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Recieved: 1999/12/08 18:05
Subject: Re: [K-list] mlecular level
From: Zarko Kecman
On 1999/12/08 18:05, Zarko Kecman posted thus to the K-list:
-----Original Message-----
From: Jenell <anglfthrATnospamiamerica.net>
To: Zarko Kecman <icemanATnospaminecco.net>
Cc: kundaliniATnospamList-Server.net <kundaliniATnospamList-Server.net>
Date: Wednesday, December 08, 1999 4:52 PM
Subject: Re: [K-list] mlecular level
>> And after all, I have experience of that. The man is a most perfect
>> machine on the Earth
>
>This observation is an ego identifcation. The ego finds ways o put
>'perfection' into a persepctive that makes it seem to be 'most perfect'.
I understud what are you tolking about. But, I must admit, that I will not
fight with my Ego. This is too stupid for me. I know, that somwhere in
the time of my life, I will reach the point where Ego will be to big to
pass trough this passage. I am not afraid of ego. Let me explain.
This is one experience, that I will deliver in some kind of metaphoric.
Let say, that man is on big space shuttle (ok, maybe little space shuttle,
whatever)
So, navigation system is our mind. Our body, and every single mechanism
in our body is a construction of ship. I will not spread this observation,
because I think that is understudable from now.
Once in the time I was look at ego, like some enemy, but why. In this
form of reality, ego is also my protection of vacuum of the space where
I exist. If I am not prepered, I can go mad without Ego, because,
ego is not only something bad. There is nothing on the Earth, that is
clearly black without any white in self.
So, let's go to the next point.
Who navigate with that ship. Me :), not ego, ego is only a some kind of
protection in this vacuum. So, some part of this space ship is
1. feelings
2. attachments
3. space engine (for now, very small) (your own energy)
4. chakras
5. ida, sushumna, pingal blabla
6. mind
7. concisneness
8. etc. etc.
9. Oh, almost forget. Ego or yours not truly individuality
10. Ah, and at last. YOU.
Where is the problem in the ordinary life.
Ok. For me, problem is, because, in ordinary, unconcisneness life,
everything is master
on that ship. Every single point from 1 to 9, except 10.
When point 10 realise, that she is master of that ship, only then, you can
play the game
with this ship, and on navigation system (6) get right destination.
Why somebody look at ego in some sort of indenpendent form. Ego is all 1-8
points on the list. Why?
For me, because you are not accept responsibility for that ship. Because
somebody don't
know that he is a pilot in that ship.
But there is something missing. It is a space engine. You need to make some
kind of
speed light to break to the other side of 'reallity'.
This is kundalini for me. That space engine.
But, what happened, when you turn on that engine on ship, who is in bad
condition.
Everything will break apart, and, lets start again, in new life. Maybe will
someone surwive this, but with lot of pain. And for
sure, with one big desist. (There must be aventil to put away all that
uncleaned samskara)
So, if you have wish to turn on that engine, first of all, take care, and
prepare your
ship for this.
>In truth, all within the All is perfect. In the existence within
>separated awareness, what we call 'to exist', on a level of individual
>awareness, or state of being, everything that exists does so as perfect,
>or it would not exists. If the awareness, or state of being of, say, a
>rock or a tree, was 'imperfect', it woud also not exists as a perfect
>rock or tree. It would be something else, or nthing at all, or still an
>undefined part of the wholeness of the All.
You can't be separeted from life. You are in life, only what you need is
to admit this to yourself. If you are not in life, where are you:))
I am in life. I am life. I am all. All is me. This is not intelectual.
This is my experience. When I left my ego, I will not be on the
list any more. Perheps in this reality either.
What ever anybody say here (first me) is some kind of calculation.
You calculate.
Me either.
Everybody.
Just for small moment until now, you have a short time enlightening.
So almost everybody on the earth make calculation, with felling, atachments,
minds...
When you realise, that 70% of love for your own child is calculation, when
you admit that
to your self, then you are go wery far away. Then, you can prepare your self
for trully love.
Love for all universe. Because, you are the universe. Where ever you look,
you are there.
>
>Those seeking the 'union' with the cosmic awareness often neglect or
>underestimate the less 'pleasant' aspects of that we experience related
>to it. Our very existence is dependent upon that separation of awareness
>from the all. That balance of being poised at the poist ust before the
>drop enters, merges with, the all, so as to come into awareness of the
>presence of the All, yet not go enough further as to 'lose one's self'
>within it, can be a difficult balance, is fraught with all sorts of
>difficultes. I am, and have been, experiencing some of this my own self
>for several years, but only recently consciously realized what it is
>that has brought some extreme discomfort, distress, into my being. I've
>come near enough nto the awareness of the All that I have, and am,
>'losing' parts of mysef, my ego, my identity, as I knew it before, and
>had become comfortable with. I didn't seek into awareness of the All for
>feeling unhappiness with who/what I was/am. I liked mysef, and who/what
>I was. What I am now suffering Ieve realized, is grief, a deep and
>terrible gref, for that person is was, her death. I loved her, and I
>miss her, and her death leaves me, with every part of her that dies,
>having t find a 'new' part to 'replace' it with. I see this as the
>transformationa process, the metamorphasis, into a 'new creature', as it
>is worded in biblical scripture. Something like process of the
>catapillar as it metamorphizes into the butterfly. It's very being has
>always been as a catapllar, a catapillar is who/what it 'is', it's
>'identity', it's perception of its 'existence' is entirey attached to
>it's catapilar form. At what point does the catapillar cease to exist,
>and a butterfly come into existence? Not an easy question to answer. In
>myself, I have become consciously aware that the catapillar Imy ego
>identified with is ceasing to exist, has already ceased to exist, is
>dead, yet I am also not yet transformed into a fully formed, recogniable
>(to my own sense of awareness of existence) butterfly. It is a painful
>place for our awareness to be in the transforamional process.
>
>While of course I'm excited about becoming the butterfly, look forward
>to when I can emerge from the cocoon, dry and shake out my wings, and
>fly, but for now, I grieve the death of the catapillar, and the process
>of it's dead body being 'digested' and re-structured into the creature,
>the butterfly, that is being brought into existence, being. I kind of
>like crawling around, munching on cabbage leaves, existing in a state in
>which life was easy, I knew what i was and what i was supposed to do,
>there are few really big choices in the existence of a catapillar. Just
>crawl, and eat whatever seems tasty as you come upon it. The looking
>forward to being the butterfly is at the same time both exciting, and
>terrifying.
Like child, I was 'flying'. (then people around me, told me that this is
only my big imagination.
Now, I seeking for that childhood, but now, with my fully concisneness).
I was creator in creation, creation in creator.
The one with my Father (I like to call him like this, but sometime, he is my
brother, and sometime he is my guru). Depend what I will calculate, but deep
inside, beyond calculation of Ego, there is trully love for my
father/brather/mother.
I reach this place every time in my meditation, but concept of this reality
is
very strong. I must meditate every day to avoid the power of colective
unconcisneness.
Belivet or not. She is live, and she tie you down. That was kundalini do for
me.
Break this attachments and carry you up and up. But be aware, because if the
strongest
attachments is not realise and put away, maybe, after all, kundalini will
not have anything
to carry on the top of the mountain. Only pieces.
>
>Jenell
>
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