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Recieved: 1999/12/05 06:24
Subject: Re: [K-list] Accidents
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 1999/12/05 06:24, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
Mystress wrote:
>> I had
>> been fighting with my boyfriend, before I burnt the wart off, and
>> afterwards he could not get a rise out of me.. I was seeing thru his
>> efforts at manipulation, from the witness state without judging him, and
>> thus was immune to them.
Endorphin-induced Samadhi... :)
At 06:45 PM 12/3/99 , Jenell wrote:
>in others, where there is that kind of thing present, things are really
being affected. Those people, no longer able to get the reactions out of me
they once did, their feelings of loosing power over me they once felt they
had, are becoming serious sources of difficulties in my life.>>>>>>
The Celestine prophecies have a simplisitc but thorough explanation of
control dynamics, the strategies people use to steal energy from each
other when they are cut off from source.
The hardest of the 4 dynamics for spiritual people to not fall prey to,
is the "poor me" type who exploit people's natural compassion and sympathy,
as a weakness to drink your blood. Especially the "wounded birds" who do a
broken wing dance to get your attention to "rescue" them from thier
self-created dramas, and lead you to just where they want you.
I think of these people as "professional victims", and they remind me of
a scene from "Monty Python and the Holy Grail". A beggar loses one leg to
the Romans, and starts getting more money begging, with one leg than two,
so he cuts off the other leg, himself so he will get even more money from
sympathetic strangers. :)
Funny joke when the Pythons tell it, but in countries where begging is a
job, people have been known to mutilate thier own children to make their
"career" as a beggar more profitable. Here in Vancouver the part of town
that is a "shooter's alley", full of heroin addicts, people have been known
to go looking for an HIV positive needle to deliberately infect themselves
to get a bigger welfare check.
Professional victims. Being a professional bully, I've attracted
plenty of them. :)
>I.E., they have worked to try to make me insecure, then try to convince me
I 'need' them.
Ah the strategies of Patriarchy.. scare people with stories of Hellfire
Damnation, to make them insecure and obedient.
Occasionally someone shows up in my life trying to persuade me that
Goddess within me is wrong, and my intuitive wisdom is foolish. Such a
person does not have my best interests in mind, and they get ejected pretty
quickly.
>the effect of my now being so calm and unaffected, is that their efforts
>are getting stronger, trying still to get what they used to, and of
>course, now it doesn't.
Of course. What these vampires want from you, is literally, your life
energy. They don't understand that themselves, why they do the games of ego
they do.. but you can see it, from where you live.. you have more awareness.
It is your resistance to giving it to them, that is getting you stuck.
You are taking on thier "energy is scarce" projections. Energy is
limitless. The way to get rid of these people, is to love bomb them out of
your life.
You've outgrown them. Time to move on, but as you do send them a parting
gift of Shakti, by remote. You are probably good at getting in touch with
the higher selves of the people who are annoying you, so deal with it on
that level, seeking a win-win. Don't think scarcity, be generous with your
love.
These people are after you because they *want* something from you. Send
them Shakti, with the intention that it manifest as whatever they need,
that they were trying to get, from you. You don't need to know what it is
they need, just bless them and trust that Goddess provides. Bless them on
out of your life. Make room for new abundance.
I had a stalker who was harassing me. I knew he was unemployed so I cast
a blessing for him to get a great job, with great people and good pay and
benefits, in another city far from the torment of my nearness. 3 weeks
later he left a note in my door, telling me goodbye because he was moving..
he'd gotten a great job, in another city, far away... etc.
Most of the people who were in my life 8 years ago, are not in my life
anymore... and I don't miss any of them. I outgrew them and they fell out
of touch.
Other friends, I can go for years without seeing them, and we pick up
right where we left off.. the friendship trancends space, time and need, to
be unconditional.
Simply put, I'm hanging around a much better class of folks, these days.
The game players moved on and people who want to soar and be real, came in
to replace them.
>I've tried to talk to both the main ones
>involved, find a way to defuse what is fast headed toward a situation in
>wich I have no choice but to break these relationship entirely, has
>failed, the idea is simply beyond their ability to understand, I think.
Yes, it is. In order to change the vampiric behavior they need to
grow some self esteem and *own* thier hungry shadow. You cannot give them
that, it has to come from within. If you play along with it, you are
enabling them to continue the negative behavior.
You can love them and let them go. Bless them on out of your life. Thier
ego cannot understand what you are talking about, anymore than you can
persuade someone that they are an alcoholic, before they are ready to say
so, themselves. They are not ready to see it, forgive them and go over
thier head.. speak to their higher self about the situation. Give that part
of them energy generously, to help manifest a solution that is in the
highest good of all.
I think, basically these people are in your life to teach you how to
handle this control dynamic, so you will no longer be vulnerable to those
games you have outgrown. Or, as one of my students said to me, "Thier goat
shit does't fertilize you anymore".
> But the more unaffected i am the worse they are getting, and
>the closer they are pushing me to HAVING to make that kind of choice, to
>remove them from my life. And the irony is that the very thing they fear
>happening, the reason they are getting worse, is the very thing they are
>pushing toward happening.
Of course. Fear is very creative. The more energy they give it, the
more they pull it to them selves.
As you move up the tree, love opens to wider and wider forms till it is
All that Is. Sometimes people have to manifest thier worst fears, and
survive them, to move on from the stuck place. That's what I do with
roleplay.
Helping people to hit bottom sooner, so they have no-place to go but up,
is an act of love practiced by judges and policemen... and by Shakti.
You are radiating a Shakti-field that explodes and reveals the
ego-content of "good intentions" that are the road to Hell on Earth. Thiers
and your own.
The shit they get away with, around other folks who are not so
perceptive, and fall for it, shoots them in the foot, around you. Your own
good intentions around them are the vulnerability they exploit.. so your
own good intentions of "how spiritual people behave" are tripping you up,
too.
Shakti created this situation, to put you in a place to make a free will
choice to grow.
It really comes down to whether you want to be the crutch, the *enabler*
of their vampire addiction by buying into thier belief in thier own
helplessness, or whether you choose to give them a "tough love" slap upside
the head and remind them that they are God.
I recently described the difference between compassion and unconditional
love, thusly: Compassion will reach out to help you climb out of the hole,
unconditional love will smile at you while you figger out how to get out of
it, yourself, so you can discover how powerful you are.
Burning the wart off, catapulted me into a Samadhi of unconditional love,
where my boyfriend's manipulations required no response from me. A very
different head space from the co-dependent game playing, the
passionate/compassionate ego space of our lover's quarrels.
Your vampires don't want your unconditional love, it feels like nothing
to them, frustrating like uncaring apathy. They want your compassion.
Realize, that compassion can take the form of a Zen Master's stick giving
you a whack upside the head.. and generously give them what you percieve
they are asking for with thier unconscious actions, instead of what thier
ego says they want.
That's the kind of love that trancends the ego's desire to be "nice", and
"safe", in order to make a leap of faith to play "bad cop", that is a gift
to the recipient, tho their ego might not appreciate it, for years.
The ethics of this are delicate, because it is easy to use this
rationale as an excuse to be a complete asshole, and start your own
inquisiton.. But of you are dealing with people who are giving you thier
problems, then they are also giving consent for you to handle their
problems as you think best.. if playing "bad cop" with a Zen stick is
aligned with Divine Will, then there will be no negative karmic feedback.
>Any thoughts on how to handle such matters?
>Jenell
There ya go..
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