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Recieved: 1999/12/09 07:26
Subject: Re: [K-list] [molecular level] Fear of insanity
From: Jenell
On 1999/12/09 07:26, Jenell posted thus to the K-list:
I have to agree with how his is first observed, not at all with that
which presents a correction of it.
Not only can the 'feelings of going insane' come about when the ego
percives itself as threatened, it can actually drive the person into
insanity, if their ego identification is so strong the person cannot
turne loose of it, and cannot find an 'acceptable' (to it) way to
integrate conflicting data recieved through the senses of such nature
that neither can it deny, discredit, reject it. I've had close up
personal opportunity to see just that happen to someone, have struggled
for years to understand what happened to her, and this is pretty much
what it was. In many aspects, she could, would, express these directly
conflicting beleifs, ideas, her knowing and accepting them both, but of
course, when she tried to make them reconcile with one another,
something in her just seemed to sort of 'short circuit'. Those around
her learned to not try to put her into that place of conflict, trying to
show her how they didn't, couldn't, reconcile, because the more anyone
tried to help her bring them into alignment so she could see the
inconsistencies, the more agitated and irrational and confused and angry
she would become. She developed very clear and classic 'multiple
personality disorder', and I now beleive this was largely what was at
the root of that.
And yes, knowing now what I do about k, I beleive the arousal of k in
her triggered her psychosis. It brought things that were in conflict
with her existing ego condition, and she was too attached to that ego
identification to be able to accept or reconcile that. She had suffered
a lt of abuse in childhood and early adult life, was a very troubled
person already, when 'something happened' to her around the age of 34.
Everyone that knew her woud agree on that, 'something happened' to her
at about that time. I now beleive, from the changes in her, things I
observed and that she told me, it was k trying to rise against an ego
and mental/emotional state unprepared to deal with it. The blockages
were too great. She also suffered physical affects, becoming very bent,
stooped over, suffered terrible pain along with it. As I've come to
understand more of these things, I've realized that this physical effect
on her was indicative of the nature of the distress, that by her
becoming stooed and bent over, so that she could not straighten, her
shoulders pulled forward, her ego was trying to 'protect' her heart
center. Her behavior, personality, all involved, would support that, as
well.
Jenell
Christopher Wynter wrote:
>
> At 10:45 PM 12/9/99 , you wrote:
> >Feelings of going insane are often caused by Ego, having lost a lot of its
> >influence, constantly sending signals saying "something is wrong,
> >something is wrong".
>
> May I venture that it is more correctly a genetic remembering
> of the persecution in the past ...
> and the labelling as "insane
> or mad"
>
> placed on any who dared to have a spiritual experience
> that was not ratified by the (Roman in particular) Church
> of the time ...
>
> and the subsequent treatment (persecution)
> dished out to the 'insane'
>
> Christopher Wynter
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