To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/12/21 07:40
Subject: [K-list] Blockages
From: Jenell

Some thoughts about blockages.

When in the bible or other mystical texts, there is reference to eyes
that do not see, ears that do not hear, and hardened hearts that do not
feel, and the effect of spiritual awakening opening the eyes to see,
ears to hear, heart to feel, etc., I think it is referring to blockages.

I´ve noted in another post it isn´t always easy to even know blockages
are there, let along what they are, until they´ve been ‘hit´ by the
rising k. Most of us don´t know our blockages, where they are, what they
are, for the very nature OF a blockage. It is a ‘blind spot´ in our
awareness. Blockages hide themselves from us, by the very nature of what
they are. It can be easier sometimes for someone else to see them,
though that´s not reliable for trying to find them because too often
others´ own blockages get in the way, of course.

I´ve learned some ‘tricks´ for coming to recognition of blockages, in my
own self, and others. One you recognize it, know it´s there, then you
can begin the work of finding out just what it is, why it´s there, and
how to deal with it. And the most useful one is actually a very easy
one.

Simply start making note of what we ‘can´t see´. This can be of ones own
self, or in how we perceive others. what are the things you might think
of in say8ng you can´t see yourself doing that? What are the things in
others that you can´t see why they do that? What are the things that
the very THOUGHT of doing, or anyone else doing, are abhorrent to you?
then, analyze just what it is about it that causes you to feel that way
about it. This doesn´t mean trying to bring yourself to ‘do´ that thing,
but why you feel so strongly about it. What prevents us from
understanding, ‘seeing´, why another might do it.

When we have these experiences that happen here on the list or any where
else in life, of one being unable to ‘see´, ‘hear´, what someone else is
really saying, it is for having hit a blockage. I mean this in sense of
one has expressed a thought or idea fairly clearly, and someone ‘reads
it´ as something else entirely, even as saying the very reverse,
opposite, of what the writer intended to say, and most others would have
readily understood him to say. That person has hit a blockage, a blind
spot, a deaf spot. And we all know people that do this to an incredible
degree, that it´s difficult to engage in even the most mundane and
trivial conversations with them for their doing this, it seems
sometimes, to everything we try to say. To us, it is what seems to be
‘twisting our words´. But they seem to have really heard it, or
understood it, that way, for some reason. And try as we might, we often
find there´s just no ‘explaining´ that´s going to clear up the
‘misunderstanding´. Frustrating!

Also, I´d like to mention to someone expressing strong determination
that they do not want to, and do not ‘intend´ to, experience pain, in
context of the blockage that may be involved. What we ‘see´ through our
eyes, ‘hear´ through our ears, ‘feel´ in our heart/emotions, is simply
the perception of what sensory input they are presented with. We cannot
‘choose´ to ‘see´ something different than what we are looking at, ‘see´
a blue sky and green grass when in truth we are looking upon a gray,
cloudy sky and barren desert sand. I speak here in the literal visual
sense. The same is true of our feelings. Either we ‘feel´, or we don´t.
To not feel, experience pain, can only be done by not ‘feeling´ AT ALL.
Which cuts us off from feeling the ‘good´ things, too.

whether it is a determination to see/not see, hear/not hear, feel/not
feel, what is actually there, but something else, not there, that we
would rather feel, we are trying to come from a personal power position
that we do not have, is a delusion. We can only do it be NOT seeing,
hearing, feeling, AT ALL, because we don´t have that personal power to
command what comes into contact with us, what there is to be
experienced.

Now, one can choose to think, instead, about blue sky and green grass,
when there is nothing to ‘see´ but gray sky and sand, and it make for a
nice diversionary game, the use of or imaginations. However, if we at
some point lose touch with the reality that it IS just our imagination,
come to really believe we are looking instead at blue sky and green
grass, believe that´s what is really there, we´ve fallen under delusion,
we´ve formed a blockage.

Jenell

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