...

I've always struggled with every part of life, denied that life mattered, denied that I'd ever find a place to belong on this earth. I've always been a doubter of any form of enlightenment; I just figured nothing mattered in the big scheme of things, just a cruel joke of some sadistic creator...

I truly don't know where this life is taking me, what I'm supposed to be or do, but at least I can look at this wild ride now as an adventure instead of hell on wheels!

Thank you for your help, and blessings to you all...


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