To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/04/26 16:10
Subject: [K-list] Re: request for help
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 1999/04/26 16:10, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
Hiya:
A few days ago I had a computer crash that wiped out most of my
seldom-filtered inbox. A few folks had sent me requests for help that I had
not gotten to responding to yet.. sorry.. please resend them, as they are
gone..
Queries sent to the K list website mail address
<MystressATnospamList-Server.net> I usually forward to the list. This is a
response I wrote to someone who posted me at my own domain,
<serpentATnospamdomin8rex.com>.. asking how to shut down the K.
The query was private mail, so I have snipped it, but I am feeling
strongly moved to repost my answer to the list.. so I guess it contains
answers someone else is looking for, too.. as Goddess Wills..
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Hello:
I sat on your post for a few days, because I know what to tell you,
but it's not what you want to hear.
Kundalini is the God-force, infinite wisdom and unconditional love,
awake and active in the human body.. you cannot shut it off, once it has
started. You must surrender to it, as one would surrender to a hurricane.
To try to stand against it is to be injured by it's power.
You have been chosen to be a Temple of Divine Spirit.. and the side
effects you are feeling these last 5 years, is the process of your body
being remodeled into a Temple. You cannot stop it, but if you surrender to
it, it won't upset you so much.
The difficulties you are having, come of your fear and resistance to the
process. Your actions have an equal and opposite reaction, in that way.. it
is like being arrested by the police.. you can go quietly, and trust the
legal process to sort things out.. or resist and they will have to do nasty
things to subdue you and make you come anyways.
Believe me, trying to shut it down is much, much worse for you than
letting it have it's own way. This is the God-force.. you can trust it
absolutely, with your life. It gave you life, and now it is taking that
life, and chipping away the Karma and limiting fears from your mind, to
make you into a perfected Self.. a vessel of Divine Grace. You asked for
this, before you were born.
Part of the process of clearing out old fearful beliefs, to make room
for Spirit, tends to be quite emotional. The emotional content of the old
bad memories comes up again to be released, like Goddess is cleaning out
your closets, as part of the renovation.
How to deal with this, so that it becomes a burp instead of weeks of
agony... is actually, very simple. First, you must learn to get grounded.
A website on how to do that is
http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent/spirit/ground.htm
Then, while you are grounded, you must imagine that your life is a movie,
and you are an actor in it, so deeply immersed in your role that you have
forgotten that you are acting. At the back of your mind, or higher up above
you is the producer/director, who watches.. without judging the emotions
the actors express, or the content of the script.. Imagine that you are
that watcher, and observe yourself while you are being emotional.
You will find that this will give you great wisdom about the higher
purposes of the events in your life, and let you be at peace, even when
there is turmoil around you.
It feels kind of odd, sometimes tho, because this peace is an emotionless
state. Some folks who have felt it, have compared it to the apathy that is
depression, but it is not that. When you are in this state, others will see
you as a wonderful person who expresses unconditional love. However, this
"Watcher", or "Witness" state, being the producer of the movie that is your
life.. This is a Divine perspective. We can feel things because of
polarity.. light and shadows together make a movie. Blinding light, or
complete darkness we can see nothing. Unconditional love without polarity
feels like nothing.. but from that place of being the "Witness", you will
get insights that allow you to release the emotions more easily..
surrendering them to Divine Wisdom to resolve for you. Letting the
Kundalini take care of you. Safe in Goddess arms.
When you are emotional say out loud "Spirit, (Goddess, God, Jesus, Light,
Great Spirit, doesn't matter, they are all One Love.. use whatever name you
can put faith in.) Please take this from me. It is a Gift for you, yours.
thankyou Very much."
Then empty your mind by focusing on taking a deep breath.. breathing
right into your stomach.. and another one... into your feet, into the Earth..
You might feel an odd sensation, like the emotions are rising up thru you
and going out your head. Imagine the top of your head is opening like a
flower and they are floating up like pollen... disappearing in the sun.
Then check in with your emotions again. You will find they have changed.
Look inside of yourself, to see what else needs to be released, and give it
up the same way. Do this over and over with your feelings, fears and
regrets, until you feel better.. and ask the Light to fill in all the
spaces where the stuff you released used to be.. other wise you might feel
kind of "empty", afterwards. It will, and you will feel miraculously
transformed. It is the energy of miracles, that is awake within you.
When you are being the "Witness", you will realize that who you think
you are, has two parts. There is the emotional you who has the fears and
hurts, and there is the "Witness" you, who watches all of this taking
place. Gradually you will get to know the two parts of you.. the part of
you that fears, which I call "Ego", will become smaller as it's fears are
released, and you will begin to identify your "self", more with the part of
you that is Divine. The "Witness", will come forth to shape your life with
it's wisdom, and share unconditional love and peace with everyone whom it
meets. That is how the prayer expressed in your sig file, will come to
pass. Change the world, by changing within yourself. K. does that. It is
love.
You cannot stop the Kundalini.. What God wants, God gets.. You were born
to be a vessel of Spirit, and now the time has come for you to become that,
as the time comes for the caterpillar to become a butterfly. As the time
came, for your child self to become your adult self, now it is time for
your adult self to give way to your Higher self. Your soul purpose. Stop
fighting it.
If you surrender to it, it will become such a blessing to you, that you
will not worry anymore about being "normal".
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Blessings..
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