To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/12/27 21:33
Subject: [K-list] Hi.
From: Hudson N. Jackson II

For some folks out there, I hope your holiday season was cool. :-)

I finally got the repression issue straightened out. I've been *trying*
all sorts of ways to get an answer as to what it is, without success
until this past weekend. I finally got my answer when I was "presented"
with a woman I was attracted to - but never talked to - a few years ago.
. . and now I'm being given a lesson on what love *really* is. So, at
night, I've already been taught how to tell whether I actually love her,
or if more attitude exercises are necessary. It's more of how I feel
than what I do, actually, so I have to focus more on that. This voice -
I guess it's hers - keeps teasing me quite a bit with this "dirt" stuff.
She says more of that's necessary in order for me to get beyond my
current state.

It's cold on the East Coast now, and as a result, the internal heater
has automatically switched on (finally). It's gotten to a point now
where I can go outside during the middle of the day, in subfreezing
weather, without a coat, and walk down the street to pick up lunch and
head back into the office without freezing. I've got a cold now
apparently (and the post-nasal drip that's been around for months
doesn't help matters), but I haven't had a fever yet. I just have to
drink more fluids and dry my hair in the morning before going outside,
that's all.

At night time, I have only one sheet on my bed now, even during the
winter, and wear little, as I will start sweating if I have too much on.
This is the second year that the internal heater has worked so well at
night. By the way, this internal heater I speak of is a side-effect of
kundalini.

I also have found it interesting that I can actually cram for tests at
the last minute, literally, and still manage to remember almost
everything when I walk into the classroom. To date, on only one
occasion did I get less than an A when doing this. . . although I
wouldn't recommend anyone do what I've done; I have quite a busy
schedule that leaves little time for studying and little privacy. I
couldn't get away with this a few years ago, before I started
experiencing the usual kundalini phenomenon.

Few temper tantrums, also. This is getting real good. And I haven't
even meditated in a long, looooooooooooong time.

By the way, Angelique, I was going to ask you something, but I see that
it's already been done. I was quite surprised that the list moved; I
didn't realize it until I found that the messages were stuck in the in
box (usually, they'll move to where I tell it to on their own). Given
the length of the digests, I was going to ask if you set it up to
include a table of contents, but since it was automatically done
recently, I'll just thank you. :-) It truly makes my life easier!

In case I don't get time to read anything else here this week, I want to
wish you all a Happy New Year. . . hope that Y2K prob. doesn't bite.
;-)

- Hudson

All email addresses on this site have been spam proofed by the addition of ATnospam in place of the symbol. All posts publicly archived with the permission of the people involved. Reproduction for anything other than personal use is prohibited by international copyright law. Thanks to sponsorship from Fire-Serpent.org.

DISCLAIMER!