1997/10/01 22:16
kundalini-l-d Digest V97 #483
kundalini-l-d Digest Volume 97 : Issue 483
Today's Topics:
Re: Kundalini virtual conferences (dream or reality?)
Re: Changing our DNA? INDEEDY...
Re: Night Terrors
Grey Okay...Reptoid?
Re: Need to find Yoga Association in UK to point me to kundalini classes
Re: Kundalini Awakening
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Re: Grey Okay...Reptoid?
Re: Changing our DNA? INDEEDY...
Re: Kundalini Awakening
Re: Negativity
reality & fantasy
Re: Changing our DNA? INDEEDY...
Re: Kundalini Awakening
Date: Wed, 01 Oct 1997 16:39:30 PDT
From: "Joseph Miller" <joemillerATnospamhotmail.com>
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: Kundalini virtual conferences (dream or reality?)
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>Nancy (by way of Mystress Angelique Serpent ) wrote:
> But it did get me thinking...Does anyone think it would be fun to have
> a
> k conference? It could be at a physical location or virtual. We could
> have k-related products and services to browse through. Different
> "speakers" could tell personal experiences and share theories. Maybe
> kundalini yoga would fit in. It's the idea that came to me as I woke
> with a start at 4:30 a.m. following this dream.
>
Actually, depending on how you want to stretch the definition, there is
one or two and maybe several each year of the physical type. The
stretching would include all conferences on Trans-Personal Psychology
which can get into these issues. The international conferences of SEN
(Spiritual Emergence Network) and KRN (Kundalini Research Network) are
held once a year (more often than not in the US but last year in Germany
for both) and I believe SEN has regional conferences in California and
perhaps other locations in addition to the international one.
The SEN, I believe, is more for psychrinks than for us common folk and
they talk more of spiritual emergencies and such terms than Kundalini
but they are really talking about difficult processes when they say that
(since I've never been I could be wrong on some of this). Their URL is:
http://elfi.com/sen/
KRN has a mix of psychologists/counselors/etc., spiritual seekers,
people who relate their experiences in process, as well as one or two
experts from Asia (Swamis, etc.). In general I'd say the speakers run
the length of the spectrum as far as qualifications and knowledge (I
feel I can say that, I was one a couple of years ago in Philadelphia).
Next year it will be in Atlanta, I believe. I've included a bit of
"spam" from their home page about their conferences that has information
about the one this year:
Annual Symposium
The Network meets annually to present new findings, review and plan
research projects, collaborate on articles and meet others interested in
Kundalini research. An
ongoing call for papers is posted; if you would like to submit an
article for presentation at the next symposium, please indicate your
interest on the attached
application form. Audio tapes of previous symposiums are available.
The next Annual International Symposium will be held Nov 6-9, 1997 in
Mt. Madonna Center, in WatsonVille, CA. The theme will be Sacred Energy,
Spiritual
Traditions and Quantum Evolution. Call for papers is closed by April 15,
1997. Proposals should include name, address, phone number, personal
academic and
professional qualifications, and one-page synopsis of your thesis or
proposed program. Mail to:
KRN Symposium
PO Box 1150
Cupertino, CA 95015
Phone (408) 257-6241
Their URL is: http://vitalenergy.com/krn/
The last I heard web page was maintained by someone from another
organization as a free service and only gets updated when info is sent
to them from KRN, it is not the flashiest on the web.
I don't know of a virtual conference but there are conferences out
there.
Namaste,
Joe
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Date: Wed, 1 Oct 1997 19:42:42 -0400 (EDT)
From: GoodwulfeATnospamaol.com
To: trimbleATnospamhawaii.edu
cc: Kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: Changing our DNA? INDEEDY...
Message-ID: <971001194031_1957364655ATnospamemout02.mail.aol.com>
Ruth, Yes, I have "heard" of the mutation of the DNA, however, I sincerely
believe that I am a "human", and am living my life as one on this planet. I
originally discovered the theory about the 12 strand DNA about 5 yrs. ago,
after a healing session with a friend. Its sounded interesting at the
time, as she explained it to me, "your guides are changing your DNA, as we
speak..." Well, let me tell you, my DNA remains the same, however my health
has declined rapidly.
I think we really need to stay grounded in the here and now as we all
"TRANSFORM" spiritually, and not let our "chains be yanked" by every New Age
guru who sells books and does the circuit tour. . .
I dont personally take the word "Transform" literally. I dont believe
our DNA is changing. I think its meant to be a metaphor... much like all
the Biblical writings.
Geez, if we took all this stuff LITERALLY, We should all be walking
around with X-ray vision, and be able to leap tall buildings in a single
bound. Sorry, I got all carried away with that DNA stuff years ago, and it
went nowhere. Ive evolved spiritually. We all have. We will all continue
to do so until we die, hopefully.
My original question to you about "how do you know our DNA is being
manipulated", WAS meant literally. Have yours checked out. I'll just bet
its the same as it always was. Just a hunch...
Namaste! Kelly
T
Date: Wed, 1 Oct 1997 20:50:14 -0400 (EDT)
From: SchrLLATnospamaol.com
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: Night Terrors
Message-ID: <971001204500_454907009ATnospamemout05.mail.aol.com>
In a message dated 97-10-01 03:45:46 EDT, you write:
<< From: sashankaATnospamaismi.ais.it (Sen Ashanka)
Hi Eric,
>How do I surrender to the process while asleep? Much of my K activity
>seems to happen while asleep. The roar I speak of has in the past been
>isolated to my head. This is the first time it was my entire body. I
>felt as though my body was going to disintegrate from the vibration and
>sound.
Yes, yes, your experience is very similar to what I have been through
several times.
In the beginning these "escapes" out of the body felt as though I was going
through
the Niagara falls. Sometimes they were smooth exits out of the body.
For the past one year have established a regular "japa" done through out
the day. "Japa" is an Indian terms meaning the regular chanting of your
favourite
God. So in this manner our mind and attention is constantly controlled and
concentrated. While going to sleep also I have tried to get full body
relaxation while trying to chant the name of the Lord. In this manner, during
sleep, the consciousness "jumps" out of the body and then you are wide awake,
but can move around, rise, float and you might even be able to "see" your
lifeless body.
>This is the first time it was my entire body. I felt as though my body was
going to disintegrate from the vibration and sound.
The Indian texts say that matter is condensed energy, and can be
transferred from one form to another by will. This is exactly what you felt,
and what you felt is very much the truth.
Regular control of the mind through meditation, or chanting, or reading
spiritual texts could be very helpful. There are, however, a lot of things
to do once you are out of the body. That's something I am trying to figure
out myself, and have received lots of help and guidance from members of the
list who have travelled this path.
Cheers and love to all
Ashanka
>>
ATnospam->->--Well this sounds familiar. My experience was that I did not appreciate
those wandering about at night entering my space while I slept. Fortunately,
I have an inner alarm. When the energy gets too wierd, my left ear starts
ringing and keeps ringing until I wake up. ATnospam->->-- Linda
Date: Wed, 1 Oct 1997 14:52:47 -1000
From: Ruth Trimble <trimbleATnospamhawaii.edu>
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Grey Okay...Reptoid?
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Okay Mystress... so the Greys are not so scary -- but how come they have
no emotions yet their terror is REAL? They are here because they are
terrified of the fact that in 2012 they cease to exist... and they are in
despair... incredible despair to try to remedy their past loss of the
emotional body...isn't this emotion? Well whatever... the point I made
was not so much about them.. but.......
What about the REPTOIDS who are the real meanies... and the DRACO... ?
Tell us more about their role here... aren't these the guys who want our
real estate for mining and resources?
I thought the Greys were pretty insipid and that they were like slave sto
the REPTOIDS... these guys have metal bodies I believe... no emotions
either....what are they doing with us?
Oh Mystress...I am not afraid of greys... by the way... I met one once and
the hair on my body stood on end.. but I was just indignant that it had
the nerve to enter my domain. I was NOT afraid...though my body was. It
fled. No match for a true goddess, it seems. SO... I am not sure who
you were referring to in your letter about the GReys.. but it does not
apply to me.
Ruth
*****
Date: Wed, 01 Oct 1997 19:08:44 +0000
From: Nancy <NancyATnospammagiccity.com>
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: Need to find Yoga Association in UK to point me to kundalini classes
Message-ID: <34329FB9.1296ATnospammagiccity.com>
Hi Tom,
Re: your request for kundalini yoga (and someone else's a while ago),
the web page for the organization is
http://www.yogibhajan.com/ikyta.html
They have yoga teachers listed all over the world.
Hope this helps.
Namaste,
Nancy
Date: Wed, 1 Oct 1997 21:09:46 -0400 (EDT)
From: CKRESSATnospamaol.com
To: GoodwulfeATnospamaol.com
cc: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: Kundalini Awakening
Message-ID: <971001210837_727848644ATnospamemout02.mail.aol.com>
To Kelly and everyone lurking,
This is in response to your desperate plea for an explanation for your
painful Kundalini process. I too have been suffering for years with the same
kind of tormenting symptoms you mention, plus disabling spine pain that at
times is excruciating. I also have the same type of character qualities you
describe: compassionate, courageous, self-sacrificing, with a compelling need
to serve and give to others.
As to whether your condition is Kundalini or an underlying disease, the two
are not mutually exclusive and both can occur simultaneously. I know
Kundalini is active in me because no disease I've ever heard of has the
bizarre scope of the things I've experienced (and still experience daily).
Like you, I've had little in the way of bliss, but I've had so many powerful
mystical, psychic and paranormal experiences which nothing but active
Kundalini could explain.
It will probably grate on your nerves to be told that some of the
inflammation (I have it too -- horrendous!) is due to repressed anger. I've
discovered this is partly true in my case, but not as might be imagined. My
anger is from a part of me that is enraged over how terribly I've suffered,
not just with Kundalini, but on all levels throughout my life. I discovered
I have been forcing myself to live up to superhuman expectations of
selflessness. I've learned that some of my Kundalini pain is due to
overdeveloping my altruistic side, leaving me with a deep imbalance where I
need -- and am slowly learning -- to be more generous and gentle to myself.
I also saw that I have tremendous difficulty forgiving God (and the
Universe) for imposing suffering on any living being for any reason. These
are profound angers of the soul, not your garden variety
"I'm-mad-at-so-and-so."
In addition to the compulsory yoga we both have experienced, I've had
spontaneous and totally unexpected releases of devastating grief, terror and
re-lived trauma from childhood abuses I thought I had already gotten past. I
can sense there is a lot more in me that needs to come up before my system is
unblocked and the energy can move freely.
It occurred to me in late '92 was that there must be hundreds or thousands of
us, struggling in isolation through overwhelming pain, fear and the overall
enormity of this process. That's when C. Kress and I began Shared
Transformation (Kundalini support) newsletters. It is a miracle we've been
able to keep the newsletter going these past 5 years while I've been entirely
bedridden in agony for months at a time, and even on my "good" days I can't
sit or stand for very long.
We continue to hear from people from all over the world who are going through
this -- over 1200 to date. I would estimate that between 5-10% are as
relentlessly sick as you and I. At the other end of the spectrum, another
5-10% experience no illness or pain, only powerful energies, bliss and
mystical/psychic phenomena. Dr. Yvonne Kason, in her excellent book A
FARTHER SHORE, says that people like you and me who have the rare pattern of
nonstop Kundalini activity are the most likely to endure severe physical or
mental/emotional symptoms. For what comfort it may bring, many shamans
believe that those of us who have the hardest time with this will undergo the
most radical self-transformation.
Who has the final say as to whether or not it is really Kundalini? I would
give that honor to Kundalini herself. If she has come to reside within you,
in one way or another she makes her presence and her reality known. Even
people who have gone through this a decade or longer without ever hearing the
word "Kundalini" have come to realize some kind of immense spiritual force
was at work.
I've asked myself the same kinds of questions you have: "What's the point of
all this suffering? How can I continue to serve when I can barely survive?"
One of the answers that came to me was that I have already learned how to
serve; now I must learn to let go of my idea of who I'm supposed to be and
love myself as much as I've loved others. I'm also being shown that even
suffering has a divine, ultimately benevolent purpose. Not that suffering in
itself is something noble or good, but that suffering's purpose is to awaken.
Most people cannot spiritually and psychologically mature without it.
Bliss and joyous experiences are inspirational and validating, while
suffering and hardship break us, allowing us to be changed in ways we didn't
know we needed. Many people with catastrophic illnesses and those who go
through other crises in life which "break" them are then able to experience
new ways of being which are far more whole and fulfilling than ever before.
I suspect that when I am able to realize this, not simply intellectually as I
do now, but in the deepest recesses of my psyche, I will regain my trust in
the universe and simultaneously be freed from much pain. It's a paradox.
When we can fully accept something (not just resign ourselves to it, but
fully surrender to it -- which, again, paradoxically may mean allowing
ourselves to rage and scream and howl and weep), only then does it change.
I haven't gotten this far yet with my physical pain, but I have watched this
pattern repeat itself in many other circumstances where I seemed to be
hopelessly stuck. There are probably more causes to the pain than what I've
brought up here, and even if I understood them all it would still hurt. But
it does help me somewhat to find these answers to my own "why?" I hope it
will be of some help to you as well.
Sorry if I ranted on so long.
El Collie
Date: Wed, 1 Oct 1997 15:26:12 -1000 (HST)
From: Zak Fleming <Cloud_SephATnospamAol.com>
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: AutoPost from Kundalini Resource Center
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Not Applicable sorry...
Date: Wed, 01 Oct 1997 19:30:13 +0000
From: Nancy <NancyATnospammagiccity.com>
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: Grey Okay...Reptoid?
Message-ID: <3432A4BF.6EEEATnospammagiccity.com>
All this talk about the aliens...Maybe it's true, but I have enough to
deal with right now without adding ALIENS into the mix! Phew...life is
complicated enough. : ) And besides, even if they are "real" and out to
get us, they can't have our essence, our soul.
Namaste,
Nancy
Date: Wed, 1 Oct 1997 15:28:02 -1000
From: Ruth Trimble <trimbleATnospamhawaii.edu>
To: GoodwulfeATnospamaol.com
cc: Kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: Changing our DNA? INDEEDY...
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Dear Kelly:
You Say:
Ruth, Yes, I have "heard" of the mutation of the DNA, however, I sincerely
> believe that I am a "human", and am living my life as one on this
You are human... and you are on this planet.. but your idea of what that
means has been genetically altered for some thousands of years... what you
call "normal" is actually "abnormal" and what I am saying to you is.. you
are returning to "normal" which is 12 strands of DNA which allow you to
connect to all your birthright. You don't have to believe it
...girl...but it is obvious to me... and I write to you with my
experience. Take it or leave it.
> speak..." Well, let me tell you, my DNA remains the same, however my health
> has declined rapidly.
HOW do you know you are still 2 strand DNA?
I would venture to propose to you Kelly that the reason your health has
declined is for the type of attitude you have displayed here.. your mind
will not believe it... so you are in denial. ...= sickness
> I think we really need to stay grounded in the here and now as we all
> "TRANSFORM" spiritually, and not let our "chains be yanked" by every New Age
> guru who sells books and does the circuit tour. . .
Oh DEAR... what a lot of hurt in this... Have a hug. Kelly,
I am very much on the ground...and I am not letting my chains
be yanked by NEW AGE anything.. I respect this list enough to write
carefully about what I KNOW to be happening... I would like however to ask
you how you transform spiritually and stay entirely on the ground.... if
you are sick.. is that your way of staying in the body... Are you afraid
of leaving your body? These are questions that are worth asking.. for
this "grounding" business is very significant for people with K.
Awakening.
I had a big problem with it when I first got shaktipat and had to
literally hold on to trees and eat a ton of potatoes just to not float
off.
>
I dont personally take the word "Transform" literally. I dont believe
> our DNA is changing. I think its meant to be a metaphor... much like all
> the Biblical writings.
NOT according to everything that I have read.. and see my posting again..
it is about the ability to communicate with other dimensions... our
guides, our gurus.. our non-earth relatives and such.
This is not a metaphor in my definition.
> Geez, if we took all this stuff LITERALLY, We should all be walking
> around with X-ray vision, and be able to leap tall buildings in a single
> bound.
WELL some of us can do this... why not you.. what are you afraid of?
Take it literally and take off your limitions.. I bet you would get over
your illness tomorrow if you just allowed yourself to be the divine
essence that you are.. does God have limits? ARe you not God incarnate?
Why have limits.... ?? That is what the age we are in is about.. getting
rid of limitations and soaring to the dimensional heights that we are
entitled to as full God beings...
I think I have found out why you are so disappointed with the K. in you
and have illness.. you just don't believe in it. I'd see a psychic to
clear out of you some OLD conditioning and programming.. This is advice.
Sorry, I got all carried away with that DNA stuff years ago, and it
> went nowhere.
You can only speak for yourself.. and I am sorry for you that you are
disappointed.
> Ive evolved spiritually. We all have. We will all continue
> to do so until we die, hopefully.
So there is hope for you too...
> My original question to you about "how do you know our DNA is being
> manipulated", WAS meant literally. Have yours checked out. I'll just bet
> its the same as it always was. Just a hunch...
I think you are a Newtonian Physics person in a Quantum Physics universe..
you are going to have a haaaard time in the coming millennium.. with this
understanding... Do you think all you are is a body? Do you have to have
empirical evidence to believe something? I am in no
doubt that until you shed these mind-blocks or neuro-blockers in your
understanding you will continue to limit yourself.
There is a book called "The Pleidean Workbook" by Amorah Quan Yin and she
explains how to undo the programming of the brain that is limiting your
ability to be your full self... it is really quite easy.....
but then ... it is a New Age book....ho hum...
Good luck, Ruth
*****
Date: Wed, 01 Oct 1997 19:02:34 +0100
From: Gloria Greco <lodpressATnospamintercomm.com>
To: CKRESSATnospamaol.com
CC: GoodwulfeATnospamaol.com, kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com, rtrATnospammicron.net
Subject: Re: Kundalini Awakening
Message-ID: <34329037.2636ATnospamintercomm.com>
CKRESSATnospamaol.com wrote:
>
> To Kelly and everyone lurking,
>
> This is in response to your desperate plea for an explanation for your
> painful Kundalini process. I too have been suffering for years with the same
> kind of tormenting symptoms you mention, plus disabling spine pain that at
> times is excruciating. I also have the same type of character qualities you
> describe: compassionate, courageous, self-sacrificing, with a compelling need
> to serve and give to others.
>
> As to whether your condition is Kundalini or an underlying disease, the two
> are not mutually exclusive and both can occur simultaneously. I know
> Kundalini is active in me because no disease I've ever heard of has the
> bizarre scope of the things I've experienced (and still experience daily).
> Like you, I've had little in the way of bliss, but I've had so many powerful
> mystical, psychic and paranormal experiences which nothing but active
> Kundalini could explain.
Hi Ed,
Gloria here: is there a specific symptom that stands out above the
rest? I have worked with several terminal patients who learned
detachment and was able to disconnect from the pain. How much energy is
coming into your brain? Can you move it in your brain as an observer? If
so, you can connect up in the brain with the area in the body...there is
a specific technique you can do to releave this if you have brought
kundalini up high enough. All of what is you said here about anger, etc.
is true but their are ways of releasing from it. Gloria
>
>
>
> It occurred to me in late '92 was that there must be hundreds or thousands of
> us, struggling in isolation through overwhelming pain, fear and the overall
> enormity of this process. That's when C. Kress and I began Shared
> Transformation (Kundalini support) newsletters. It is a miracle we've been
> able to keep the newsletter going these past 5 years while I've been entirely
> bedridden in agony for months at a time, and even on my "good" days I can't
> sit or stand for very long.
GG
How very true, and more will enter into this picture, I would say that
number is way more then this. Most will not talk about it for fear of
others thinking they are insane. With the sound frequencies increasing
almost daily now we are going to see far more.
>
> We continue to hear from people from all over the world who are going through
> this -- over 1200 to date. I would estimate that between 5-10% are as
> relentlessly sick as you and I. At the other end of the spectrum, another
> 5-10% experience no illness or pain, only powerful energies, bliss and
> mystical/psychic phenomena. Dr. Yvonne Kason, in her excellent book A
> FARTHER SHORE, says that people like you and me who have the rare pattern of
> nonstop Kundalini activity are the most likely to endure severe physical or
> mental/emotional symptoms.
GG Give me more information and I will share what works for me. Gloria
>
Date: Wed, 1 Oct 1997 22:34:26 -0400 (EDT)
From: LibraKat11ATnospamaol.com
To: kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: Negativity
Message-ID: <971001223051_-1396592149ATnospamemout11.mail.aol.com>
Dear Antoine,
Thanks for the website. Unfortunately, I couldn't get into it. I'll try
again another time.
I've been K-awakened for 4 years now and am continually amazed (sometimes
appalled, often delighted!) at the way it works. I've been through stages of
heightened sensitivity to sound, odor, color, taste, and physical sensation,
but such sensitivity to negativity and discordance is rather new for me.
I appreciate your advice!
Love,
Kathy
Date: Wed, 1 Oct 1997 23:23:14 -0400
From: imtgATnospamjuno.com (tg xxx)
To: chooseagainATnospamthegrid.net
Cc: Kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: reality & fantasy
Message-ID: <19971001.232322.20310.4.imtgATnospamjuno.com>
M wrote....
<< I am not a big Bible person but even the New Age and previously
supressed
gospels all indicate He did >>>choose the cross<<< >>
I totally agree with this - my gosh! here's a man/mystic that could
perform some of the ultimate miracles - don't you think that he could
have chosen to say, ''hey bubs, this cross thing is for the birds - I'm
outta here!''
He chose to stay instead of walk away. I think there is an important
message in that itself. What it is, I don't know. I still tend to walk
away from crucifixion type situations if I am able to. That cross thing
really ties me up. Oh well.
xxxtg
"When you're swimmin' in the creek
And an eel bites your cheek
That's a moray!"
http://members.aol.com/Teeegeee/tgsplace.html <~~~~ on the web now!
Date: Thu, 2 Oct 1997 00:48:13 -0400 (EDT)
From: GoodwulfeATnospamaol.com
To: trimbleATnospamhawaii.edu
cc: Kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: Changing our DNA? INDEEDY...
Message-ID: <971002004811_-1564035992ATnospamemout15.mail.aol.com>
Ruth, My friend, get a grip, okay? You are a most insulting and
imperious personality. Just the type in my opinion who is NOT evolving
spiritually with much grace!
In the words of a famous Doctor (Deepak Chopra), " One thing is usually
certain, the people who go around telling everyone they're ENLIGHTENED, --
usually ARENT."
You actually BLAMED my health problems, which I might add you know
NOTHING about, on the fact that I dont accept or believe what YOU want me to
believe! Oh my! ! You stated " Your mind will not believe it... so you
are in denial..." Do you hear yourself? If there is a lesson for all
to learn here, it is to LISTEN to our OWN inner voice. Just because mine
DOESNT sound the same as yours, does NOT mean im in denial about YOUR
"Theory" . Get it now? ? ?
Do you believe that EVERYONE with Cancer, Lupus, AIDS, Leukemia, and so
on, is in denial about your DNA theory? ? ? Hmmm..... See what I mean?
I think you're a very cruel and selfish person, to try and make
someone who may be close to death, feel bad about what SHE knows to be true
in HER heart.
Perhaps someday the tables will be turned, and when you're down,
someone will kick you.
Not everyones life experiences are alike, Ruth. YOURS isnt the ONLY
theory on the planet either.
You mentioned " What are you afraid of"? " I bet you'd get
over your illness tomorrow if you just allowed yourself to be the divine
essence that you are."
You are truly not "Enlightened." No one of the LIGHT would EVER say
something so cruel and JUDGEMENTAL to someone so ill... You have no idea
who I "Am" Ruth, so take care when "JUDGING".
Hopefully I've opened your (THIRD) eye, just a little, to see that
there is more than one "idea" regarding our BEING here, and boy, if you're
any example of what it's like to have 12 strands of DNA, Im glad I've just
got 2. At least I still have a heart filled with LOVE.
God help us all, and bless us while your at it! ! !
Date: Thu, 2 Oct 1997 01:15:05 -0400 (EDT)
From: GoodwulfeATnospamaol.com
To: CKRESSATnospamaol.com
cc: Kundalini-lATnospamexecpc.com
Subject: Re: Kundalini Awakening
Message-ID: <971002011403_742112497ATnospamemout07.mail.aol.com>
My Dear Friend El Collie! ! Your letter was absolutely beautiful,
and given(and recieved) with such LOVE. God bless you. I was enthralled
with the likeness of mind we possess. I had no idea your experience almost
mirrors mine! ! I identified with EVERYTHING you said. It was as though I
was writing a letter to MYSELF.
Wow. I feel so uplifted already. I know that my suffering is the
greatest teacher I will have EVER known, and I am (oh my god...) yes,
BLESSED to have been given this gift. Its just that it does become
"blinding" at times... to see through the intense pain, the days and weeks
spent in bed, praying for a break, if not for just 10 minutes... just to
assess the situation from "normalcy" once again...
I will cherish your "being here" on the planet at the same time as I,
if not just to know, and FEEL that I actually have a "sister". Is it ok if
I feel that way about you? I cant help it. I have this simultaneous
Blessing/Curse of incredible sensitivity... When I feel Love, its the
greatest most powerful Love there is. On the other hand, I am so very
easily broken in my heart... A very sensitive area for me...
You understand, I know it. I feel really very BLESSED to have a
soul on the earth who actually cares enough about what Im experiencing, to
give of her energy in such a selfless loving way to convey her heart to me.
Thank you.
When my husband read your post, he said that he thought I had
written it. He knows me better than anyone. He has been my dearest
friend and healer throughout this whole...experience. I thank God for him
every day.
Well, Ive gone on far too long, and have become quite exhausted,
but I wanted to be sure and let you know how very much I appreciated your
beautiful post.
You hav'nt got as long a road to Awakening to the "bliss" as you
think...
Seems to me you're already there and you dont even know it.
May you have a pain free week, and the energy to do with it what
your sweet and loving heart desires.
Namaste! And so much Love, Kelly :-)
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