kundalini-l-d Digest				Volume 96 : Issue 223 

Date: Thu, 07 Nov 1996 
From: Tim Duna 
Subject: New to the list

Hello everyone, 

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        I am new to the list, so if any netiquette rules are borken, just
let me know.  

        I am twenty years old and have been meditating fairly recently, only
started about three years ago.  I first became aware of kundalini in my life
about six months after I started meditating.  I awakened it, and it felt
like a slow moving orgasm up the spine, it only reached up to the lower
back, and the only symptoms I had was a sore back for a few days afterward.
I was very aware of what it was, as I knew about it at the time from a book
I had, 'Kundalini and the Chakras'.   In my own unorthodox method of opening
the energy centers through breathing energy into them, literally sucking
energy with the mind and breath, I was able to bring in an overload of
energy in from the crown chakra which awakened the kundalini.  For about a
year or two, the only symptoms I had was a sore back, and mental images
coming up.  I can't remember if it was before or after the kundalini
awakening that I saw auras, but it was definitely a result from meditation,
as before I was not psychic.  I would see only the first layer.  

-        Then about a year and a half ago, I had a 'horrific' dark period
where I had thought I was possessed.  I was branching out and exploring
other aspects of spirituality at the time and used a talking board.  I asked
to get in touch with another part of my 'Self', this is exactly what I got.
I connected to a greater portion of me that was unable to incarnate fully.
When I reconnected with him, he sent more energy (karma) to me to be worked
through.  Not knowing what was happening, and *not* feeling myself, I truly
felt possessed.  I began to hear voices and feel energies more, this
happening when I began to stop seeing auras.  Six months of this 'possessed'
state I endured, trying everything in the book to get rid of the
'possessing' spirits.  I eventually was guided, at the right time, to a
psychic who was perfectly able to handle my needs on an energetic level.
She was able to call in the necessary help to aid my greater me, as he
suffered from energetic wounds in the chakras, actual damage to the
structure of the chakras.  

        It was this reason that the kundalini was not raised higher than the
lower back.  Now that I am reconnected, have my chakras all fixed, I am
healing 24/7 this past year.  Mine is unusual in that it is being done by
the greater me in the other dimension, yet I experience many strong
bleed-throughs for my learning experience.  It is as if I was embodying
fully a kundalini awakening, when in reality I am getting the
bleed-throughs.  The bleed-throughs are caused by a shielding that I am
surrounded by as the energy being released is far too massive for my
physical body to take.  I hope that isn't sounding confusing.  I feel
negative and positive bleed-throughs, and have felt the snake crawl up the
spine as a bleed-through as well, so I belong to the 'K-CLub' after all
*grin*.  
        I have seen much from what is being healed and learned a lot through
my experiences.  The images I see and feel are just glimpses really.  I
don't have a full memory (or at least connected to that memory) of my other
lives like other people have when that life is intergrated, what I have felt
is more or less similar to a dream, only remembering and being able to see
glimpses.  

        I am aware of my soul's purpose to an extent, my focus is a teacher.
I vibrate at many different states of being, sometimes I am the foolish
student, at others the wise teacher, this sort of extreme goes for many
things.  I understand fully now my own cleaning, the mechanics of it.  I
know the why behind this feeling or thought, energy, etc and this is
reassuring, where before it was quite scary when it was unknown.  

        Things I have noticed in myself:  When there are many energy waves
going about the head, with many differing thoughts, these are other lives
being intergrated.  When it gets to be really confusing, many differing
thoughts at once, this is kundalini going at many things at once.  Sometimes
a block in one chakra relates to many other blocks in other chakras.  The
chakras are layered with karma (tied up energy), even if they are open, they
are still blocked somewhat.  A certain amount of blockage needs to occur for
our awareness to stay within a certain amount of limits (growth) for that
lifetime.  The energy that is blocked inside the chakras comes into the body
from farther out in the aura.  The 'grimacing faces' of other lives being
intergrated that Gopi Krishna describes.  Feelings of fear and despair are
actually what is being cleaned, sometimes we connot help but be fearful.
When many things are being cleaned at once, the mind translates them into
confusion, despair, or depression.  Things are ebb and flow.  To not be
afraid of expanding beyond, you'll come back down.  Reflexology helps in
many ways.  Helping tone the organs and glands through release, helping
remove blocks in the chakras as well.  Great pains and pressure as energy
moves.  Numbness in the body paticularly the left side.  'Brain-dead' energy
of the masculine side, relating to the numbness.  A feeling of the body
being cement from the great tied up energy in the aura.  Great tension from
blocked energy centers.  Help coming for only just enough, nothing more.
Uncontrolled twiching as the energy pulls and pushes the body.  Chills, not
too bad so far.  Hives on the hands that carry the toxins that are released
by the energy and excreted by the skin.  Apple cider vinegar baths help a
lot in flushing out toxins.  More and deeper lines in the hands as more DNA
is flashed into this body.  A bigger forehead (and head for that matter)
through cranial expansion, making the hairline seem to be fading.  Ill
health and tissue inflammation or expansion in areas where energy sits.
Getting more of a gut in the solar plexus area for example.  


        That is all that I can think of, they seem to describe what happened
to me better than any story could.  Btw, if it seems to be educational, it
is meant to.  Not to insult anyone's intelligence, but rather to help anyone
that may be new to this.  



Best wishes to all on your journey,



Tim



                     

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Date: Thu, 07 Nov 1996 
From: Tim Duna 
Subject: Space Claiming

        I wrote this for another list, but I thought it'd be useful to the
subscribers here.  As we all know, our auras get brighter when we grow
spiritually.  This can attract unwanted attention of astral beings.  The
rule of like attracts like applies to what you are, not what you
purposefully vibrate temporarily.  If we were all divine, no lower spirit's
would be able to have a connection to us for a like reason.  In the
inbetween times of becoming that divine being, we need to have a safe
'space'.  This text gives direct procedures on claiming that space.


>From Spiritcomm-L:

Hello everyone, I thought this would be useful to those who are making
attempts to contact spirits, and those who may encounter problems with
spirits in their household.  This is a way to close off your home as a
private space upon the astral plane, until this is done, the space is pretty
much public and anyone and anything can just walk in and take up residence
if they so wish.  

1)  Clean the house up, or at least tidy it up.  Astral energies such as
thought-forms and such collect around physical objects, if you want to clean
the astral, you should start with the physical, so the energies have nothing
to cling to.  When I say energies, I am referring to thought-forms and
emotional energies, not spirits.  
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2)  Announce that you wish everything, all thought-forms, beings and
energies that are not there for your highest good (or the highest good of
all members of the household) to please leave.  Then tell them 'if there are
any unwilling to leave, you ask God (whatever higher power you believe in)
to help them leave'.  You can call upon beings I call 'spirit bouncers',
these are the astral police, they escort beings from places they shouldn't
be, and move them to places they should be.  But calling upon God, should
take care of the details of things and you won't need to worry about what
help is coming to clean the area.  Don't be hesitant if a spirit has taken
residence in the house for a long time and it's unwanted, spirits DO NOT
belong in physical homes.

3)  As you announce that you wish everything not in your highest good to
leave, you should clean the astral space with either a white light
visualization (something cleaning like a tornado, white water wash, etc.),
smudge it with a smudge stick (know how to smudge), or ask for God to send
the astral cleaners.  There is such a thing and they will clean the astral
enviorment for you.  

4)  Then ask for either a standing circle of protection to be drawn around
the house by God (or higher power), or ask for an inpenetrable web of Self
energy to be spun, connecting all corners, all walls, the ceiling, the
floor, all.  Do this in every room standing in the center of the room.
After a room is Self-energized, walk about the room and breath it in and own
it.  You may wish to ask for a cleaning in each room, and then claim it, and
then move onto the next room to be cleaned, etc.  

These procedures work.  The space will be your private astral home as well
as your private physical home.  Anything that comes into your reality there
will only be for your highest good.  If you experience something negative,
you will know it will only be for your own benefit as a spirit in learning.
You will need to clean the space regularly, as energies and thought-forms
can get clumped up in the space.  People leave imprints or marks in the
astral space and these need to be cleaned.  So you will want to clean it
with the said methods whenever you clean your house, or whenever you feel it
may be needing it.   



Tim
   



Date: Thu, 07 Nov 96 
From: Richard Satin 
Subject: Fwd: AutoPost from Kundalini Resource Center

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From: John Macedo Jr.          \ Internet:    (jmacedoATNOSPAMmonmouth.com)
Subject: AutoPost from Kundalini Resource Center 

Namaste Friends,

I am writing this to anyone who would think about trying to open up their
Kundalini energy without the supervision or at least in letting someone who
knows you...what exactly it is that you are attempting to do.  I am sending
you a story of something that happened to me in the beginning of this year. 
It could have turned out more tragic than it did, but there was alot of good
that came out of all of it.  Here it is...

I am very happy to find a page with information on this subject.  I have
been studying or following I should say, something in my soul that has a
very strong interest in the metaphysical and spiritual aspect of life.
I am 24 and I wish to tell you in brief of something incredible that
happened to me in the beginning of this year.
I have been working with energy for the past several years and have been
empathic ever since childhood.  More specifically I have a strong energy for
healing and have used it for that purpose more than for divination.  In the
past few years I have heard about Kundalini energy and was somewhat
interested in the idea of it, but something inside me had a feeling that it
would happen when it was time, I in Jan of this year, 1996, it did.
I cannot even begin to tell you how extrordinary my experience was, how
incredible but equally terrifying too.  My experience lasted for a total of
35 days and at the end of it, I was totally exhausted and had to take a stay
in the hospital for 13 days.  If it wasn't for the help of a few close
friends and mentors who have worked with energy for most of their life, I
don't think I would have made it through my experience.  There was so much
information and insight and spirtual awareness that it really did a number
on my physical body as I didn't want to stop experiencing this incredible
energy.
At the hospital, the doctors', very conservative, did not wish to accept the
idea that I was having a mystical experience, they instead referred to their
medical books and wished to administer drugs and such and tell me that I had
a chemical imbalance in my brain.  Very interesting I must tell you, how
quickly they could come to a conclussion like that without hearing me out,
so I let them run all the tests they wanted on me and you know what, they
came up empty handed.
They ran an MRI, EKG and other tests and came up negative.  They also
couldn't explain other things like why my brain was registering the same
activity as if someone who was in a REM state of sleep, yet I was fully
awake and very, very full of energy.
Here I was, a professional Networking engineer by day, a very sociable and
normal nice guy...and because I was meditating and raising my energy in my
free time, I was now having this mystical experience that had to play itself
out...and I must say, I was angry that the doctor's were so quick to judge
and label me...Manic/Depressive...oh, excuse me, the new term is Bi-polar.
Normally I would accept a diagnosis from a doctor, I mean, I assume they
went to school all of those years to learn something.  But there were things
that didn't add up.  Like the other people who were in the hospital with me
and who had histories of having certain psychotic episodes, the fact that I
didn't exhibit any signs of delusion and the only reason I went to the
hospital was to get some rest in a safe place and also that I was so aware
of so much of what was going on although I was in an incredibly altered
state.
When the doctor said, "You will have to take medication now, probably for
the rest of your life..." I told him, "You've got to be kidding me, you tell
me that I am manic/depressive because you don't know what's wrong with me,
even when I tell you that I was having a mystical experience.  If I told you
that everyday when I wake up my girlfriend gives me the best blow-job before
work but when I go into work I have to deal with one of the worst bosses you
could imagine, wouldn't that be grounds for manic-depression?"  To this he
replied, "You don't understand...." and then proceeded to tell me that there
is nothing wrong with the many the different meds they use these days.
For instance, they wanted to prescribe to me...Depacot or Lithium or
something else...  I freaked out... I said, "I don't even get a chance to
normalize and come down from my experience and you want me to get my brain
hooked on a chemical drug before I readjust? You're nuts!!!"
So, I took the meds for 2 weeks after being out of the hospital before
finally deciding...I don't need this crap...and threw them out.  It took
about another week and by then, I could feel my body coming out of it's
numbness.
I write this for you not to scare you but to warn anyone who is not use to
being in an altered state.  If you are doing something like Journey work or
energy work, or anything that leaves you altered for only a few minutes or
hours, then by all means...go for it, you should be alright.  But if you are
going to work with a powerful energy like Kundalini, prepare yourself and
know yourself before you do so.
What I noticed the most about the Kundalini Energy was that as it shot up
through my body my physical, mental and emotional energy was boosted or
amplified.  It was Incredible!!!  I was doing energy healing work with
several different people at the time and they said that although my energy
had been strong before, this time it was like nothing they had every felt
before and I must admit, it wasn't me, it more.  It was like I had an
electrical source connected to me and well...I could go on and on....
The only other bad thing that happened besides the hospital incident was
that I scared some of my friends who although they knew I was into spiritual
and metaphysical studies, some of the things I told them scared them and
they weren't ready to even try to listen and understand it.
I also have a new and deeper understanding appreciation for all of you out
there in the world, who are trying to also make it through this life thing
that we are all going through individually but also collectively.
I recieved insights on life that were so profound to me that I have to say 
a part of me died during that Kundalini rising...and a new part of me we
born.
Well..I've said enough...If anyone has any comments..including.."You're
f**king nuts!!!" please feel free to email me...

Namaste all...
John (jmacedoATNOSPAMmonmouth.com)


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Take long walks in stormy weather or through deep snow in the fields and woods,
if you would keep your spirits up.  Deal with brute nature.  Be cold and hungry
and weary.
Henry David Thoreau



Date: Thu, 7 Nov 1996 
From: Sandrak 
Subject: new member

Hi,
I experience my first k this summer taking a class at the local rec center.
i really dig the k.
how does one dedicate the time and energy to it daily?
And I am also interested in beginning books.
Thank you.

Peace out,
Sandy Schmeil
:)

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Date: Thu,  7 Nov 1996 
From: fluteATNOSPAMprodigy.com (CAROLYN MALONEY)
Subject: Books

I took a class on Kundalini Yoga. The instructor used the exercizes
from:

KUNDALINI YOGA
for Body, Mind, and Beyond
by Ravi Singh

You might check it out there is some very good information there.



Date: Thu, 7 Nov 1996 
From: "James Vernon, Allison" 
Subject: Re: On Faeries and Kundalini
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> All the posts and responses about faeries are fun--even entertaining!  But
> what does this have to do with kundalini?  As a relative newcomer to the
> list, I'm wondering just how far we stretch in the topics we share.  In
> reading over the purpose of the list, I see that it's supposed to be about
> dealing with issues pertaining to the awakening of kundalini.  I, for one,
> find no help unto this end in all these posts about faeries.

ACK!  There's a purpose list???

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Date: Fri, 8 Nov 1996 
From: Mohanamurali Parasuraman 
Subject: Flax seed oil

Does anyone know whether flax seed oil is called by some other name.  Also
are there mail order companies selling it.  Finally what are the different
brands on the market be it capsule or oil.  Thanks

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Mohan



Date: Thu, 7 Nov 1996 
From: dahydeATNOSPAMachilles.net (Doug Hyde)
Subject: Re: politics and K

Hi all!
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By virtue of my busy life, I relegate myself to listening to the postings,
which I find most facinating and which reinforce my own experiences.

On the subject and politics and K, has anyone read "Spiritual Politics:
Changing the World From the Inside Out." It is an excellent book about
spiritual concepts and approaches, written by a couple who spent time at
the Findhorn Foundation in Scotland. Another book which identifies
understandings and insights I have gained from kundalini awakening is
Deepak Chopra's book The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success.
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Changing the world from the inside out is what we all do, neh? We are all
powerful creators. We just need to have the patience to manifest what we
each know inside.

Cheers,

Doug


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Date: Thu, 7 Nov 1996 
From: Juliet 
Subject: Re: Flax seed oil

Mohanamurali Parasuraman wrote:
> 
> Does anyone know whether flax seed oil is called by some other name.  
> Also are there mail order companies selling it.  

Flax seed oil is also called linseed oil and used by fine arts painters
for, I think, finnishing canvases.  It oxidizes quite rapidly, and when
it does I guess it hardens.  You don't want to swallow this.

You also wouldn't want to buy it from a mail order company.  Although it
*is* available in capsules, the only way to go is to buy it fresh,
refridgerated, and packaged in a light-tight container.  Otherwise there
is kind of no reason to take it.  
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You can usually buy it in health food stores, back in the refridge.  Be
sure to check the expiration date, though.  You really do not want to
take the stuff if it has been exposed to heat or air or is old...



Date: Fri, 8 Nov 1996 
From: /etc/aliases 
Subject: Re: Defending Faeries and Kundalini
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Hi folks,

I've been lurking on the list for some weeks & intending to post an intro, I
still havent done that but I cant resist posting on this one though since it's
pressed too many coincidental buttons for me  ; so this is my intro too
I guess: 

I've been having a kundalini awakening with lots of coincidences and stuff and
messages from my spirit guides; help from faeries has been an important part of
it.

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Angelique, I'm delighted by your posts on the faeries ... I've very recently
had faery help myself whilst working on my kundalini & I've been enjoying your
playful descriptions of your own faery experiences...

Oddly, I was thinking before I logged on today about how important spirit
guides, angels & faeries are to us in being able to safely awaken our energies-
and I came in to find your post saying all the same things; 

A few weeks ago I was being guided by a friend how to complete my aura and
visualise a protective shell [pink egg with one-way mirrors on the outside
reflecting back energy as unconditional love] when I was unable to get the egg
to go down lower than my stomach; 

I needed to get that protection established badly but try as I might I could
not get it to go down any further. Then my friend who was guiding me through
the process said that she could see little faeries pulling the bottom edge of
my pink egg down, tugging it and trying to help me complete my aura... and she
described them to me. A little sceptical at first, I believed her and the edge
of my egg went down a bit further. After removing another block to it's
progress, the faeries got it to go down beneath my feet and tucked it in,
completing my aura; and my friend said that I might hear a loud crack
signifying that it had been done. Although I believed her and felt the energy
of my now-complete aura I didnt really expect the crack; Suddenly above me on
the ceiling this almighty 'Whack!' noise came from nowhere & I was sceptical no
longer.

So that's my faery story... for me personally, they were very helpful and very
important to me at a crucial part of my kundalini awakening and spiritual
evolution;

Angelique wrote > > Hello, Philip: >   The connection is simple. As part of my
meditation and a manifestation of > my K. awakening, I have been spending a lot
of time channelling my energy > into healing the planet, which led to
channelling Gaia, which in turn led to > an increased awareness of earth
spirits. I write about my K. experience.

Yes, I've been doing that too, channeling the awakened energy into healing and
the spiritual transformation. Working with spirits and faeries is not an
optional extra IMO but an integral part of what we do with our awakened
energies... channeling Gaia! Wow.....! I have read that the Gaia's kundalini
energy is being awakened too - with the help of the nature spirits; the spirit
/ kundalini link seems obvious there; and I think it is important for souls in
human bodies too to have the assistance and blessing of the spirit kingdoms
also - what happens on the collective level for Gaia also happens for us IMO.

>   An important aspect of the millennium is a need to work more closely with >
nature, to heal the scars of industry. The approaching Millennium is the >
reason K. awakening has become such a widespread phenomena, as to make this >
list possible. I believe this to be an opinion widely shared on the list.

Yes indeed... 

[snip]

>   Now I am proud to be a powerful pagan Witch, fuelled and blesed with >
Goddess power inside me.
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I sense that love-filled, feminine power from your post, Angelique; it is
uplifting and pleasant. I believe myself that men can receive the goddess also-
that the reemergence of feminine energy on the planet is offering both sexes
the opportunity to step out of the repression and pain of the male/negative
imbalance that has prevailed for so long and to use that feminine power and
love to heal both ourselves and the planet; I have had so many synchronicities
with this these last couple of weeks [a la 'The Celestine Prophecy'] it's
scary! [smile]

I take as my personal the symbol of the Serpent in > the Holy Garden, but in my
world, the Serpent gave the gift of the sacred > sexuality to first woman, in
the Martriarchal creation myths that long > preeceeded the old testament. 

yes, versions of this are emerging in many people's worlds... Barbara
Marciniak's channeled books & others I've been led to recently bear that out
IMO;

>   I will not indulge in Church bashing, but I would like to ask, why is it >
that a religion purportedly based on love and truth, (truth supposedly being >
self-evident), required so much violence and bloodshed, and oppression, in >
spreading it's message?

I believe myself that the male vibration's imbalance is responsible for that
dichotomy also; if men's feeling centres, their heart chakras had not been
horrifically shut down they simply could not do these things, murdering and
raping etc. If men had had their feeling centres operating properly then this
oppression could not have taken place; with true love in your heart, you cannot
do these things. And the re-emergence of the goddess will lead men and women
both to feel what spiritual love is in their heart chakras and such oppression
will not be possible: love-filled beings simply cannot do this. And I believe
that it is that emergence which will expose the religious oppression of the
past as being motivated and designed to extinguish love and truth; with a fully
active heart chakra the idea of murdering in the name of truth and love simply
does not compute. 

[snip]

>    Even though my personal life mission is around freedom of sexual >
expression, and the destruction of any outside restrictions on how adults > may
choose to consensually express love.

Have you read the Marciniak books or a book called 'The Oracle of Clarion -
some wonderful insights on that. 

>   Is that not the way of a loving Goddess? My reward, that Faerie are real >
to me, and their joy and delight fills my life, and I choose to share that joy.
>   And there are others on this list, that are using my expression to >
facilitate thier own reconnection to Gaia.

Yes!!! [smile>]

The Faerie lightness goes a long > way to lifting some of the harder aspects of
K. awakening.

Indeed... with charm, laughter and humor even the craggiest mountains can
become easily flattenable molehills. 

This is a > blessing, and my expressions, in my view, are sacred work. Work
that was, > and is, very much inspired by my own awakening years ago.
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Yes... I see love, laughter, light and faery-charm as being a great boon to any
awakening; 


More Faerie Tales please! [smile]

Steve Murray

grkinfo2ATNOSPAMudcf.gla.ac.uk
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'My love is like a storybook story 
 But it's as real as the feelings I feel' - Theme from the Princess Bride
					    [a rather neat faery tale movie] 


"A Goddess speaks from the heart and when she speaks she has no fear; She walks
this earth in rainbow colours knowing she is the sun'. -                

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