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Recieved: 2001/08/26 10:59
Subject: Re: [K-list] Thank You
From: José H


On 2001/08/26 10:59, José H posted thus to the K-list:

Sean,

Your post touches me - as if I can feel you put your heart out there, like
you say, out of your body.
Your empathy is a very loving capacity that cán help you in life - but not
when you need to become invisible and surrender yourself to everything and
everybody around you. I don't think that's the kind of surrender you need.

When you feel surrender to Goddess, to the power within you, it can make you
radiate in yourself, even when you are not being empathic at that moment.
But when you put your heart out there you give it to anyone to be stepped
on - and you do'nt deserve that!

You can still be with people in your heart even when it is inside your body.
Protection of your heart is important now.
Maybe the grounding exercises might help you, to ground you and empower your
body.

And last but not least: try to turn your empathy inward to feel your own
pain.
You could use a lot of you're own love!

good luck and blessings to you,
José
> This means a terrible lot to me as I now know myself to be really
> empathic. I didnt even know I had issues to deal with about this. I'm
> really confused. What do I surrender? I swear all I do now is
> surrender every day. I try to be invisable and let it all go around
> me, but I still feel everything though. Where is the power chakra? Do
> I need to balance my other chakras to make this work better for me?
> How can I balance them?
>
> THe duality really got me too.. Its confusing. I dont have any power
> games between anyone. Breath issues? I have a hard time breathing in
> some area's.. Is this it? Faith issues? I know about Goddess now. I
> do feel better these days than before I knew. Actually a lot better.
> But I'm still getting my heart ripped apart by people. I hate it. I
> try to surrender, but I feel that I just get hurt more. Sometimes
> when I do really become invisable and totaly surrender, I feel bad, I
> am not me, if I am not me, then whats the point? I feel very very
> sad. This cant be the way. Maybe I'm not doing it right.
>
> On a different note. I noticed that when people move there hands
> over, or anywhere near my heart, even up to over a foot away. I can
> feel it like they are touching me on the inside. Its like my heart is
> on the outside of my body as well as inside. It feels good when I or
> others rub that area. When I feel good, this area shines like a sun.
> I feel drawn up by it. But I feel that somehow the reason I get hurt
> so easily is because of my energy sticking out like that. It picks up
> on every single little tone in peoples voices. The good side is that
> I understand notes, tones and music very very well. Bad side is I
> feel peoples horrable lives when they talk.
>
> If I asked for this in any life... I must have been out of my mind.
> What an idiot... Somone tell me that I can use this stuff for
> something positive instead of always getting hurt every day. I want
> to be able to get my music out and not be held back by all this
> hurting.

> Thanks for any info
>
> Sean
>


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