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Recieved: 2001/07/24 17:41
Subject: Re: [K-list] Re: Karma Judo. Was: fundamentals of witchhunts
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent


On 2001/07/24 17:41, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:

At 07:34 AM 7/24/01, Nancy wrote:
>From: Mystress Angelique Serpent <MystressATnospamkundalini-gateway.org

> > Most "new age" people are taught to
> > always project love and light wherever
> > they go, and this idea is really not
> > so good. It leads to conflict and
> > excessive empathic karma junk incoming.
>
> > What you put out comes back multiplied,
> > AND every action an opposite
> > and equal reaction. Send love and light
> > to people, you get back love and
> > light but you also get back karma and conflict.
>
>Dear Mystress,
>
>I have read and reread this part of your post, and I'm feeling conflicted.
>
>It has been my experience that if I feel love within and focus on people and
>send them love, it has been a positive experience. I call that my "love
>meditation." That experience has transformed me. My heart feels full and
>open. I have become more calm and peaceful. I'm not as apt to get caught up
>in the trivial irritations. I can accept others as they are.

    :) Yes. I am not saying it is bad to do this, especially if you do it
as specific meditation rather than walking around projecting all the time.
In my healing work, I do send love, and I get back karma, and the
processing gives me bliss. But aside from that, I keep my energy turned
inward and I AM love.

    Remember, you are the person who taught me to recognise karmic stuff
that belonged to other people by asking for it all to show up within me as
a specific color. Handy trick! You know that there can be that kind of
input... but you are not one who gets a lot of excessive empathy. Remember
how stuck you got, taking on karma from your Mother when she was dying? You
were loving her, but you were not mindful of processing her karma as it
came in.
    It was not bad, it was an act of compassion.. but the experience of it
was not so good, eh?

    I know it is a hard idea to grasp.. I had trouble with it too, when I
first encountered the idea via Dan Winter and Ken Page. It took me more
than a year of meditation and experimentation to really understand it..
and when I did, I look a look on the ethereal level and discovered so many
cords connecting to people whom I had made some long forgotten agreement to
support them with my love energy.. and I was getting their karma and
emotions back as part of the deal. I cleared that, and focused inward, and
was finally free of the excessive empathy that made my life an emotional
roller coaster for so many years. I no longer needed to smoke the herb to
balance out my moods.

  You were part of me coming to this understanding, when you channelled my
higher self, in a dream to explain the meaning of twin flames in clearer
words than I had been able to find for myself. You asked me to translate
the information you had been given, and with your consent I will forward
that post to the list. In the meantime, I will paraphrase.

    Above the heart, there is no "other:".. no separation. So there is no
place for love to go, there is not "other" to send love to. You can only Be
love. If you try to create separation to send love, you will be creating
separation from your own Divinity.. you will come crashing down in a fall
from grace.

   It is in the chakra dimensions below the heart that there is an illusion
of others. There is duality, so love can be shared. Where there is duality,
there is karma.

    Goddess does not have karma. Unity does not have karma. We do, as
beings in duality, and it is karma that creates the illusion of separation
between ourselves and Goddess, ourselves and other people. I see Goddess in
everyone, and I do not usually see their karma blockages unless they ask me
to look, or they show them to me by expressing where they think Goddess is
not.

   Perhaps I can explain it as the difference between loving and being
love. Loving requires an illusion of other for love to travel to. When you
unify with another through the act of loving, the effect is that of "water
finds its own level" they get your love and you get their karma so that
there is a level playing field where you can meet. There is karma because
there is duality, separation.. there must be, for love to have an "other"
to travel to... for their to be an "other" to unify with. If you are doing
this in single pointed meditation of love, the love itself does the
processing alchemy of transmutation, and it clears you, too.. it is blissful.

    Whereas if you have just said a typical "new age" prayer asking to
always broadcast love to all beings and then you go out and get stuck in
traffic or go to work or something, you are still broadcasting love on an
unconscious level, and you have asked to be stuck in duality so that there
can be others to send love to... but your focus is not on doing the
transmutation of what is incoming. You will end up feeling bent out of
shape, in an emotional state from the karma incoming that you are not
giving attention to processing.

   When you focus your energy inward, you ARE love.. you are Goddess, and
Goddess has it handled. When you love the reflection of someone that is in
your heart, you are focusing on them as a part of you. Focusing on the
unity of all things. No separation, no karma.

>The only time I get whacked alongside the head is when I send love to
>someone, fall "in love" with them based on my projection, and don't see them
>for who they are. I fall in love with my projection and don't clearly see
>the person behind the projection.

Yes.. but even without the intensity of "in love", we mostly only ever
see our projections. That is part of the nature of perception itself, we
see ourselves reflected. I am usually in a unity state so I see Goddess in
everyone.. my Self reflected. If I am moving into duality to do healing
work then I see "their" stuff, and I take it on and clear it or reflect it
back so they can see themselves and choose to surrender.

   The only way that this is somewhat different is in the Witness state..
and that is a state of unconditional love.. being Divine, being Love... and
it does not have the euphoria you describe. It is un-conditional.. without
conditions of bliss or euphoria, or any other emotional state. Simply
peaceful, and it is an out of body state. The body experiences conditions.

   Rather, the euphoria comes as a side effect of the processing of
incoming karma. Sometimes when I get very plugged and mucked up, stuck in
separation, I ask one of my slaves to clear me. My males slaves
particularly, totally bliss out laughing and orgasmic from the same karma
junk that is making me miserable. It is the same when I do my healing work
with someone else.. so long as they are surrendering the stuff as I take it
on, the transmutation process is blissful. If they start to resist, I have
to hand the stuff back and disconnect from them.

    LOL!! Synchronicity. The phone rang, a student whom I chased off months
ago, because I had taught him all I had to teach but he was too lazy to
actualize it. He got addicted to me, dependent and unwilling to embrace
Goddess within himself and practice mindfullness to get his own energy
level up, when it is so much easier to tap into my flow... so I cut off
contact with him so he would be forced to stand on his own feet.
He came to see me one day last summer when I was feeling very blocked,
and so I used the opportunity to teach him karma vampire work and let him
do some healing on me. He got so blissed out on it, he keeps calling asking
to do it again... hoping to find me in need. Sheeesh!
   He is manipulative, always asking if there is anything I need hoping
that he can find some carrot to dangle to get what he wants... my energy
and attention. I need nothing, so he is frustrated in his efforts. I
suggested he give me money or come weed my garden...: ) He declined. :) :)

> At first they are awed by my attention,
>and then it starts rubbing them the wrong way, like a scratchy suit that
>doesn't fit right. They can never live up to the projection so it has to be
>shed.

    It is the same, only different on a level of intensity. It is the
intensity of your laser beam of "in love" that makes them uncomfortable.
Projecting love without that level of intensity still can have the same
effect, but it is gentler, not so obvious.

>I am open to understanding your perspective. Maybe we are saying the same
>thing.

Yes, in a way, we are.. :) Thank you for your input!
Blessings..





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