kundalini-l-d Digest Volume 96 : Issue 230
1 Date: Sun, 10 Nov 1996
From: Mistress Angelique Serpent
Subject: dominance paradigm Part 2:My reality.
>Th part of all this that I wonder about most relates to the element of direct
>experience. Before my K stuff, I was open but skeptical about much
>paranormal activity. But then it happened to me, in what Angelique might
>call the 10 percent I experience through my senses. I watched myself doing
>spontaneous yoga poses, I heard myself doing spontaneous chanting, I felt
>myself doing "breath of fire" for minutes on end. And, when the channels
>were most blown open, I heard the voices of other entities/beings/aspects of
>my unconscious/whatever you want to call them, speak with my own voice or
>silently within me.
>
>So, with regard to faeries and Spiderman, etc., my question is: how do you
>experience their existence for yourself? Is a reality choice, like Spiderman
>over Reagan, experienced in the same way as chakra energy, or an apple? Do
>you have some kind of direct experience of these beings, or do you will them
>into being? Or is that, to you, an arbitrary distinction? I know for me,
>and most other people, what's most real to us comes as something visceral,
>powerful, beyond our own ego control.
Yes, there is a distinction a n d there isn't. I will try to explain.
Spiderman was a conscous reality choice, but it was also the opening of my power
chakra, several years ago. I was musing on the idea that truth is stranger than
fiction, and that art imitates life. My body started to vibrate as I realised
that the truth of these statements, is that reality is actually far stranger than
the wildest science fiction novel, Hollywood's wierdest tale. That all these
things may even be real, somewhere, somewhen. I also realized that choosing to
believe this would mean the rest of the world quite possibly deciding I was
completely insane. I felt poised on a cliff, a terrifying chasm that meant more
power than my wildest fantasies, in exchange for renouncing any claim to sanity,
according to conventional measurement. Vibrating with joy and exhilaration(and
K., I realize now) I leapt. I leapt, thank Goddess, I leapt off the cliff into
the possibility of madness, the joy of the power and beauty of living life
according to my own beliefs, seeing it manifest, because I believe that truth is
always sranger than fiction, and I affect the script of my own life by allowing
room for 'insane' co-incidences, miracles and probabilities.
So when I was in New York, I watched the tops of buildings for signs of
webbing. I didn't see any, but Spiderman spends a lot of time elsewhere.
T.Rex, on the other foot, is a pooka (a la Harvey the giant invisible Rabbit,
in that old B&W movie) that appeared, because I was frustrated with my overactive
imagination's ability to reverse negative energy release visualizations. Bury it
on the imaginary beach, the tide will uncover it again, etc.
So I challenged my imagination to come up with a method of destruction, that
would be irreversible. If a tryannosauras rex eats it, it's gone forever, I
decided.
T-Rex looks loke a 'real' tryannosaur, he acts like a cartoon character. His
favorite food in the whole world is the smelly negative crap that humans keep
inside them, to limit thier evolution. He is very polite, he waits till it's
offered by hand, and always belches when he's done. Sometimes he bows, and does a
little tap dance, in thanks for the snack. Sometimes he shits a magical pearl, as
a gift in exchange. (pearls of wisdom, once I remember one hatched, for someone.
Don't remember what came out.) He has magical powers, and manifests any size.
I've called him in to help people many many times. He is very real, they can see
him, even call him without me. I do not know if I created him out of myself, or
he has always existed, or he is a spirit who takes this form to amuse me. But he
is very real. Got a snack? Believe in him, call him up. Tell him I said it's
okay. See him walk in through the wall. Or sometimes, just his huge head poke up
through the floor. Hel-lo, T.Rex. (domin8rex named partly for him.) Treat him
with respect. Hold out your hands, imagine the negative energy/feeling/quality
manifesting in your hands, or in a bowl in your hands, until it's real enough to
smell. When it's all there, hold it out for him to take. Watch what happens.
A Faerie Tale: Last night: my young lady friend had sreached sufficiently in
the playground outside, after her enlightenment. We were idling in the moonlight,
sharing a cigar. Looking at the mysterious 'heat shimmers', (with dancing
particles of refracted rainbow) of various sizes gathered on the ground around
us. Talking about the world. She said something complimentary about the faerie,
and we both felt the rush of love that was thier response. I commented on it, her
eyes widened, she said 'I thought that was you.'
I addressed the Faerie, explaining that she needed a little test. I directed
her to ask if the faerie loved her, out loud, and feel the response. While I
moved 20' away, and sang 'O Canada', waving my arms and improvising new lyrics
without missing a beat. She got the positive result, so I told her to ask if her
angels loved her, while I sang "O Canada", original version, with waving fall
maple leaves conducting. She is even more beautiful, radiant with the knowledge
that she is so unconditionally loved, by Faerie and Angels. It is an amazing
gift, to be a dominant fetsh witch. I am so blessed. The Faerie are very real,
and my companions, but completely independent of me.
My belief systems allow perception of them into my 10%.
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>I have no way of knowing about the "truth" of your faery world. I have no
>need to judge it. But it isn't real to me, so I am very curious about its
>reality for you.
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Of course you do. Ask the voice of your heart chakra, if such a world is
possible. If it is my reality. If it could be yours, if you so desire. Heart
chakra knows all, and never lies. But sometimes it will not give you a truth that
you are not ready to hear.
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>My hope is that this post can stimulate open discussion, and not unhelpful
>conflict. It seems to me that there is a great divide, in the world and on
>this list, between those who live with faeries and those who don't. I'd like
>to meet for a discussion on the bridge between.
>
>Howard
->
Sounds wonderful, I hope this giant mail bomb isn't more discussion than you
bargained for! But if we're gonna meet on a bridge, perhaps we should ask the
ogre underneath if it's okay, first!(smile) Blessings, Angelique.
Mistress Angelique Serpent,
Dominant Experiential Facilitator.
Website= http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent
*******************
"Feel your hair come tumblin' down, feel your feet start kissin the ground.
Feel your arms are opening out. And feel your eyes are lifted to God.
With no words, with no song, I'm gonna dance the dream, and make the dream
come true.
I'm gonna dance the dream, and make the dream come true ( She gotta dance...)"
Kate Bush, "The Red Shoes"
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2 Date: Sun, 10 Nov 1996
From: Mistress Angelique Serpent
Subject: Energy Rebuild In Progress...Done!
Well, now you get a testimonial! I mentioned I asked one of my companions of
last evening to write his experience of my energy work, the events of last night
when I was experimenting with crystals. Here it is.
I have his permission to include his email address on the post, and he has
agreed to recieve email from listmembers who may wish to query or comment.
No flames, please!
Recognize this is an act if trust in the list, on his part. He is not a
member. Yet!
I will mention, though, that I hardly spoke to him at all while I was placing
the crystals on him, I was too busy focusing on what I was doing, creating the
energy flows. I asked him about DNA, later. Angelique.
>From: Lloyd Sumpter
>To: Mistress Angelique Serpent
>
>Well, here's my version of what happened last night. Feel free to edit to
>Your heart's content. Mistress's note: I didn't edit anything.
->
> I'd like to relate my energy exerience that I had with Mistress
>Angelique. I'm not "up" on Kundalini, so I'm not familiar with the
>jargon. I hope you an bear with me and to the appropriate
>translations as I recount my tale.
>
> First, some background. About a month ago, I was trying to
>establish the relationship between the tiny but infinite "white light"
>I see inside myself, and the "universal" White Light that I've been
>taught to "attach" to to draw energy from. Drawing from Mistress'
>power so that I could "access" my Council of Druids, I asked them the
>question. They were confused by it. "It's the same thing!" So I was
>left with trying to live with the apparent paradox of "External Energy
>is the Same Thing as Internal Energy".
>
> Now, last night. I was experiencing Mistress' meteorite glass. Of
>course, it has a very different energy than other crystals. Others are
>"attached" to the Earth(/Gaia), and of course this piece is not of the
>earth, so it is "space-bound". I allowed myself to ride along with
>what it was showing me. I saw mainly utter blackness (after all,
>that's what most of "outer space" is), but got the impression that
>this void as a LONG WAY from earth.
> Then, Mistress began to add more crystals. Once again, Her
>considerable energy allowed the Council of Druids to access me. At
>this point, it gets hard to explain "who's doing what", because, as I
>found out mere moments later, the energy in the Druids, the crystals,
>and even in Mistress, are all the same thing. The appearance of power
>(as in Mistress) results from the ability to access that universal
>energy (which She does very well!)
> Basically, the Druids were using the crystals to channel Mistress'
>energy to me to allow them to "re-make me from scratch" (they seemed
>quite fastinated by their work). It went like this:
> I started by seeing the "big-bang" - the point when the entire
>universe was a single event of energy. Then, the stars/galaxies/
>planets began to "spin off". But unlike the "Physics 101" version, the
>original energy was NOT diluted as is "split off" - the entire energy
>of that first instance was in every star, every planet... (BTW, I had
>not taken drugs of any kind, except for a glass of rum. All this was
>due to Mistress and Her energy). Also, since time is not real, I
>realized that that first universal outpouring of energy, that "big
>bang", exists RIGHT NOW.
> Then, as I began to understand how this "Universal Engergy" was in
>all things in the universe, it entered my body. The same energy that
>was the "Big Bang" came in my feet and up my body in one huge KA-BANG!
>Needless to say, the resulting jolt knocked most of the crystals
>off. I understood that in that split-second, my essence had been
>"rebuilt" from the Universal Energy, just as it always was.
> Mistress was asking me about DNA helixes, but I didn't really see
>that in this experience. I saw events in "pure energy", with little or
>no attachements to physical reality. I noted that my body is just an
>"interface" between my Real Self and this rather insignificant plane
>we seem to think is so important.
> Well, that was it. I spent quite a while trying to adjust my
>physical body to the new inner self, and trying to take in and
>understand all that I experienced. The experience still blows me away
>- WOW! The energy in that room that night was incredible. Mistress
>seems like a catalyt that allows all this to happen - I'm not sure
>even She understands just how powerful She is.
>
>Lloyd Sumpter E-mail to lsumpterATNOSPAMportal.ca
> "Don't get Even, get Odd!"
>
>
Mistress Angelique Serpent,
Dominant Experiential Facilitator.
Website= http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent
*******************
"Feel your hair come tumblin' down, feel your feet start kissin the ground.
Feel your arms are opening out. And feel your eyes are lifted to God.
With no words, with no song, I'm gonna dance the dream, and make the dream
come true.
I'm gonna dance the dream, and make the dream come true ( She gotta dance...)"
Kate Bush, "The Red Shoes"
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3 Date: Mon, 11 Nov 1996
From: Jim Cook
Subject: The Otherside
( Ghosts, Spirits, Entities. )
Dear Listmembers,
I was just wondering if there was a difference in all three or are
they the same ?
I have seen three ghosts during my lifetime but this was many years
before my "K" awakening.
- I haven't seen any since but I see these little dots of light zipping
about. Some are orange but most of them are blue.
When I look directly at them, they disappear.
Any Idea what these could be ?
Jim
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4 Date: Mon, 11 Nov 1996
From: Jim Cook
Subject: Re: high heels
At 04:15 PM 11/10/96 -0800, you wrote:
> DISCLAIMER: No, this has nothing to do with S/M or D/S. It has to do with
> K rising or resting or getting imbalanced.
>
>
>Does the wearing of high heeled shoes effect K? I wore a 3" pair for a few
>minutes yesterday (very rare for me to do so unless they are fairly low) and
>felt almost immediately off-kilter K wise. Has anyone else felt this? Does
>anyone wear fairly high heels most of the time? Do you notice any effect on
>K when you do or don't?
>
>I know this may seem a frivolous area to get into but it may not be so at
>all. Let's wait and see what the response is before the flames are
>contemplated. TIA
>
>Mary
>
>
> Dear Mary,
I think that the best footwear to put on ones little footsies are
those sandals made from old tires.
They are made in Viet Nam and cost very little.
They ground you better than anything I've ever seen.
Jim
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5 Date: Mon, 11 Nov 1996
From: CGIAJWATNOSPAMaol.com
Subject: Re: dominance paradigm Part 2:My reality.
I also feel that any reality is possible
As our senses tell our brain what is "real" or not, and since everything we
consiter real is actually somewhere in our brain and since everything is energy
and mostly space, my big problem is why can't I alter my own reality more easily.
Why can't I fly, or use telecinisis, or see tangible faries or Trex's. It
really bums me out that my universe in my head is so consistent.
Even when I was doing hullucinigenics, there was an underlying reality.
Once on shrooms I was able to communicate with a huge maple tree, and when my K
rose, I was able to communicate with the trees outside my building, and sometimes
even now if I'm real peaceful I can kinda do it, but why can't I distort my
reality. What part of this reality am I so attached to that I'm too scared to
play in the infinite. If insanity and being God are the same things (and that's
fine with me), do you think I'm waiting till I'm ready to be God? Why doesn't
God let me have more tangible progress or more K-risings, why am I or God holding
me back, and why won't I let myself, or God let me see the path?
Guess this turned into a venting thearapy session for me
any comments, any guesses as why I can't let myself go "insane"
Aaron
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6 Date: Mon, 11 Nov 1996
From: CGIAJWATNOSPAMaol.com
Subject: meditative moderation
Eileen made a great point when see talked of her subconcious/higher powers
telling her not to meditate.
Lots of meditation manuals tell us to be strict with the meditations and do it at
the same time, for same amount no matter what ect.
-
There for what I am about to say goes against many other suggestions.
Only meditate when you feel It is the thing to Do!!!
I think this is especially important for those with potentially dangerous K.
I only meditate when I feel I should, when my energy is up and when it seems to
work or go somewhere. Sometime I try to meditate and nothing happens, or
everything feels wrong, and so I stop and shake off and go have tea or something
I highly suggest that people meditate whenever it feels right, and refrain when
it doesn't. Our subconcious/higher selves / some higher power usually know
better than our concious and we should head thier warnings.
Aaron
7 Date: Mon, 11 Nov 1996
From: CGIAJWATNOSPAMaol.com
Subject: On gaining knowledge
something I just thought of
When Adam and Eve gained knowledge, it was the difference between good and evil.
Something I learned long ago and kinda gave up on is that at some time in our
lives, we didn't know what anything was. A chair had no name and was simply an
object relating in space to other objects. We learned the relation of all those
objects later. Part of meditating and becoming elinghtened might be to find that
place again. Going back to Eden might be temporaraly blocking our connection of
thoughts so we don't see a chair, but see see differences in light, and objects
and such.
Am I way off Base?
Aaron
8 Date: Tue, 12 Nov 1996
From: Paco
Subject: re: Kundalini and spiritual consciousness
Ori,
I really like your post; maybe the ego thing is a point where it is so
easy to make mistakes. It's like something that can bounce you from being
centered or make you really just wonder about yourself...then again, ego has a
purpose because in this world anything that's not nailed down is like stolen or
eaten or destroyed. Know what I mean?
Really liked the "Cyclic" post from Eileen; several posts are just really making
me glad I'm on this list...I'm learning so much and improving since I first
subscribed.
Re: "muscle bound"; I'm gonna get me some magnesium, sounds good. Also, if you
can truly relax, you might feel better. Sometimes there is like a deep tension or
something in meditation. Also a heat...happiness, breathing and relaxation maybe
help. Laughter and being with friends, and Pepsi *smile*. There've been times
when it felt like my blood was turning into acid...but it's alright, just think
about mystical supernatural stuff and have faith. Sleep 10-12 hours if you feel
the need. later
Paco
9 Date: Mon, 11 Nov 1996
From: Mistress Angelique Serpent
Subject: high heels
> DISCLAIMER: No, this has nothing to do with S/M or D/S. It has to do with
> K rising or resting or getting imbalanced.
(Smile) Pity, but I'll answer anyway.
>
>Does the wearing of high heeled shoes effect K?
>
>Mary
>
Yes indeedy, it sure does.
- High heels realign your spine. Your pelvis tilts, and stomach muscles hust
be tightened to hold the body straight in spite of the new curve at the base
of your spine.
In fact, the higher the heels, the more the body must be held carefully and
ridgidly in place, to maintain consistent grace and balance while the centre
of gravity of the body has been distorted, and the medium of balance, the
arch and toes are restricted.
K. likes a straight path to follow, and the heels disrupt that.
It is disrupted drastically if you slump in high heels. The belly sags out to
follow the new curve and the spine curves out backward between the shoulderblades
to counterbalance the weight being shifted forward on the toes, and the shoulders
droop, making the head poke forward. The disruption of the energy paths accounts
for part of the reason your feet hurt so much, after.
If you are sitting in heels, kick them off. (Not worth doing if thigh high
laceup stilletto boots with a million little teeny hooks.)
Having your heels a few inches higher than the chair has been designed for
comfort means that you are sitting more on the points of your pelvis, and
soon you will slouch, to change the angle of contact between hip bones and
chair.
(The real reason why I built up the padding so massively high, when I
reupholstered my throne! Can't kick off the boots, remember? tee hee.)
For that matter, when you go to sit in a low chair in high heels, it is nearly
impossible not to 'fall' into the chair, because the arch of your foot, which
would lower your body gracefully, has been reshaped into partial immobilization.
Likewise, running in heels is impossible, because the foot has been reshaped to
maximum spring, and so cannot lower the body weight with each step, or spring
off. Instead, the bones of the foot are smashed unnaturally into the pavement,
and the movement must be accomplished by hips and thighs. So much for the comic
superheroine idea.
Actually, I recently wore a pair of those moulded hard plastic sole, early 80's
Cougar mule sandals with 4" heels for a day at a wilderness lodge retreat, as a
personal test of care, grace and focus. A tiny, ridgid and uneven contact with a
ground surface of woods, beach, rocks docks and mountain paths. Only a wide strap
over my toes to hold them onto my feet, and a sprained ankle threat for the
slightest misstep, the smallest piece of gravel rolling under heel. The unnoticed
crack in the decking. My feet held so that I must use my whole body
synchronistically to maintain balance, atop my shoes. My vanity, as always,
insisting on perfect posture. Accomplished by imaging my self held bouyant by
earth energy.
I spent a very active and interesting day, yet at the same time, it was a slow
motion whole body meditation, on seeking one's path carefully, with eyes open and
maintaining grace under challenging situations...had an interesting Zen-like
quality to it.....physical restrictions can create altered states of
conscousness. SM Shamen learn this firsthand.
Um, this is probably more info than you wanted...
Blessings, Angelique.
- Mistress Angelique Serpent,
Dominant Experiential Facilitator.
Website= http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent
*******************
"Feel your hair come tumblin' down, feel your feet start kissin the ground.
Feel your arms are opening out. And feel your eyes are lifted to God.
With no words, with no song, I'm gonna dance the dream, and make the dream
come true.
I'm gonna dance the dream, and make the dream come true ( She gotta dance...)"
Kate Bush, "The Red Shoes"
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10 Date: Mon, 11 Nov 1996
From: MDono11364ATNOSPAMaol.com
Subject: Re: Jyotir Veda Festival (fwd)
Christopher,
I noticed your posting about the Festival. What is Jyotir Veda? I am kind of
new to this list and to Kundalini. I am very interested.
I was born at 5:30 AM on November 3, 1964 in Holyoke, Massachusetts. What can
you tell me?
Mary D.