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Recieved: 1999/08/13 19:28
Subject: Re: [K-list] Shaktipat. was: ldentity of my swami
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent


On 1999/08/13 19:28, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:


At 12:37 PM 8/11/99 , you wrote:
> )))))))))))))HELLO ANGELIQUE: Thank you for your comments on my post about
>my former swami. l agree with what you've said about Swami's intention in
>letting me go,as it has also been my feeling for some time that he concluded
>that my body was giving a clear signal that it did not want any more of his
>energy; thus his decision to send me away. '
  Well, I didn't really think it would not have occurred to you to look for
perfection... :)

> l knew l'd made a mistake in letting this disciple
>dissuade me from what my body had been clearly saying and that l wouldn't
let
>it happen again.
  :) But it didn't go away yet... yoikes...
l
> l just missed him, as l
>still do to this day.
 
>But
>l also grew to love him--not out of any guru-dependency, but for other
>reasons: he had tremendous integrity and love for his students. lt didn't
>hurt that he was from a small town in lndiana, not far from me, and was
about
>my age. l felt he would do anything to help me.
 The love that is shared between Guru and seeker is a very very beautiful
thing..:) I'm sure he misses you too, a little. He would do anything to
help you.. even letting you go... :)

>))))))))))))) This is the point at which l have struggled the most. You're
>right--based on my experience l don't trust limitless manifestation to take
>care of me, and l cannot say you are wrong about letting it go, particularly
>in that l've been hearing a voice within me saying the same thing for years
>now. But what about the voice of my body when it seems to be violently
>rebelling against the energy? Maybe it does represent the limited beliefs
of
>my ego, but its reactions are still real enough. How do you ignore it when
>you feel like you've been wearing a skullcap for over 6 yrs that becomes
>unbearingly tight with any attempt to focus, or with a stomach that begins
to
>wretch when you do the same? l look forward to
any
>comments (from anyone) and thank you again for your post.
>jerry
 ???? Jerry, thankyou for describing your symptoms more clearly. Those
don't sound like K-blockage symptoms to me, they sound like the effects of
a resident parasitic entity. I'm not sure how I can describe what the
difference is, in words, between a blockage and an entity since thoughts
are things and consciousness is a property of matter..:) On some level,
everything is conscious... But your symptoms are coming from an entity..
I'm 98% positive. :) If it was your body clearing stuff, it would be done
by now. I've seen the same symptoms many times before.. headaches,
difficulty focusing and stomach knots.. classic.
  I could give you a ritual to clear it yourself, but it probably wouldn't
let you focus, enough to do it. I think I can clear them out of you in
about 10 minutes, by remote, if you let me.. If you give me your consent to
do some work on you, it cannot do any harm and it might do a lot of good!
   St. Germain told me.. "We are healed, thru each other"..:)
 Blessings..:)
>

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